Richard Laymon - Flesh

“You build a mean margarita,” she said.

“Wait’ll you try my enchiladas.” He sat down beside her.

Beside her, and only about one foot away, this time. That’s okay, Alison thought. We are closer than we were when I got here.

Still not like we used to be, but getting better.

“What have you been doing with yourself?” he asked.

“Not much.” She didn’t want to tell him that she had spent the past few days thinking about him, often with bitterness, sometimes with longing. “I went to Wally’s one night,” she said.

“Any luck?” he asked.

“I wasn’t there for that,” she said, and took a drink. “Saw this far-out video. A woman dancing with a snake. Have you seen that one?”

“I’ve caught it on MTV. Blue Lady doing ‘Squirm on Me.’”

“Pretty far-out,” Alison said again.

“Erotic.”

“Helen and I played Trivial Pursuit last night. I landed on the Arts and Literature spaces whenever I got the chance. I wiped the floor up with her.”

“Sounds like your Saturday night was better than mine.”

This keeps straying into areas I don’t like, she thought. “I must’ve gained five pounds. Between the two of us, we polished off a bag of potato chips and a bag of taco chips. Not to mention a six-pack. If I keep spending Saturday nights with Helen, I’ll start to look like her.”

“Impossible. You could gain a hundred pounds, you’d still be beautiful.”

“Oh, sure.”

“Your momma could beat you with an ugly stick from now till doomsday, you’d never look like Helen.”

Alison laughed, then shook her head. “Come on, she’s my best friend.”

“I didn’t start it.”

“She’s a great gal. It’s not her fault she looks the way she does.”

“If she cared, she could fix herself up.”

“Not by much,” Alison said, and immediately regretted it. “I mean, there’s only so much that a hairstyle and makeup and clothes can accomplish. Shit, I don’t mean it that way.”

Evan was grinning, laughing softly. “No, of course not.”

“Anyway, we had a great time. Then today, I took a long walk and I picked up a copy of the new Travis McGee and spent most of the afternoon with that. MacDonald’s great to read when you’re lying out in the sun.”

“What were you wearing?”

“My white bikini.”

“Ah.”

She took another drink. The second margarita was getting low. “I like all the MacDonalds,” she said. “MacDonald, John D.; Mcdonald, Gregory; Macdonald, Ross; McDonald, Ronald.”

“I love how you look in the white bikini.”

“Is dinner almost ready?”

“Ah, I’ll check. Shall I get refills while I’m out?”

“Not for me, thanks.”

“No problem. Champagne with dinner. I promised champagne, remember?” Leaving his own empty glass on the table, he stood up. He walked slowly, as if being careful not to weave.

Alison wondered how many drinks he’d had before she arrived.

Don’t worry about it, she told herself. Just make sure you don’t get looped.

She settled back against the sofa and sighed.

So far, so good, she told herself.

She sighed again. It felt good to sigh. She felt pleasantly lazy and light. A great burden had been lifted from her. She was with Evan again, and it was working out fine.

Pretty fine.

He didn’t get my McDonald joke.

Too busy thinking about me in my bikini.

Who can blame him?

She laughed softly and closed her eyes.

“Hey, Sleeping Beauty.”

She opened her eyes. The room was dark except for the glow of a single candle. The candle was on the table in the dining area. Food was on the table.

Evan was standing above her. “I understand it is traditional,” he said, “to awaken the princess with a kiss. However, I showed remarkable restraint and took no advantage of your somnolent condition.”

Alison sat up. “How long was I asleep?”

“Oh, perhaps an hour.”

“Jeez.” It didn’t seem possible. “I’m sorry.”

“No need to apologize. You’re beautiful when you’re asleep. Or when you’re awake, for that matter.”

“I hope dinner isn’t ruined.”

“I’m sure it’ll be fine. In fact, it’s just now ready.”

“Do I have time to use the john?”

“Help yourself.”

She made her way through the darkness and down a short hallway to the bathroom. Though she was embarrassed about falling asleep, the rest had left her feeling refreshed. She turned on the light. She used the toilet. At the sink, she cupped up cold water with her hand and took a few sips. She studied herself in the mirror. Her eyes looked a little pink. Her hair looked fine. The middle button of her blouse had come undone. She fastened it, then washed her hands and left the bathroom.

The kitchen light was on. The enchiladas on her plate were steaming and looked wonderful. Evan pulled out the chair for her and she sat down. He filled her glass with champagne. Before taking his seat, he switched off the light.

“Remember our spaghetti dinner?” he asked. “You were wearing your good white blouse and claimed you didn’t want to spill anything on it so you took it off?”

“Evan.”

“You were so lovely in the candlelight. Your golden glowing skin, your dusky nipples.”

“Stop it.”

“Sorry,” he muttered. He lowered his head, cut into an enchilada with his fork, and began to eat.

Alison’s appetite was gone, but she took a bite. She had a hard time swallowing and washed the food down with champagne.

For a while, they both remained silent.

This is lousy, she thought. What was the real harm in what he’d said? They had a wonderful time, that night. It shouldn’t be a crime to remember it, to mention it.

“Good grub,” she said.

He looked up from his plate. “Try some sour cream on it.”

“Don’t mind if I do.” She spooned a large glob of sour cream onto her enchiladas. “It was a good thing, too,” she said, “that I took off my blouse. I slopped all over myself that night.”

She saw Evan smile. “On purpose, I believe.”

“Yeah. I’m not, after all, a slob.”

“No, indeed.”

They returned to eating. Now, the food tasted fine. The cool sour cream added a tangy flavor to the enchiladas. She drank more champagne, and Evan refilled her glass.

“You’re really a terrific cook,” Alison said.

“I have my specialties. One of them is chocolate mousse pie, but I think we should save it for later. Give us time to digest all this.”

“Maybe we should take a walk when we’re done,” Alison suggested.

He said, “Maybe.” He didn’t sound thrilled by the idea. “I’ve got a tape of To Have and Have Not I thought you might want to look at on the VCR. Hemingway. Bogart and Bacall. You know how to whistle, don’t you?”

“I’d like that,” Alison said. “I haven’t seen it in years.”

“I tought y’might like it, tweet-hot,” he said, flexing his upper lip.

He would turn it on and sit with her on the sofa. Soon, his arms would be around her.

We’ll be right back where we started before Thursday in Bennet Hall, before the ultimatum, before his date with Tracy Morgan, before the flowers and letter.

And maybe that’s not such a bad thing, Alison thought. Why fight it? What’s the point?

But what were the last three days all about if you give in tonight? You won’t have learned anything.

Sure. You’ll have learned that, no matter what, it all comes down to fucking.

It shouldn’t have to be that way, damn it.

She pushed her fork under the small portion that remained of her dinner.

Running out of time, kiddo.

She chewed. She swallowed. She drank the rest of her champagne.