Karin Slaughter - Skin Privilege

'Jeff?'

'You sound out of breath,' he told her, relieved to hear her voice.

'I went for a walk,' she told him, then started to explain why. When she got to the part about buying a map, he found himself squeezing the phone so hard that it nearly popped out of his hand.

'So,' she continued, obviously excited by her little stroll. 'It was just a vacant lot, but still, I thought I could go to the county courthouse and see whose name is on the property deed. What do you think?'

Jeffrey couldn't speak. Tracking down the registration from the relative safety of the motel room was one thing. Walking into what could have been a den of skinheads – or worse – was quite another.

'Hello?' Sara said. 'Are you still there?'

Jeffrey cleared his throat, trying to keep his tone steady and not go with his gut reaction to demand what the hell she thought she was doing. 'I'm here.'

'I was saying that I can go to the courthouse-'

He stopped her dead in her tracks. 'I need you to stay in the room, Sara. Don't go to the courthouse. Don't make any more phone calls. Just stay in the goddamn room and keep out of trouble.'

She was the one who was quiet this time.

He spoke through gritted teeth. 'I can't do my job and worry about you at the same time.'

She let some time pass before answering. 'Okay.'

He could tell from the way she'd said the word that she was angry, but there was nothing he could do about that right now. 'Promise me you'll stay there until I get back.'

Again, there was the hesitation. Suddenly, he realized he was wrong. Sara wasn't angry. She was disappointed with herself because he was angry. He would almost hear her thoughts, knew that she was berating herself for doing one more stupid thing.

'I know you were just trying to help out, but, Sara, Jesus, the thought of you traipsing out on your own like that… this isn't Grant County. You didn't grow up here. These people don't know you. It's not safe, Sara. Do you understand what I mean?'

'Yes.'

'Baby…' He shook his head, words failing him. 'Please, just stay in the room. I'll get back as soon as I can.'

'No,' she told him. 'Do your job. You're right. I'll stay here.'

Now he felt like a complete asshole. He looked out the diner window. Nick Shelton was getting out of his Chevy pickup.

'It's not your fault,' he told her. 'Listen, Nick just pulled up.'

'Okay,' she said. 'I'll see you when you get here.'

She didn't slam down the phone, but Jeffrey wished she had. Sara wasn't compliant. She was headstrong and arrogant and demanding – all the things a man could want in a woman. Over the last few months, he had watched her go from a fighter to someone who just rolled with the punches. Jeffrey wanted her to be angry again. He wanted her to tell him to fuck off, that she knew what she was doing and he should be grateful she was wasting her time down here helping him out when she could be back home tending to patients. He wanted her to scream at him, to rail against the Powells and all the other bastards who were trying to keep her down.

He wanted his brilliant, beautiful wife back.

'Hey, Chief.' Nick Shelton came through the front door of the diner, rain flattening his long brown hair to his skull. 'Sorry I'm late.'

Jeffrey stood up, shaking the other man's hand. 'No problem.'

'Raining like a pisser out there.' Nick called over to the waitress, 'You got some fresh coffee for me, darlin'?'

She gave him a big smile. 'Sure do.'

'Leave me a little room at the top, will you? Maybe this much?' He held his thumb and forefinger about an inch apart.

'Be right back.' She giggled, giving him a wink. Jeffrey had barely gotten a 'good morning' from the woman, but he gathered Nick, with his tight jeans and the heavy gold chain around his neck> was more her type.

The GBI man watched the waitress leave, giving her wide bottom an appreciative smile. 'Might get me some fries with that shake.'

Jeffrey tried to steer the conversation away from the waitress. 'How you been doing, Nick?'

'Working like a dog, is how.' He picked at the napkin dispenser on the table, shredding the first few. 'State cut my budget in half for goddamn Homeland Security. We got gangs and drugs and murderers running around here faster than clam chowder through my grandma but the feds are making us shoot our wad on fighting damn terrorists who couldn't even find Elawah or Grant County on the map. Hell, they don't even need to make the trip. Give us a few more years and we'll all kill each other on our own.'

Jeffrey had never had a conversation with Nick that didn't involve some kind of complaint, but he tried not to fuel it with his own. 'Sorry to hear you're having a hard time, Nick.'

'Bob Burg's working some consultancy job up north making twenty times more than the state ever paid him.'

Jeffrey felt himself getting pulled in. Bob Burg had been Nick's counterpart, handling counties that ran along southeastern Georgia. 'What happened?'

Nick used the shredded napkins to wipe the rain off his face, saying, 'I guess they figured all that time I wasted popping home to sleep and change my underwear could be put to better use. They kicked him out and gave me his territory.'

'They fired Bob?'

' "Merged the offices to streamline the operation,"' Nick quoted in a businesslike drone. 'Bunch of dumb-ass pencil-pushing motherfuckers, and don't even get me started on them cash bonuses they've been handing out to the higher-ups to thank them for all this kissing up and kicking down.' He sat up as the waitress came back. 'Why, thank you, darlin'. You did it up perfect.' He gave her a wink and the woman giggled again before sashaying off.

Nick continued, I can't blame Bob for being pissed off, but he left a freakin' mess for me to clean up. Paperwork missing, files incomplete.'

'I'm sorry to hear that.'

Nick shrugged, brushing it off. He asked, 'How's Sara doing?'

'She's good,' Jeffrey lied, trying to fight the sadness he felt.

Nick gave him a sharp glance over the coffee cup. 'Heard you and her's already made some friends in town.'

'That got around fast.'

'It's not every day that a crack squad loses a prisoner.' He gave Jeffrey a wink. 'And gets gut-punched for their trouble.'

Jeffrey felt a grin on his face. 'He was asking for it.'

'I have no doubt.'

'Tell me what you know about Jake Valentine.'

Nick grabbed the sugar dispenser off the table. 'Jake Valentine,' he echoed, giving the name a jaunty ring. 'OP buddy Jake was a deputy for maybe two days before he ran for office.' He kept pouring the sugar as he talked. 'There was this old coot, Don Cook, wanted the job, but people in town were sick of the codgers sitting on their asses, collecting their paychecks, while the rest of the town was going to hell in a handbasket.'

'Meth?' Jeffrey guessed. There wasn't a town in America that wasn't being slowly crippled by the scourge of methamphetamine. It was cheap to buy, cheaper to make, and almost impossible to quit. The drug ruined the life of anyone it touched, including some law enforcement officers who had unwittingly walked into booby-trapped labs.

'Meth,' Nick confirmed, finally finished with the sugar. He grabbed the creamer, saying, 'Jake's a little wet behind the ears, but he's a good kid.'

'He didn't look old enough to drive a car.'

'That's true, but he's willing to learn, which is more than you can say for most everybody you meet. I guarantee you, if he can hang on to the job long enough for his balls to drop, he's gonna make a good sheriff.'

'He doesn't seem to have much support from his deputies.'

'Maybe one or two will bug out on him, but only when the chips are down.' He added, 'Don Cook's not as powerful as he thinks he is.'

'What about Jake's predecessor?'