Walter Miller, Jr.: Saint Leibowitz and the Wild Horse Woman

It was a long way back to the white mule, and Blacktooth’s legs were getting wobbly. He walked backward, holding the seal high, his shoulders tensed against the shot he expected. The mule was almost quiet by the time he got to it; the brays had turned to hoarse, honking moans. The front legs were still kicking rhythmically. The big eyes looked at Blacktooth with neither curiosity nor fear. Blacktooth knelt and said a prayer, a made-up one, as he put his knife to the creature’s throat, and said a second prayer as he pulled it across.

It was like pulling a string and watching the grain flow out of a bag. The mule sank into a sudden quiet restfulness.

Blacktooth wiped his knife on the mule’s coat. He was about to stand when he felt the knife on his own throat. “Stand,” said a voice, and he did what he had been about to do anyway. He started to drop his knife when a hand took it from his.

Grass-eater, he thought, but perhaps he said it aloud, for someone hit him from behind, almost knocking him down. There was the smell; the grass-eater smell. There were too many hands—he thought perhaps it was a glep—and then realized that it was two men who held him, and a third who picked up his papal seal from the ground where he had laid it before taking out his knife to cut the mule’s throat.

They marched him back down the street, the steps he had retraced to kill the mule. He felt a gun prodding him through his cassock. As he passed the corner where he had turned back, he thought, Why hadn’t they taken him here? Had they been waiting for him to come back?

“I have a message for your leader,” he said. “From His Holiness, Amen Two. I am his papal ...”

“Shut up,” said one of the men, in a tongue Blacktooth recognized as a variant of Grasshopper.

He was taken into a basement room that reminded him of the library at the abbey. It was lit by oil lamps, and several men were inside, armed with iron swords and old rifles. Most of them were dressed in rags but one wore the jacket of Hannegan’s Texark cavalry. He spoke to Blacktooth in Churchspeak.

“Are you sick?” was his first question. “You smell bad.”

“I come from His Holiness the Pope with a message for your leader,” said Blacktooth. “We are all sick. We all smell bad. There are thousands of sick, bad-smelling warriors, bloodthirsty Nomads, on the outlying reaches of the city, preparing to strike. I am here to give you a chance to…”

“Shut up,” said the Texark soldier. He nodded at one of the other men, a farmer, who handed Blacktooth a cup of water and a handful of brown pills that looked like rabbit pellets. “Take one,” the soldier said.

Blacktooth smelled the pills. He shook his head.

“Take one.” A gun prodded him in his back.

Blacktooth took one.

“I am here to give you a chance to surrender the Holy City peacefully,” he said. “The Empire is finished. The papacy is returning to New Rome. The Pope, His Holiness Amen Two, wants only to occupy his rightful place in the ...”

“Shut up. I know who you are.”

“I am the His Holiness Amen Two’s—”

“We know who you are. The Archbishop sent us word to look for you,” the Texark soldier said. He unrolled a scroll that had already been untied. “Are you not Blacktooth St. George, Secretary to the Antipope, and banished under sentence of death to the far reaches of the Bay Ghost and the Nady Ann?”

Blacktooth was at a loss for a reply.

A gun prodded him in his back. “Say ‘I am.’ And what’s that hat? Military?”

“I am a cardinal,” Blacktooth said. Suddenly the seriousness and the ridiculousness of it all struck him, simultaneously. The enterprise had been foolish. Perhaps even the Crusade. Now here he was, back in the Hannegans’ zoo. “A joke, really. Cardinal. Pope. Soldier.”

The pill was making him dizzy. He wondered if he should take another.

“We have orders to shoot you,” said the Texark officer, rolling the scroll back up tightly and tying it with a ribbon. “But first you should get some rest. The pills will help you sleep. Take him to the death cells.”

It was cool under the street. By standing on tiptoe, through a barred window, Blacktooth could see an alleyway and an occasional dog or pig, the pigs wearing medallions that identified, Blacktooth presumed, their owners. One pig was especially friendly; it kept coming back and sticking its nose into the bars, perhaps for the coolness of the iron.

As darkness fell, Blacktooth felt his fever subside, like a stream sinking into the sand. The chamber pot in the corner of his cell waited, empty, like the pig. The guard came just after midnight with a jug of water but no food. Blacktooth took another pill. This time they were going to shoot him, and he had little doubt that they would keep their promise. Somehow, the thought of it made him drowsy.

That night, again, he dreamed of Ædrea. She was waiting for him under the waterfall while his old friend, the white mule, grazed on the rocks outside. There was no grass but it sprung up as the mule ate. It had a hole in its throat like a wound, and Ædrea had wounds too; she showed her wounds to Blacktooth.

“Where have you been?” she asked in Churchspeak. “Where are you going?” Since he knew she didn’t speak Churchspeak, he knew, in the dream, that he was dreaming.

THAT NIGHT WHILE BLACKTOOTH WAS dreaming, a small party of farmers mounted their horses, most of them draft plugs, and rode toward the camp of the Pope’s Crusade. These were the farmers who had survived after seeing their families and livestock killed by the Texark soldiers. Now they wanted revenge and the only one they could get it on was the Antipope, whose armies their scouts had told them were heading south, toward Hannegan City and the Red River. They knew that Blacktooth was lying. They had seen only one party of raiders, had wounded one and killed another. They wanted what the Grasshopper and Wilddog Nomads wanted: they wanted blood and revenge. It was late September and there was no moon. They left, forty riders in all, soon after dark, counting on the starlight and their knowledge of the road. It was after all the road they had ridden in on; it was the road that led to their abandoned and ruined farms.

The Pope, meanwhile, was beginning to lose all hope for peace. The Grasshopper warriors were excited and eager for blood, after the long and loud funeral for the shaman. Many of them were drunk, and though the ceremony had been hidden from his eyes, Brown-pony suspected many more had fed on the shaman’s liver and lights.

“You must understand, my emissary has ridden into the city to make peace,” he said to Eltür Bråm.

“You mean Nyinden. Nimmy.”

“My cardinal,” said Brownpony. “A member of my Curia.”

“Cardinal Nimmy, then,” said the Grasshopper sharf. He sat on the tailgate of the Pope’s wagon beside His Holiness, watching the whooping, weeping warriors around the main campfire. It was a novelty to the Nomads, unlimited firewood, even if it was damp. The blaze grew bigger and bigger.

“They seek revenge,” said Eltür Bråm. “Can you blame them? Can I deny them? They need it; it is like grass for ponies.”

“The victory of the Church will be their revenge,” said Brownpony, but even as he said it, he knew he didn’t believe it himself. The muddy ground was crowded with moving shadows; the sky was scratched with trees. Brownpony yearned for the harsh outlines and open horizons of the grasslands and the desert. Here in the forest the noises and smells were too close.