Thea Harbou - Metropolis

"I do not understand you," he said, after a pause.

"There is nothing to misunderstand, Josaphat. I have set myself free from my father, and am going my own way… "

The man who had been the first secretary to the Master over the great Metropolis held his breath back in his lungs, then released it in streams.

"Will you let me tell you something, Mr. Freder?"

"Well… "

"One does not set oneself free from your father. It is he who decides whether one remains with him or must leave him.

"There is nobody who is stronger than Joh Fredersen. He is like the earth. As regards the earth we have no will either. Her laws keep us eternally perpendicular to the centre of the earth, even if we stand on our head… When Joh Fredersen sets a man free it means just as much as if the earth were to shut off from a man her powers of attraction. It means falling into nothing… Joh Fredersen can set free whom he may; he will never set free his son… "

"But what," answered Freder, speaking feverishly, "if a man overcomes the laws of nature?"

"Utopia, Mr. Freder."

"For the inventive spirit of man there is no Utopia: there is only a Not-yet. I have made up my mind to venture the path. I must take it — yes, I must take it! I do not know the way yet, but I shall find it because I must find it… "

"Wherever you wish, Mr. Freder—! shall go with you… "

"Thank you," said Freder, reaching out his hand. He felt it seized and clasped in a vice — Like grip.

"You know, Mr. Freder, don't you—" said the strangled voice of Josaphat, "that everything belongs to you — everything that I am and have… It is not much, for I have lived like a madman… But for to-day, and to-morrow and the day after to-morrow… "

Freder shook his head without losing hold of Josaphat's hand.

"No, no!" he said, a torrent of red flowing over his face. "One does not begin new ways like that… We must try to find other ways… It will not be easy. Slim knows his business."

"Perhaps Slim could be won over to you…." said Josaphat, hesitatingly. "For — strange though it may sound, he loves you… "

"Slim loves all his victims. Which does not prevent him, as the most considerate and kindly of executioners, from laying them before my father's feet. He is the born tool, but the tool of the strongest. He would never make himself the tool of the weaker one, for he would thus humiliate himself. And you have jus t told me, Josaphat, how much stronger my father is than I… "

"If you were to confide yourself to one of your friends… "

"I have no friends, Josaphat."

Josaphat wanted to contradict, but he stopped himself. Freder turned his eyes towards him. He straightened himself up and smiled — the other's hand still in his.

"I have no friends, Josaphat, and, what weighs still more, I have no friend. I had play-fellows-sport-fellows — but friends? A friend? No, Josaphat! Can one confide oneself to somebody of whom one knows nothing but how his laughter sounds?"

He saw the eyes of the other fixed upon him, discerned the ardour in them and the pain and the truth.

"Yes," he said with a worried smile. "I should like to confide myself to you… I must confide myself to you, Josaphat… I must call you 'Friend' and 'Brother'… for I need a man who will go with me in trust and confidence to the world's end. Will you be that man?"

"Yes."

"Yes—?" He came to him and laid his hands upon his shoulders. He looked closely into his face. He shook him. "You say: 'Yes—!' Do you know what that means — for you and for me? What a last plummet-drop that is — what a last anchorage? I hardly know you—! wanted to help you-I cannot even help you now, because I am poorer now than you are-but, perhaps, that is all to the good… Joh Fredersen's son can, perhaps, be betrayed — but I, Josaphat? A man who has nothing but a will and an object? It cannot be worth while to betray him — eh, Josaphat?"

"May God kill me as one kills a mangy dog… "

"That's all right, that's all right… " Freder's smile came back again and stood, clear and beautiful in his tired face. "I am going now, Josaphat. I want to go to my father's mother, to take her something which is very sacred to me… I shall be here again before evening. Shall I find you here then?"

"Yes, Mr. Freder, most certainly!"

They stretched out their hands towards each other. Hand held hand, gripped. They looked at each other. Glance held glance, gripped. Then they loosened their grip in silence and Freder went.

A little while later (Josaphat was still standing on the same spot on which Freder had left him) there came a knock at the door.

Though the knocking was as gentle, as modest, as the knocking of one who has come to beg, there was something in it which chased a shiver down Josaphat's spine. He stood still, gazing at the door, incapable of calling out "Come in," or of opening it himself.

The knocking was repeated, becoming not in the least louder. It came for the third time and was still as gentle. But just that deepened the impression that it was inescapable, that it would be quite pointless to play deaf permanently.

"Who is there?" asked Josaphat hoarsely. He knew very well who was standing outside. He only asked to gain time-to draw breath, which he badly needed. He expected no answer; neither did he receive one.

The door opened. In the doorway stood Slim.

They did not greet each other; neither greeted the other. Josaphat: because his gullet was too dry: Slim: because his all-observing eye had darted through the room in the second in which he put his foot on the threshold, and had found something: a black cap, lying on the floor.

Josaphat followed Slim's gaze with his eyes. He did not stir. With silent step Slim went up to the cap, stooped and picked it up. He twisted it gently this way and that, he twisted it inside out.

In the sweat-sodden lining of the cap stood the number, 11811.

Slim weighed the cap in almost affectionate hands, He fixed his eyes, which were as though veiled with weariness on Josaphat and asked, speaking in a low voice:

"Where is Freder, Josaphat?"

"I do not know… "

Slim smiled sleepily. He fondled the black cap. Josaphat's hoarse voice continued:

"… But if I did know you would not get it out of me, anyway… "

Slim looked at Josaphat, still smiling, still fondling the black cap.

"You are quite right," said he courteously. "I beg your pardon! It was an idle question. Of course you will not tell me where Mr. Freder is. Neither is it at all necessary… It is quite another matter… "

He pocketed the cap, having carefully rolled it up, and looked around the room. He went up to an armchair, standing near a low, black, polished table.

"You permit me?" he asked courteously, seating himself.

Josaphat made a movement of the head, but the "Please do so," dried up in his throat. He did not stir from the one spot.

"You live very well here," said Slim, leaning back and surveying the room with a sweeping movement of his head. "Everything of a soft, half-dark tone. The atmosphere about these cushions is a tepid perfume. I can well understand how difficult it will be for you to leave this flat."

"I have no such intention, however," said Josaphat. He swallowed.

Slim pressed his eyelids together, as though he wished to sleep.

"No… Not yet… But very soon… "

"I should not think of it," answered Josaphat. His eyes grew red, and he looked at Slim, hatred smouldering in his gaze.

"No… Not yet… But very soon… "

Josaphat stood quite still: but suddenly he smote the air with his fist, as though beating against an invisible door.

"What do you want exactly?" he asked pantingly. "What is that supposed to imply? What do you want from me—?"