George Right: D

“Consciously, no.” Victor punched a wall to make his point. “But the death is probably similar to the transition into a quantum state, and revival to a collapse of a wave function—only not within the universe, but within the ship.

“Can our souls exist without bodies?”

“As far as I understand, no. Anyway, such a condition would be unstable. Therefore, each time new bodies are formed.”

“But it happens only on a ship entered into the dark phase by the Kalkrin generator. We cannot leave the ship, can we?”

“No. From our point of view, the space is closed within a field created by the generator.”

“And if we blow up the ship?”

“I don’t think that it will destroy the field. I’ve said already, it is kept stabilized during a long time not by the generator, but by ourselves.”

“But in an explosion we would be lost simultaneously! Till now we could not achieve that, even when we tried. Probably, in that case a field will slack? And, the main thing, the biosynthesizer with its protoplasm will be destroyed! New bodies will simply have nothing to arise from!”

“Well,” Victor responded slowly, “maybe we still have a hope to die—theoretically. For in practice we can’t destroy the ship. Only in idiotic old fiction were spaceships equipped with self-destruction systems. I would like to ask those authors of such bunk, whether their own cars, trains, planes were supplied with such systems? And if no, why the devil would the designers of spaceships should behave differently?”

“We have no fuel,” Linda reasoned, “but that is speaking about a reactor which fed the generator. But we still should have onboard landing modules for delivery of biorobots to planet surfaces and back. And they have their own engines. If I remember correctly, it’s a chemical fuel.

“Yes,” he nodded. “We didn’t want to cause a damage to planets’ biospheres . Therefore, no radiation, but chemical components should be enough for a good explosion. I do not know whether we can manage to do it. All right, there is nothing to lose all the same. Let’s go. The hangar deck is on the third level.

They didn’t risk using the now working lift, remembering (Victor especially), how it had ended last time. Driven by hope and fear—hope to die and fear not to have time to do it before the despair would fall upon them again with its full power—they ran down the stairs. When they at last rushed into the hangar deck after that racing on a spiral staircase, they felt themselves a bit giddy, while in former times these trained astronauts would not even notice such an easy challenge. It is probable that all that had happened contributed to such exhaustion.

There was an identification touch panel here, and Victor wasn’t surprised anymore that it identified him. The green indicator lit confirmed that the hatch to outer space was closed and access to the hangar deck was permitted, and then the door slid aside.

Cone-shaped landers stood on the floor ruled out in squares, kept by perforated pylons. The modules didn’t reach even a meter in height. Two were absent.

“Damn,” Victor said fatefully.

“We couldn’t fly away on them even if we had a destination,” Linda sadly agreed. “Now I have remembered. Bioengineering is my speciality. Biorobots, which we were going to synthesize, should have sizes, roughly speaking, from a bug to a big crab. Gathering of samples and recording doesn’t require more, while delivering of each superfluous gram into an orbit… especially taking into account the supragravity…”

“It is unimportant. In any case we cannot escape the field limits,” interrupted Adamson. “Above all, we have already tried to use probes,” he pointed to empty places, “and, obviously, with no success.”

“We still do not remember everything,” Linda realized. “And what if we get into a trap of our own perceptions? We come, we see that have already tried, and we leave, without trying more. Over and over again. And these probes, maybe, weren’t here at all. They were reduced, as well as the number of crewmen.”

“No, the probes couldn’t be reduced,” Victor objected. “Without them the whole expedition loses meaning. We tried to use them for explosion, but not here. Here they have only low-power engines allowing them to fly smoothly into the hangar and to take off from it. But outside there are rocket stages with fuel and real engines, to which the landers mate before departing.”

“Can we reach them? There is a vacuum outside after all? Though there should be spacesuits somewhere. Our mission plan didn’t involve our exit from the ship, but for an emergency…”

“I won’t be surprised, if in our present condition we can survive even in a vacuum,” Victor gloomy uttered. “But anyway it will allow us no more than to knock with a fist on a rocket wall. And even if we would blow it up out there, it won’t damage the starship. In a vacuum there is no blast wave. That’s why rocket stages are places outside. Perhaps, in previous times we forgot exactly about that! But if we manage to ram the ship with a rocket, especially near the biosynthesizer, it may work.”

“How can we operate the rocket?”

“Directly, no way. Only to program the lander computer.”

Linda approached the nearest landing module and scraped its smooth surface with her nails. Hair-thin grooves depicted outlines of several hatchlets, but they, of course, had no intention of opening.

“And how will we reach the computer?”

“Without tools we cannot get inside.” Victor shook his head. “But it is unessential. Besides the main control room there is still a reserve post of remote controls, right in this compartment.” He was silent for several seconds, remembering, and then resolutely turned and showed her a door in a distant corner: “There.”

“If it isn’t broken, too…” Linda muttered, following him.

Her suppositions were confirmed. The bulky stand had been broken open, and the torn out wire stuck out of the wall to the right of it.

“Didn’t think that we would have such ancient cables here,” said Linda. This part of her memory still remained in darkness too. “I suppose, nowadays conducting nanochannels directly through walls is used everywhere?”

“That’s because it’s a reserve system,” Victor explained. “Here everything is purposely made on a primitive but reliable element base—more difficult to break, more easy to repair.”

“You think we still can repair it?”

“I will try. I apparently have already remembered enough.”

With an effort he removed the bent cover of the stand and got into the electric interiors. Linda went backwards and forward in the small room of the post, unable to remain in one place. It seemed to her that she could physically feel how despair, like a black poison, spread through her body, corroding it from within…

“It seems, we have a chance,” Victor suddenly said. “I do not remember which of us broke this stand, but he did not made the problem too bad—probably because of a shortage of tools. In general, considering the raised durability and numerous reservation… contacts, of course, will be jury-rigged, but… at least for some time, I think, it will work.” He still picked inside for some time, then turned to Linda. “There is only one problem. Too long a piece of cable is torn out. Perhaps you remember where we have put it?”

“No,” she shook her head.

“Then there is no conductor of suitable length here. To feed the panel, at least a half-meter conductor is necessary.”

“I understand. I will do it. I will take the wire ends.”

“Actually I wanted to offer to draw lots.”

“To hell with drawing lots! I am a bioengineer. I’ve passed pilot’s training, too, but you’re the first pilot. Onboard computers are your domain.”