SL Huang - Up and Coming - Stories by the 2016 Campbell-Eligible Authors

For the first time since the drop zone ambush, a red mote appears on my sensor array. A single contact, within my combat sphere, picked up by the proximity sensors arranged all over the Widow’s armoured carapace.

Battle systems hum as they kick into life. A series of automated stadiametric targeting reticles vector across my vision, rotating as they hunt for threats. Every servo, gear and mechanical muscle is flooded with energy in anticipation of an engagement.

I back away, seeking cover in a hollow in the rock behind me. The signal is coming from a ridge directly above and across. The sunrise is angled behind the ridges, so I am protected by the shadows cast by the walls of the shallow depression. It’s the only advantage of being down here in the valley.

The signal moves. Not towards me, not down into the valley, but along the ridge.

The purr of my railgun as it cycles comforts me, readying itself, but the knowledge that I have only a few seconds of ammunition fills me with dread. I’m not afraid of dying—I’ve died too many times to feel anything like a fear of death—but I am terrified of failing. If I am caught, the Widows in the marshland drop zone are lost, and we can ill afford to lose so many. I am consumed by a yearning to make it to the second Battle Group. I have convinced myself I can save those machines and help them free those who have been enslaved by the enemy.

It is my only purpose. I must not fail.

The signal disappears.

I wait to see if it is truly gone, if I am still in immediate danger. As I scan the horizon of the ridges which run either side of me, the slender green reticles dart across the rock and ice like insects on carrion. But they flicker and lose focus as they move, and I have to accept that this might be yet more interference. I am more than concerned—if the automated targeting systems are failing, then I may not even be able to see the enemy.

I wait silently, sure there will be more signals; that the first has found me and is telling others.

But there’s nothing.

I know it’s bad judgement, but I decide to make some ground instead of waiting any longer.

I have hardly moved from the hollow when I catch a flash of colour amidst the grass—a subtle glint of orange which stands out against the white and green. Was it there before? How could I not see it? Inexplicably, I am drawn to it and almost without realising, I find myself next to it. I reach down and gently part the grass to see it better. It’s a flower. It captivates me and, for a moment, I can do nothing except stare at it.

Something flickers in the back of my mind. An image I can almost remember, but which remains out of focus. It is familiar—warm, soft, loving. The touch of soft lips on my own. That same flower, a face hidden behind it and framed by long, brown hair which smells of a woman’s perfume and summer coffee beans. Its sudden familiarity chokes me.

I am on my knees before I realise what’s happening. My consciousness is still inside the Widow, but suddenly the pathways through which it surges are twisting and bucking, trying to kick it free. The Widow is suddenly alien to me. It wants me out. I fight to control it—I’ve never seen it react this way before, as though I am a virus and its immune system is gathering to eradicate me.

As suddenly as it began, the Widow stops fighting. Familiar sensations charge through my muscles and I know I am not alone. I was wrong to move prematurely. Whatever the Widow’s problem, it has been overridden. It is now more concerned with the immediate danger it has detected. Dozens of red motes dance on the periphery of my vision, but the targeting reticles are struggling with the interference.

I huddle into the shadows and bring my right arm up. The weapon begins to purr as it cycles again. I tell myself I need to make that few seconds of ammunition count. But for what? What will I achieve except a few more dead in a war where billions have already died? There are dozens of signals all around, lining the ridges which encircle me. I look up and see the familiar flashes of light.

They are here.

The Widow feels cumbersome in my mind. I haven’t passed, because I am not dead. I understand that, but there’s something else happening, something I don’t understand. The Widow is different. It’s been coming, I know—a change I have noticed more and more since I hiked away from the jungle and into this valley. The growing interference messing with the core Visual Combat systems. Coupled with this momentary collapse in our symbiosis—something which is unheard of—the Widow seems more of a stranger to me than it has ever been; even more so than when I first passed into it, weeks ago.

Worse, it is now beginning to feel physically sluggish. I have to work harder to make it respond to my imagined movements—as if it is fighting me.

If this is to be my last stand, the Widow seems as much my enemy as They are.

The signals surround me, darting along each ridge. The interference is increasing. The Widow is reacting intermittently to my neural commands, as if only some are getting through. As though the pathways are too crowded, and commands are jammed into too narrow a conduit. Or everything is confused because my instincts are conveyed in a newly foreign language.

I’m stumbling more than running; mechanical agility is gone. Now all I care about is putting distance between myself and those massing blood-red motes.

I want to head for higher ground to give myself some sort of tactical advantage. If they attack from above—firing into this cauldron of rock and ice—I will have no way to defend myself. Somehow, I need to force them into a funnel; to make them attack me from only one direction, or at least narrow the field of fire. I need to use the terrain to make that happen. If this is to be my last stand, the only way I can do that is to find a natural feature which prevents an attack from every side, and above. The apex of a couloir, or the top of a valley between ridges or spurs. I have to climb.

Servos are listless and unresponsive, allowing the malaise creeping across the Widow to fester.

I check the long-range transmitter on the Widow again, but still the interference is too great. Suddenly, the unthinkable occurs to me—what happens if I run out of power? I know my consciousness remains with the Widow, locked in a reserve power unit, using minimal power to maintain itself. That power could last for years, but if the suit is destroyed completely, including that tiny reserve unit, and there is no signal off-planet…

Will I die forever? Or will they somehow replicate my consciousness and place me into another Widow? Am I saved ? Backed up like some artificial intelligence? A true machine. It has never mattered before—I have never before lost contact.

Suddenly, I wonder who I really am.

I am climbing feverishly now, a new fear burning inside me. My unknown future is a fog concealing a vast abyss beneath my feet, each step taking me closer to an endless, desolate void.

I thought I would welcome true death if it ever came—respite from this relentless war. But now, I am afraid.

I stop dead when I see him.

For a moment, what I see standing there in front of me makes no sense. I cannot move. All I can do is stare.

It’s a boy.

He is no more than a young teenager, perhaps fourteen or fifteen. In his hands he clutches a rifle; a pistol and a knife are tucked into his belt. His heart is beating fast—I can see a holographic representation of it and a list of vital signs scrolling to one side of my vision. He is afraid.

I can see he has radiation sickness, but it has been controlled by medication. Cancerous growths have eaten away at some of his internal organs, but they are not currently spreading. He is malnourished, but otherwise fit.