Hilary Fields: Bliss

Lorenzo was in the zone. And if Sera couldn’t intercept him, he was about to score. Enzo groaned, mashing both of them deeper into the carnage of the carefully arranged appetizers atop the locker’s small prep station and grinding for all he was worth. Hot, adolescent kisses were raining down on her neck and shoulders, her heavy cotton chef’s blouse was unbuttoned halfway down her chest, and her bra was migrating south alarmingly quickly under the direction of his busy fingers.

Clearly, she’d been rather persuasive when she’d invited him in here. Wish I had that kind of charisma when I was fully conscious, Sera thought ruefully. “Enzo… we need to stop before someone walks in,” she panted, trying to catch her breath and simultaneously capture Lorenzo’s hands before they could denude her further. But Enzo’s English wasn’t so hot, and in any case he wasn’t in much of a mind-set to hear about her change of heart just now. “ Esperar… basta, basta!” she pleaded breathlessly, wondering if she even had the Spanish words right.

Maybe if I was a better lover, a better girlfriend, I wouldn’t be in this situation to begin with, she thought with a rush of panicky regret. Sera’s breath caught in a sudden sob. Maybe Blake wouldn’t have…

But he had.

She’d stumbled on the pectorally enhanced blond hostess of the Food Channel’s Hot Chef! going down on her boyfriend in the storage pantry of their flagship restaurant last night, and she hadn’t been sober since. Last night, she’d drunk to ease her hurt. Hell, she’d drunk because drinking was her go-to pain reliever in pretty much every situation. This morning, hungover and humiliated, being forced to work with Blake—looking fresh as the proverbial daisy and smug as shit—had had her reaching for another bottle, and damn the early hour. But it didn’t seem to matter how much she guzzled—the sight of that skank sporting one of Sera’s own chef’s caps as her head bobbed rhythmically with her oral ministrations was a bitter gall that wouldn’t wash away.

Worst of all, Blake had merely shrugged when she’d confronted him later that night, humiliated and furious. “What did you expect, Serafina?” he’d said with a philosophical shrug. “Someone with your… issues … could never keep a man like me satisfied for long.”

The last of Sera’s illusions—that Blake was all bluster, a demanding perfectionist but more driven than truly cruel—died in that moment.

Hot Chef? Stone-cold bastard was more like it.

And I think… maybe I’m being a bit of a bitch myself right now—to poor Enzo if not to Blake, Sera realized, suddenly shamed. It was coming back to her now. She’d invited the eighteen-year-old Lorenzo, who had made no secret of his crush on her these past couple months, to this chilly rendezvous out of some vague notion of payback. If Blake can make out in the kitchen right under my nose, why shouldn’t I do the same? Serve the chef some of his own sauce; see how he likes it, she’d thought with a spurt of juvenile spite. But all the time another part of her had been thinking, wishfully… Maybe he’ll be jealous; regret what he’s done?

Dumb ploy, Sera. Really, magnificently, dumb.

Enzo didn’t seem to think so. Her pants, thanks to his efforts, were puddled around her ankles, and the lusty busboy had only his jockey shorts going for him at the moment. Smashed salmon paste caused Sera to slide precariously atop the marble-topped prep station, threatening to topple them both to the floor in fishy disgrace. As if this wasn’t enough of a mistake, she thought, wincing. Nothing says “oops” like your naked ass skidding in the salmon mousse.

She’d met Blake over mousse, as a matter of fact, though it had been chocolate, not salmon, back then.

It was Sera’s final semester at the French Culinary Institute, and she was just a credit or so shy of graduation. She was also deeply, alarmingly in debt and facing a future of pitiful pay and ungodly hours for the next several years—a purgatory known in the industry as “paying your dues.” She’d made her peace with that, though it meant putting off her dream of starting her own line of custom cakes and confections until she was more established. But in order to get established, she’d have to land that all-important first job.

Blake Austin had the power to offer her that. Those who worked in his kitchens… well, they could write their own tickets—if they survived the experience. It was whispered that not everyone did.

“He looks like Gabriel Byrne,” her friend Mindy murmured in her ear as they held up the wall in the institute’s test kitchen, making themselves inconspicuous. “With a little Colin Farrell mixed in.” She said this with none of the sighing or breathlessness such an observation might be expected to engender. Rather, her tone was clinical.

Mindy was a butcher. Big, burly, with a nostril ring and short, spiky bleached blond hair, she was prone to wearing T-shirts with logos like “Meat Is Murder… Tasty, Tasty Murder” under her bloodstained aprons. She could butterfly a veal chop in seconds flat, make you a sweet Italian sausage fit to weep over, or cut you a chateaubriand that would have your guests offering you sexual favors for life. But she couldn’t care less about sweets. She was only in this class to fill out her requirements. Thus, she alone among the twenty or so students assembled in front of their final projects failed to tremble at the palate of the great Blake Austin, who had deigned to drop in on this class—on the condition, it was rumored, that he got to poach the best student for his newest restaurant venture.

“Shite!” A fork ricocheted from the nearest sink. “Absolute shite. You call this a torte? My aunt Sally could shit a better torte, and she’s been dead seven years! Get out of my sight.”

One by one, her classmates were dismissed and humiliated. By the time it was Sera’s turn to be critiqued, she was sweating, nauseated, and not at all sure she wasn’t about to faint. When Austin’s spoon dipped into the deceptively simple triple chocolate mousse she’d concocted, it felt like he was delving into her soul. But would he find it wanting?

“Hm,” he grunted. “Hm, hm, hm.” Cunning black eyes skewered Serafina, and she felt herself grow warm unexpectedly. “Is that… cardamom I taste?” One arched brow cocked itself, as though almost too weary to complete the gesture, but was making a special exception for her.

Sera nodded, her tongue glued to the roof of her mouth. She’d added the spice to the white chocolate layer at the last second, wanting just a hint of the exotic to linger on the tongue.

“And do I detect a soupçon of… what, is that, orange essence… in the bittersweet?”

“Ah… yes, Chef.”

There was a pause, during which Serafina died several times.

“Bloody brilliant,” he proclaimed. “I don’t mind telling you, when I caught sight of that mousse, I thought I might perish from sheer boredom—I mean, really, who makes chocolate mousse anymore? But you’ve surprised me, and that doesn’t happen often. Damned if you haven’t completely reinvented the dish. It’s like you’ve perfumed the air around the mousse, the spice is done with such a light touch. And yet it adds ten dimensions to the taste. And the texture. Fuck me, but I’ve never had a mousse so bloody delightful. It’s like getting blown by a thousand-dollar hooker, that mousse is. Makes you beg for it. You—what’s your name, little bird?”

“S-S-Serafina, Chef,” Sera stuttered, oblivious to both the envious glares of her classmates and Mindy’s alarmed gaze.