Michael Dibdin - The Tryst

Ernest Matthews nodded and smiled, pleased that the boy had not forgotten.

‘Good lad! That’s it. That’s it exactly. Well, as I said, Maurice Jeffries went on and on about this young woman he claimed to have seen on the lawn in the middle of the night, how she was the woman of his dreams, the woman he’d been hoping to meet one day. In fact he started getting so carried away that I began to wonder whether he was quite right in the head. Nor was I the only one, for Aubrey Deville, the friend to whom he was telling all this, started chaffing him about it. But Maurice refused to make a joke of it. He became more and more impassioned, until Deville hastily assured him that he believed every word he said and would watch with him that night, prepared to follow the woman if she should appear. That’s as much as I heard, for just then the head gardener appeared and started giving me what for. But though I went back to work hoeing the flowers, it wasn’t that bed I was thinking about for the rest of the afternoon, I can assure you. For when I heard Maurice describing this ravishing female roaming around the garden in her shift in the middle of the night, it was as though I could actually see her in front of me, and not exactly overdressed for the time of year, if you know what I mean.’

He paused, giving Steve a sideways glance.

‘Do you know what I mean?’

The boy thought about Tracy. Sometimes at night, to help get to sleep, he would tell himself a story in which he and Tracy were alone in the house, the stotters having conveniently disappeared. In the story, he heard footsteps, soft and quiet, bare feet coming towards him across the floorboards. Then the mattress would dip unexpectedly and it was her, Tracy, lying down beside him, explaining that she felt cold and lonely and afraid too. Close together, their bodies made heat instead of losing it. She turned around so that her fine smooth back fitted snugly into the hollow of his chest, his knees pressed into the sockets at the back of hers, and he would lick that supple hollow where shoulder moulded into neck. ‘You’re more beautiful than Hammersmith Bridge,’ he would murmur.

Sensing that he had lost his audience, the old man gave a theatrical cough.

‘Well, that’s neither here nor there,’ he said. ‘But it so happens that at the time of which I’m speaking, I had got friendly with one of the housemaids, name of Elsie. The female staff slept in the attic rooms, where they were locked in at night. But love will ever find a way, and I’d soon found mine up through a trapdoor on to the roof, which was almost flat. Once there, I had the run of the whole length of the Hall, and it was no great difficulty for an agile lad like myself to shin down a drainpipe and in through Elsie’s window. Anyway, that afternoon, thinking over what Maurice had said, it occurred to me that I too could stay up and watch for the woman he had described. I even wondered if I might not be able to solve the riddle that so perplexed Maurice. “Who is she?” he’d asked Aubrey Deville. “Who can she be?” Well, I knew the area better than the young master, and everyone who lived there was familiar to me. If the woman came, I thought, then I would recognize her.

‘As soon as the house was quiet that night I made my way up through the trapdoor and out on to the leads of the roof. It was a mild summer night. The sky was hazy, and the moon sat behind it as plump as a lantern. I made my way carefully along the roof to the west wing, from which I had a good view over the lawn and the main part of the house, where Maurice had his rooms. All the windows were dark. To my right, the lawn lay as smooth as a billiard table, with the two beech trees that rose taller than the house itself. Behind them I could just make out the fence where the park began, and the dark swell of the hillside beyond. On the other side lay the river and the railway, while up the valley to the west I could make out the roofs of the village, all silvery in the moonlight. Now you mustn’t suppose that anything happened right away. It never does, you know, except in stories. To pass the time, and maybe to steady myself, for it was a little spooky up there all alone on the roof at night, I started to go the rounds of each house in the village, in my thoughts I mean, flitting from one cottage to the next like a ghost. I knew them all, you see. I made my way from one to the next, opening doors and moving from room to room, pausing to gaze down at the people asleep in bed. I felt solemn and sad, although at the time I didn’t understand why. The only sound throughout was the hushing of the river, and after I had finished with the village, I began to follow it downstream in my thoughts, past the farms and meadows I’d grown up with, then to the local market town and beyond, the river growing larger and smoother and more stately all the time, until it reached the metropolis and then the ocean that spanned the entire globe, patrolled by our warships and policed by our troops. It was peaceful and yet thrilling to lie there listening to the murmur of that tiny stream, and know that those drops of water were one with those that lapped the shores of Africa and India, Australia and the East, fabulous places where at that very moment the sun was just rising or was already high in the sky.

‘At any rate, nothing occured to draw me from these reveries. The church clock told off the hours one after the other, until I began to consider how tired I would be in the morning and wonder if I shouldn’t go to bed while there was still time. It had struck four when I heard a sliding creaking sound which brought me bolt upright in an instant. Looking down at the face of the house, I saw that the lower sash of one window had been thrown up. Someone was looking towards the lawn, and I heard Maurice’s voice calling, “Who are you? Where are you going?” But to my bitter disappointment, when I looked towards the lawn there was nothing whatever to be seen. I had good eyes in those days, and from my perch on the roof I could see the whole extent of the garden as clear as day, but there was nothing there. No mysterious figures in nightdresses, no movement, no glimmers, nothing. When I looked back at the house, Maurice had disappeared from the window. A few moments later I heard a series of noises down below, and then the front door of the Hall opened and I saw something that capped my growing sense of the madness of the scene. Unlike his brother Rupert, who took all nature for his drawing room, Maurice would hardly venture out of the house from one day’s end to the next, as I told you. Nevertheless, there he was now, at a quarter past four in the morning, running towards me across the lawn and into the shrubbery below, where I lost sight of him, although I heard his footsteps a while longer on the path leading to the stables and the church. I quickly made my way back along the roof to the trapdoor and scuttled down the back stairs to the servants’ quarters. I let myself out through the scullery window and hurried around to the end of the west wing, where I stopped to make sure that I was not observed, for my next step would have taken me out into the open.

‘A heavy dew had come down, and the moonlight sparkled from each drop on every blade of grass, making a smooth sheet of shimmering light that looked more like a lake than a lawn. What I saw there stopped me going any further. For that shining surface was broken by a single line of footprints stretching back across it like spots of candle wax on polished floorboards. Close to the house they divided in two, one set leading to the front door and the other to a door in the east wing, opposite to where I was standing. The message I read there seemed pretty plain to me. In the time it had taken me to climb down from the roof, get out through the scullery window and run round to the front of the house, Maurice Jeffries had thought better of the advisability of roaming about the grounds in the middle of the night and had returned to the house. And what had finally made him see the error of his ways, I thought, might perhaps have been the same thing that convinced me that I had been wasting my time. For it would have been impossible for any human being to have crossed the lawn that night without breaking the luminous sheet of dew that lay upon it, and yet the only footprints quite clearly led to and from the house. That clinched it. The mysterious apparition Maurice claimed to have seen had no existence outside his own head, in which case that head must be addled. And in that case, I thought as I made my way back to the scullery window, Maurice will be locked up in an asylum, Rupert will become sole master of the estate and we need have no more fears for the future.