Terry Goodkind - Faith of the Fallen

Nicci was slowed to a halt by the clink-clink-clink of pebbles rattling in a cup. The sound was the unmistakable rattle of her chains. She had been a servant to need her whole life, and as much as she tried, there it was, the cup of some poor beggar, still rattling for her help.

She could not deny it.

Tears filled her eyes. She had so wanted to serve Richard butter with his bread. But she had only one silver penny, and this beggar had nothing.

She at least had some bread and some sunflower seeds. How could she want butter for Richard’s bread and cakes, when this man had nothing?

She was evil, she knew, for wanting to keep her silver penny, the penny Richard had earned with his own sweat and effort. She was evil for wanting to buy butter for Richard with it. Who was Richard, to have butter? He was strong. He was able. Why should he have more, while others had none?

Nicci could almost see her mother slowly shaking her head in bitter disappointment that the penny was still in Nicci’s fist, and not helping the man in need.

How was it that she could never seem to live up to her mother’s example of morality? How was it she could never overcome her evil nature?

Nicci turned slowly and dropped her silver penny in the beggar’s cup.

People gave the beggar a wide berth. Without seeing him, they avoided coming near him. They were deaf to the rattle of his cup. How could people not yet have learned the Order’s teachings? How could they not help those in need? It was always left to her.

She looked at him, then, and recoiled at the sight of the hideous man swathed in filthy rags. She pulled back more when she saw lice hopping through his thatch of greasy hair. He peered out at her through a slit in the rags draped around his face.

But it was what she saw through that slit that caught her breath in her throat. The scars were gruesome, to be sure, as if he had been melted by the Keeper’s own fires, yet it was the eyes that gripped her as the man slowly rose to his feet.

The man’s grimy fingers, like a claw, curled around her arm. “Nicci,” he hissed in startled triumph, drawing her close.

Caught in the grip of his powerful fingers, and his burning glare, she was unable to move. She was so close she could see his lice hopping at her.

“Kadar Kardeef.”

“So, you recognize me? Even like this?”

She said nothing else, but her eyes must have said that she thought he was dead; for he answered her unspoken question.

“Remember that little girl? The one you seemed to care so much about? She urged the town’s people to save me. She refused to allow me to die there on the fire, where you had put me. She hated you so much she was determined to save me. She selflessly devoted herself to caring for me, to helping her fellow man, as you had ordered the town’s people to do.

“Oh, I wanted to die. I never knew a person could have that much pain and still live. As much as I wanted to die, I lived, because I want you to die even more. You did this to me. I want the Keeper to sink his fangs into your soul.”

Nicci looked deliberately at his grotesque scars. “And so, for this, you have come seeking your revenge.”

“No, not for that. For making me beg, where my men could hear it. For allowing other people to hear me beg for my life. It was for that reason they saved me—and their hatred of you. It is for that that I seek revenge—for not allowing me to die, for condemning me to this life of a freak where passing women toss pennies in my cup.”

Nicci gave him a smooth smile. “Why, Kadar, if you want to die, I can certainly oblige you.”

He released her arm as if it had burned his fingers. His imagination gave her powers she didn’t have.

He spat at her.

“Kill me, then, you filthy witch. Strike me dead.”

Nicci flicked her wrist and brought her dacra to hand. The dacra was a knifelike weapon carried by Sisters. Once the sharpened rod was stuck into a victim, no matter where, releasing her power into the dacra killed them instantly. Kadar Kardeef didn’t know she had no power. But even without her power behind it, the dacra was still a dangerous weapon that could be driven into a heart, or through a skull.

He wisely backed away. He wanted to die, yet he feared it.

“Why didn’t you go to Jagang. He would not have let you become a beggar. Jagang was your friend. He would have taken care of you. You would not have to beg.”

Kadar Kardeef laughed. “You’d have liked that, wouldn’t you? To see me living off the scraps of Jagang’s table? You would love to sit at his side, the Slave Queen, and have him see me fallen to this, to watch as you two tossed me your crumbs.”

“Fallen to what? To see you wounded? You’ve both been wounded before.”

He snatched her wrist again. “I died a hero to Jagang. I would not want him to know I begged like any of the weak fools we have crushed beneath our boots.”

Nicci pressed her dacra against his belly, backing him off.

“Kill me, then, Nicci.” He opened his arms. “Finish it, like you should have. You never left a job incomplete before. Strike me dead, like I should have been long ago.”

Nicci smiled again. “Death is no punishment. Every day you live is a thousand deaths. But you know that, don’t you, Kadar?”

“Was I that repulsive to you, Nicci? Was I that cruel to you?”

How could she tell him that he was, and how much she hated him having her as chattel for his amusement? It was for the good of all that the Order used men like Kadar Kardeef. How could she put herself, her own interests, above the good of mankind?

Nicci turned and rushed off down the alleyway.

“Thank you for the penny!” he called mockingly after her. “You should have granted my request! You should have, Nicci!”

Nicci wanted only to go home and scrub the lice out of her hair. She could feel them burrowing into her scalp.

Richard pulled away the fistful of straw. He brushed the fragments of grasses from his leather apron. His arms ached from the labor of rubbing the straw, lightly loaded with fine abrasive clays, against the stone.

Yet, when he saw the luster of the stone, the character of the high polish, the way the marble glowed, taking light deep into the stone and returning it, he felt only exhilaration.

The figures emerged from a sparkling stone base of rough marble. The grooved lines of the toothed chisels used in opposing directions to shear off thin layers of stone were still evident on the lower calves, where the legs emerged he wanted the statue to bear testimony to the hand of man and the figures’ origin in stone.

They rose up to nearly twice his height. The statue was in part a representation of his love for Kahlan—he could not keep Kahlan out of the work, because Kahlan was his ideal of a woman—yet the woman in the statue was not Kahlan. It was a man of virtue with a woman of virtue joined in purpose. They complemented each other, the two universal parts of what it was to be human.

The curved section of the sundial had been placed by Victor and his men several days before, when Richard had been working down at his job at the site of the emperor’s palace. They had left the tarp over the statue as they worked. After the ring had been set, Richard had placed the pole that served as the gnomon, and finished the hand holding it. The base of the pole was fixed with a gold ball.

Victor had yet to see the statue. He was beside himself with eager anticipation.

As Richard stared at the figures, only the light from the window above entered the darkened room. He had been given the day from work down at the site in order to prepare the statue to be moved to the plaza that evening.

In the rooms beyond the shop door, the hammers of the blacksmiths rang ceaselessly as Victor’s men worked on orders for the palace.