Филиппа Карр: The pool of St Branok

"Hello, Angelet. I guessed you'd be here. Two minds with one thought. I want to talk to you alone. It's why I have come to Cornwall really."

She came and stood very close to me. The ground was slippery. I was aware of her ... very near to me.

"This pool fascinates you," she said. "It's because of what happened."

"Yes," I agreed.

"You've never forgotten. How could you, after what you did with Ben's help?"

I said: "I believe you know a great deal about that man."

"Yes," she answered. "I want to talk to you about it."

"Why to me?"

"Because it concerns you. I knew Mervyn Duncarry. He was a tutor in a house where I was a governess."

"Perhaps I should tell you that I know that."

"Through Justin? I thought he would tell you. He is the reformed character now. Who would have believed it? And he wants to protect you. I know Justin. I know how his mind works. I know how yours works, too, Angelet."

"I should like to know how yours does," I retorted.

"I believe you are afraid of me. There is no need to be."

"What should I be afraid of?"

"That is what you have to tell me. I've just come here to talk to you. I told you that is why I have come to Cornwall. I don't know what is going on in your mind, but I am sure that whatever you are thinking is wrong."

"Why do you think that?"

"Because there is something you have to know and I am going to tell you. I'm fond of you, Angelet. I'm fond of your family. I remember what they did for me. I don't know what would have happened to me but for them. Let me tell you all about it. Imagine a rather frightened young woman who suddenly has to go out and earn her living. I had looked after my mother for many years. My father had died and from then on I had cared for her. My parents had educated me well and I was said to be clever, so when she died and there was only a small income left to me I had to become a governess. I went to a house where there were two children— a girl and a boy. There was a tutor for the boy and a girl for me."

"I know that," I told her.

"I fell in love with the tutor. He was charming but there was this flaw in his character. It was like two personalities. There are people like that. They can be cured ... with the right treatment, I believe. One night he went out and killed a girl."

"He was the murderer," I said.

"I loved him. I wanted to help him. You can understand that, I know. I visited him in prison. We planned to escape together. He chose a place near the sea where I would stay until he was ready to go. That's why I came to this neighborhood. I stayed at that inn for a few nights, but I wanted to save as much money as I could for we should need it ... so I decided to find a sort of post ... where I need not spend money and that's why I came to you. I went to see him in jail. I smuggled in the knife he asked for ..."

"But you knew he could kill again."

"I was desperately in love with this man. In spite of everything I wanted our future to be together. I believed I could take him away ... right out of this country. I believed I could cure him. You see, it was because I refused him that he went out and did that dreadful thing. I had left clothes for him in a broken-down old hut on the moor. I put the watch there with the clothes. It had belonged to my father and I had scratched our initials on it. It was meant to be a sign that I was with him whatever happened. Then he met you."

"And he tried to murder me."

"I could have cured him. I was sure of it. I cannot tell you what I suffered. I thought he had deserted me. If I had known that he was lying at the bottom of the pool I could have borne it more easily. You lied. You said you found the ring near the boathouse. The boat was missing."

"I remember. We gave it to one of the fisher boys."

"I thought he had escaped without me and that I had helped him to do that. That was the most unhappy time of my life. I was so bitter ... so angry."

"You threw the ring into the sea."

She nodded. "And when they dragged the pool they found the watch ... they found his remains ... and I knew that he had not deceived me. I hated you then ... you and Ben ... for all the years that I had suffered when I thought he had deserted me. He had not. He would have been faithful to me. I told myself that we could have got away together. We could have found a new life overseas. And you killed him ... you and Ben."

"We did not kill him. He killed himself. He fell and struck his head."

"But you hid him. You gave me all those years of anguish. I hated him for what I believed he had done to me, and all the time he was lying there in that pool. He was faithful to me and I had believed him faithless."

"So you hated us for that."

"It was difficult to hate you, because I had grown fond of you. You and your family had been so good to me."

"You married Jonnie. Had you forgotten your murderer then?"

"I'll never forget him. I loved once. Some people are like that."

"After all he did! After all he was!"

"Love such as I had for him does not take count of things like that." She seized my arm and pressed it, and for the moment I thought she was going to attempt to throw me into the pool.

I jerked myself free. I said: "You married Jonnie for his money, I suppose."

"I liked Jonnie. Jonnie was a good man. I worked hard in Scutari. You simplify things too much, Angelet, and people are the least simple of all things on earth. I was a good nurse. I liked Jonnie ... I liked him very much. We were happy for the little time we were together. But there was one I cared for more than anyone else ... and would go on caring for."

"And Ben? You wanted Ben, didn't you?"

"I thought I would be a very suitable wife for a politician."

"I am sure you would. And Ben?"

"Ben was looking in another direction, wasn't he? He was always besotted about you. I think that adventure you had together did something to you both. You wanted Ben and he wanted you and he was married to Lizzie."

"And what of you? You wanted Ben, too."

"Yes. I thought I might make it, too. Ben is a powerful man ... the sort who was a challenge to me. He was rich ... thanks to Lizzie's gold mine. I wanted to be rich."

"Tell me what happened on the night Lizzie died."

"I only know what happened on the morning after. I went in and found her dead."

"Who killed her?"

She looked at me and her lips curled faintly at the corners. "You think I might have done it, don't you? Or was it Ben? We both had our reasons, didn't we? It would have been rather silly of Ben to kill her just then because it would inevitably lose him that seat he so much wanted. On the other hand it would be a master stroke. People would say, If he was going to kill her why do it at such a time? On the other hand you suspect that I may have done it. Why? Because I wanted Ben for myself. But he is in love with you. I've always known that—so what chance have I? You wouldn't expect me to kill a woman to make way for you, would you?"

"Grace, why are you saying all this?"

"Because I want you to see it clearly and I want to see it that way myself."

Then I said: "Why should you kill her?"

"Because ... you would not marry Ben if you suspected him of murder, would you? I was ready to help and look after Mervyn, but perhaps your feelings do not go as deep as mine. I wasn't sure. And then, you see, there was the nice kind Timothy Ransome ... the pleasant life in the country, the waif living there to remind you of your virtue. You had a choice. I might have thought that if you suspected Ben of murdering his wife you would have turned to Timothy. Then the field would be clear for me, wouldn't it?"

"Grace ... I don't understand."

"Do you believe in reformed characters?"

"What do you mean?"