C. Cherryh - Rusalka

There was only that dim, fading sense of her somewhere ahead, her magic slipping from him, leaving him with nothing but the river for direction.

No, he told himself. It was another trick; it was Eveshka or it was Chernevog trying to discourage him, no different than shape-shifting.—Just keep walking, just keep walking, follow the stream, she has a heart even if it’s with Chernevog.

“Eveshka!” he shouted, his voice quite hoarse now. “It’s getting dark! What are you going to do, leave me with the bandits?”

He stopped cold then, as if for a moment he could not remember what to do with his legs, or what direction he was facing.

Then he was able to remember faintly why he was here in this woods, but not where, or what his direction was.

“’Veshka!”

She was all but gone now, but he thought—he thought that it was the direction he was facing. He walked, sucking at the back of his hand a moment, and finally thinking that that was ominous.

“’Veshka,” he called out finally, and in the darkening woods his voice seemed very small and lonely, the ache in his hand more painful, “Veshka, for the god’s sake do something, I don’t like snakes, Veshka, I really don’t like snakes—”

He felt a decided impulse to stop and look to his left, then, and stopped with a bent branch in his hands, his foot on a massive root, and glanced with apprehension toward the tree-shaded water.

“Is it you?” he asked.

He felt it was. He felt the pull again all from his left, nothing at all ahead of him.

“’Veshka?”

She wanted him to come down to the streamside.

“Can’t you,” he asked from a dry throat, “just sort of show me it’s you?”

Come, was all it said. He felt after his sword, thinking of snakes, and heard her—perhaps it was not a sound at all—saying, “Pyetr, Pyetr, listen to my voice, not my wishes. Go away, go back, it’s too late—oh, god, you should have stayed with my father—”

She was irresistible as curiosity. No, she said; but the pull was constantly yes, and he wanted to see her, he wanted to walk down to the edge…

“Just—show me,” he said, standing where he was. Stopping, he had caught a chill. His muscles began a shiver here and mere, and his hands and feet were numb. “From there, ’Veshka. I can’t trust you.”

“Don’t look at me! Go away! Please!”

Something was wrong with her. He knew that it was. He had no idea what he would see, whether there was anything to see any longer, whether, like the thing that had been with Uulamets, there were only bones and weed—

“’Veshka, I’ll help you—”

“No!”

“Listen to me.” The shivering involved one leg entirely now and trying to spread to the other. “You’re going to Chernevog. So am I. At the rate you’re forgetting things you’re not going to be worth much; neither’s your father, neither’s Sasha. But I’ve this—” He touched the sword at his side.

“It’s hopeless!”

“Nothing’s hopeless except never trying. I’m coming down there. Is that all right?”

There was no answer. The shivering became a spasm, then shivering again.

“’Veshka?”

“I should have died. I should have died. I’m trying to die, Pyetr, if I can’t do anything else right! Don’t come near me!”

“You’d better get hold of yourself,” he said, and worked closer to the edge, his arm resting on a limb for balance as he looked down into the reed-rimmed water.

A mist formed on the surface of the stream, faint, so very faint as it swirled up in threads and rapidly spun and spun into Eveshka’s self, holding up warning hands, threads of which streamed toward him and vanished in thin air. It felt as though pieces of himself were doing the same toward her, he wanted so much to come that little bit closer.

“He’ll beat you,” he said, “without me. A plain fool and a sword, ’Veshka, either one’s hard to magic, isn’t that so?”

He wanted nothing to do with Chernevog, he wanted to be nowhere but close to her and nothing else but hers. But he clung to the branch between them as the only barrier he could rely on, and said, while the streamers from her hands began to touch him and send little jolts through his arms and down his spine, “ ’Veshka, as much as you need, as much as you need, take, until you can stop—”

The streamers touching him grew more and more, the little shocks, from head to foot now, matched the flutter of his heart, faster and faster until they sped past its beats and it slowed, laboring. The touch ran all through him, the most intense sensation he had ever felt, would ever feel, a moment that, if it stopped, would never come back—

Color shimmered soft and imageless as the winter lights, growing green and flowing in curtains through his vision.

Greener still, green as spring leaves, the light flowing through him now, no pain, nothing at all—

The sun was all but gone, the ghostly cold spots whirling and diving at them, whispering malice and warnings.

“We know where he is—” one hissed against his ear. “Too late. You won’t find him…”

Another: “The night’s coming…”

“Too late, too late now—”

“Master Uulamets!” Sasha said, clambering among the roots and the low branches. He caught his balance as the jug swung at his shoulder and caught it again against a tree, as he snatched at Uulamets’ sleeve. “Master Uulamets, do something!”

Uulamets frowned at him and gnawed his lip. “If they’re together—” Uulamets’ voice trailed off as he looked upstream and back again. “The vodyanoi,” he said. “Damn the creature.”

Sasha shivered as cold dived through him and a ghostly voice whispered,

“Too late, too late, she’s found him…”

He plunged his face into his hands and wished , absolutely, nothing more than Pyetr’s safety—but even that he doubted, thinking, Aren’t the dead—safe?

“God,” he cried, and sank down where he was, not sure of Uulamets, not sure of himself, not sure there was any help to be had.

And by that unsureness knew absolutely that there was no help in him, that everything was gone, all hope, that Pyetr was surely dead-He wished—

—wished with all his heart that there were hope.

And opened his eyes, saw eyes staring back at him in the shadow, eyes in a fat black ball of fur.

“Babi!” he cried, “find Pyetr!”

Babi vanished again, quick as a thought.

And Sasha dropped his head into his hands a second time, wishing, urgently wishing Babi to help Pyetr, and not sure Babi could do that—against Eveshka.

He’s her dog, he remembered Pyetr saying.

And Uulamets offered nothing, wishing only, Sasha was sure, that his daughter survive.

Something he was lying on was poking him, that was the first thing Pyetr knew: he was lying in brush, must have fallen, he thought dimly, and remembering Eveshka, decided his most desperate hopes had come true: she had found strength enough to stop, was surely waiting for him to rest—thank the god he had not fallen unconscious in the water.

Time to move, he thought, and tried, his vision clearing on something alarmingly too dark to be Eveshka—

A tree, he realized, heart pounding, he was only looking at a tree.

Then it blinked at him, and the brush under him moved and carried it closer to its eyes.

“Time you waked, foolish man.”

His heart thumped, once, painfully, and he thought—“Eveshka! Where’s Eveshka?”

“I’m here,” she said, and whisked into his view, leaning over him, anxious and beautiful.

“God,” he murmured, and looked past her to the leshy that was holding him. “Wiun? Is it you?”