Лорел Гамильтон - Jason

“One problem at a time,” Jason said. “First, do you understand what I meant by rough now?”

“Yes,” she said, and hugged him around herself. She was back to looking unhappy again.

“And you’re okay with me having rough with Anita?”

“Okay, not entirely, but will I make you give her up? No. Honestly, if we all agreed to gentler sex for me, I’d love to have my fantasy come true with Anita and you.”

I stiffened a little, and Nathaniel helped me hide my face by bending over me and turning me around so we could have a longer and more passionate kiss. I could taste J.J. on his lips, in his mouth, mingling with the taste of my own body. It made me start to pull away, but it wasn’t a bad taste, just . . . I’d never kissed him before when he tasted of another woman. Apparently, my issues with women in certain areas had shown on my face, even before I tasted J.J. I appreciated the help at hiding it, but he gazed down at me as I drew back, a question on his face. J.J. was being a good sport; I needed to be one, too, so I kissed him back deeply, passionately. I worked my issue, instead of letting it spoil things. J.J. was truly being a good sport about being shoved outside her comfort zone. It was just that her sportiness only required her to watch, not participate; my sportiness might be more, um, hands-on, and I was already one woman over my comfort limit, and it wasn’t J.J.

I broke from the kiss, and was able to say with a normal voice, “I’m flattered.”

“But part of why I’m here is that you already have a female lover and you’re not very happy about it,” J.J. said.

I turned enough in Nathaniel’s arms to look at her. “Yeah.”

“I’ve met Jade, she’s beautiful.”

“I’ve never argued that,” I said.

“Besides you sharing memories of sex with women from the men in your life, which I admit is weird since you don’t have those parts, what else bothers you about Jade?”

“I’d never thought of women as potential lovers before and suddenly I’m supposed to be the main lover of one; wouldn’t that weird anyone out?”

J.J. nodded. “I’ll give you that, but I can’t help you with that. Is there anything specific that you’re puzzled by? Anything about sex with another woman that you want to know from someone who’s dated a lot of women?”

“A lot, huh?” Jason said.

She turned and gave him a big, mischievous smile. “You and I have exchanged our numbers; you know exactly how many women.”

He laughed. “I knew we had a chance when your number was bigger than mine.”

Knowing something about Jason’s number of lovers, I was impressed, and a little . . . well, it’s not everyone who hits triple digits for lovers. Once I would have been judgmental; now I was puzzled. Even with everyone I’d had in my life I was still under thirty lovers. I just couldn’t imagine liking that many people that much.

Nathaniel held me close and whispered, “What do you want to know, Anita?”

I turned enough to look at him. “What do you mean?”

“What puzzles you the most about sex with another girl?”

I thought about it; hell, I’d been thinking about it. “One, the oral sex, it’s so different in some ways, and Jade’s still working through her issues with men so she won’t let anyone but me and Domino go down on her, and I know I’m not doing it as well as I could, but I don’t know what I’m doing wrong.”

“Does she orgasm?” J.J. asked.

I fought free of a moment of embarrassment. “Eventually.”

Nathaniel said, “Luckily Jade is fast clitorally.”

“Jade let you watch?”

“Anita asked for some help with the oral, and hoped that I could give pointers through watching, and Jade agreed to it.”

“And what did you learn?” J.J. asked.

“That Jade is one of those women who won’t give feedback. I told Anita to ask, does this feel good, does that, but Jade won’t give directions.”

“Oh, God, I hate women like that,” J.J. said.

“It’s because her ex-master took all directions as criticism of his performance, and punished her for it,” I said.

J.J.’s eyes went wide. “Well, that would teach anyone to keep their opinion to themselves.”

“I understand where it comes from, why she doesn’t help me, but it’s like flying blind. I thought having the same parts would help, and it does a little. I can hear her breathing change, watch the little involuntary body movements, but I still think that if I could see someone else do it, and ask questions, maybe even trade off during so I could see actual demonstration, it would work much better.”

“You are going at this in a very practical manner, Anita. I think I’m impressed, except are you treating it as a chore, not a pleasure?”

I fought not to squirm. “I go down on her because I know how much I love it, and she just started letting Domino try oral on her. She hasn’t talked about it yet, but I suspect her old master didn’t enjoy giving oral sex, so he made it unpleasant for her, like he made a lot of things unpleasant for her.”

“Do you enjoy doing it?”

I sighed. “Not really; I don’t get the high off it that I get from going down on men. Hell, I can orgasm sometimes from giving oral sex.”

J.J. gave me wide eyes again. “Really?”

I nodded. “Really.”

“Well, damn, I’ve heard that’s possible, but I’ve never met anyone who could do it.”

I fought not to be embarrassed again.

“Don’t be embarrassed, Anita; it’s great, amazing, no wonder you enjoy it so much.”

“I enjoyed it before I started orgasming from it,” I said, as if I wanted it clear it wasn’t just about me having a happy. I don’t know why, but somehow I felt defensive.

J.J. smiled as if she realized I was being defensive. “I feel the same way about going down on women, except I don’t have an orgasm from it; be awesome if I did.”

Jason laughed. “You’d never do anything else if you orgasmed from it.”

She laughed, then sobered. “Not if it was just Freda.”

I wondered if she knew she wasn’t in love with her live-in girlfriend anymore. Was I supposed to say something about it, or let it go? I wasn’t sure, so I let it go; one crisis at a time.

“Please tell me that I didn’t ruin everything between you and Freda,” Jason said, hugging her tighter.

“We had issues before you came back into my life, Jason. It’s more like the more I enjoy spending time with you, the more I see that she and I don’t have fun anymore.”

“Love isn’t always about fun,” Nathaniel said.

“No, but shouldn’t it be fun some of the time? I think I just hadn’t realized how much Freda wants to change me into someone that I’m not, until Jason came along and just accepted me for who I really am.”

“You accepted me, too,” he said.

She smiled. “I did.”

“I’ve never understood why people try to marry people that they want to change completely,” I said.

“Me, either,” she said. She looked at me, face serious, and then grinned.

“What?” I asked.

“Serious comment, but it sounds self-serving.”

“Just tell me,” I said.

“I would be happy to go down on Jade while you watched, and you could ask questions while I did it, but would she agree to it?”

“She and I talked about you before you got into town. She isn’t afraid of women the way she is men. She is afraid of some female wereanimals, but not humans. Nothing personal but she doesn’t see humans as much of a threat.”

“No insult taken, it’s just the truth. I’ve seen how fast Jason can move, and felt how strong he is, and no human can compete with it.”

“Thanks, honeybunch,” he said.

She smiled and stroked his arm. “You’re welcome, sweetums.” Then she looked back at me. “So Jade has agreed to sexual contact with me?”