SL Huang - Up and Coming - Stories by the 2016 Campbell-Eligible Authors

And I can attack through a narrow field of fire—conserve my ammunition.

Another projectile slams into me, in the back around the location of the spine of the Widow. Unlike a human body, the Widow’s spine is a mechanical entity and well armoured. There are no vital neural pathways in the spine—they are spread throughout the suit’s interior, rather than grouped together in one vulnerable column.

However, the projectile has hit hard, and caused considerable damage to my ability to twist and pivot at the waist. I dampen the pain as much as I can, but climbing becomes harder and slower. I can see the apex now, perhaps fifty metres away. A cornice of snow hangs over it, which will give me minimal but acceptable cover from above. There is a depression in the rock where I can put the boy and still have cover enough to fight from.

Two more projectiles hit before I reach it, and the pain suffuses almost every fibre of the suit. Red alarms flash all over my field of vision and I shunt them aside so I can see what I need to see, but it’s too much. There’s only one choice left.

I mentally shift to the Terminal Emergency Mode. The pain dampens further as a cleansing wave washes over me. The scintillating red warnings subside to duller, smaller throbs to the edge of my vision. We are supposed to use this mode only as a last resort, when we know we’re about to check out. It is intended to ensure we can fight without hindrance, knowing we have very little time left. It won’t last for long—it’s too dangerous to trust a soldier to be able to ignore the warnings of pain. But it might give me an edge.

Like everything else, it doesn’t function as it should, but it’s enough.

I lay the boy down, and read the fear in his eyes. “Stay behind me,” I say. “I’ll protect you as long as I can. When I’m gone, pretend to be dead. I don’t know if it will work, but that’s the only chance you have.”

And suddenly there is only sadness in his eyes. “Don’t fight,” the boy says.

I’m so dumbfounded by the words he utters, I can’t respond. I turn away from him and settle into a stance that will give me stability when I fire.

The first shapes begin to ascend the spurs either side of the couloir. But these are not the familiar hazes I am used to fighting. So much has changed with the Widow, I am hardly surprised. Now, instead, through the dusty, flickering sheen of my vision, I can see actual shapes. I have never been close to one of them before and I wonder if I am about to see what They look like—if the camouflage loses effectiveness up close. Previously, I have killed them only from a distance, and have never encountered one of them close enough to kill them with my hands.

But as they climb, I can see the shapes are not alien. They are as familiar to me as anything could ever be. They are human.

Three of them perch on the edges of the rock around me.

“Shut him down,” I hear one of them say.

I watch through a flickering veil as another taps away at what appears to be a mobile computer terminal. I see some kind of aerial sticking up from it.

Then there is nothing.

“You can’t move,” a man says to me. His face is gaunt and pockmarked with radiation burns. Where one of his ears should be is a mess of pink scar tissue. He wears wire-rimmed spectacles for his eyes, one arm of which has been duct-taped. They are held in place by a canvas strap. His teeth are yellowed and some are chipped or missing. “We’ve seen to that. But if you try, then I’ll have them shut you down again. Do you understand?”

I don’t, of course; I don’t understand any of this. Those words have jolted me out of a silent darkness. They are the first things I remember since these people came for me on the mountain.

I don’t even know where I am.

But I know I have to cooperate, because I want to understand, and these people must have some answers. So, instead of throwing questions at him, an urge which almost overwhelms me, I simply say, “Yes.”

He’s right too—almost all systems are on standby or shut down. I cannot move at all. But I can see him.

“Do you know what planet you are on?”

“No,” I reply. This is the truth. “We aren’t told much before a drop, in case we’re taken by the enemy. We’re told enough to enable us to fight. I don’t…” I fumble for the right word. “I don’t recognise the landscape of this place. From before the war.” This last part might be a lie. I am not ready to tell him about the flower. I don’t even know if the memory was real, but I cling to it as if it is the only hint I have of who I used to be. Here, like this, it means everything to me.

“This is Sargasso,” he says. “Do you know how many more there are of you?”

There are all sorts of military reasons not to tell him, but I need to win his trust; to convince him that I have no desire to hurt him. “My Battle Group was ambushed in a marsh near the jungle—that was the drop zone. They knew we were coming. I was hit there and I should have passed, but I never did. I can’t make contact with the Penrose . I think the interference is atmospheric.”

I see a twitch at the corners of his mouth that might have been a smile. “The Penrose ?” he asks, and then nods, as if the ship is familiar to him. “How many?”

“There were thirty in the Battle Group. The Widows were still lying in the marsh when I left.”

“Who attacked you?”

I am stunned by the question. “Them,” I say. I doubt the mechanical voice coveys my confusion. “They did. Who else?”

Another voice comes from behind me. I cannot see the speaker. It is a feminine voice, barely above a whisper: “He doesn’t know,” she says, and I detect something like triumph in her tone. “None of them know. They don’t understand what is happening to them.”

“We don’t know that yet,” the man snaps, not even looking at her; as if in speaking she has revealed some closely guarded secret. “Quiet, woman, or this cannot work.”

“What is happening to us?” I offer, not wanting to anger him. “What do—”

But the man cuts me off. “Shut him down,” he says.

And I am gone.

“Are you awake?” The same man. The same position as before. I detect subtle differences in the light, and the hum of the bulb. I don’t know how much time has passed.

“Yes,” I say.

“When you fight…Them…” He almost trips on the word as he searches for it, as though he does not understand it. His reaction confuses me. “What do you see?”

“The same as you,” I reply, growing frustrated. “Their camouflage systems bend light, but you must know that.”

The man turns away and nods to someone out of my vision.

“Are you awake?”

“You need to stop doing that,” I growl. Although, in reality, I probably don’t growl at all.

There is a different twitch at the corner of the man’s mouth, accompanied by a slight tightening of his expression. “You need to listen to me very carefully,” he says. “The aliens don’t have any camouflage, at least not as you describe it. That’s because you’ve never seen one. If you have, it’s been removed from your memory.”

“We are wasting time—”

“Don’t speak, just listen. This is going to be hard for you to hear.” He pauses and stares at me. He is staring at a machine, I know that, and he cannot see the confusion and fear which is surging through me right now. There is no way to express it across the still, metal features which now contain the essence of me. “You have been fighting alongside them, not against them.”