Evan Hunter - Romance

Which had nothing to do with the price of fish, as her mother was fond of saying.

She had not yet told her mother she’d dated a white man last night.

Probably never would tell her.

The man in her office at four-thirty that Monday after-noon was a black man. There were some thirty-one thousand police officers in this city, and whenever one of them got sick, he or she — fourteen percent of the force was female — reported to one of the district police surgeons who worked for two and a half hours every day of the week at staggered times specified by the department and familiar to every member of the force. The district surgeon conducted a thorough physical examination, and then determined whether the officer should be allowed to stay out sick — with full pay, of course — or be put on limited-capacity duty for ninety days, after which the officer was expected to return to active duty unless he was still sick. It was up to the district surgeons and ultimately the deputy chief surgeon to determine whether a cop was really ill or simply malingering. Any cop who was out sick for more than a year was brought before the Retirement Boad under Article IV, and requested either to return to full duty or else leave the job. There was no alternative. It was all or nothing at all.

The black man sitting in a straight-backed metal chair alongside Sharyn’s desk had been out sick for a hundred and twenty-two days now. Part of that time, he’d been flat on his back in bed at home. The rest of the time, he’d worked on and off at restricted-duty desk jobs in precincts here and there throughout the city. His name was Randall Garrod. He was thirty-four years old and had been a member of the force for thirteen years. Before he began developing severe chest pains, he had worked as an undercover out of a narcotics unit in Riverhead.

“How are the pains now?” Sharyn asked.

“Same,” he said.

“I see you’ve had an electrocardiogram…”

“Yeah.”

“… and a stress test…”

“Yeah.”

“… and a thallium stress test, all of them normal.”

“That’s what they say. But I still have the pains.”

“Gastroenterologist took X rays, did an endoscopy, found nothing.”

“Mm.”

“I see you’ve even had an echocardiogram. No indication of a mitral valve prolapse, everything normal. So what’s wrong with you, Detective Garrod?”

“You’re the doctor,” he said.

“Take off your shirt for me, will you?”

He was a hit shorter than she was, five-seven or — eight, Sharyn guessed, a small wiry man who stood now and unbuttoned his shirt and then draped it neatly over the back of the metal chair. His chest, arms, and abdomen were well-muscled, he obviously worked out regularly. His skin was the color of a coconut shell.

She thought suddenly of Bert Kling. Stethoscope to Garrod’s chest, she listened.

That color is good for you.

Referring to her suit. The blue of her suit. The smoky blue that matched her eye shadow.

“Deep breath,” she said. “And hold it.”

Listening.

Sinatra was singing “Kiss” for the ten thousand, two hundred and twenty-eighth time.

— So hold me tight and whisper

— Words of

— Love against my eyes.

— And kiss me sweet and promise

— Me your

— Kisses won’t be lies…

“Another one, please. And hold it.”

— That color is good for you.

But what had he really been saying, this blond, hazel-eyed honkie sitting opposite her, twirling linguini on a fork, what had he really been saying about color? Or trying to say. How come he hadn’t until that very moment noticed or remarked upon the very obvious fact that she was black and he was white? That color is good for you, sistuh , and then moving on fast to comment pithily on a dumb song featuring a drunk in a saloon pouring out his heart to a jaded bartender who kept setting them up, Joe, when all she wanted to know…

— Is it because I’m black?

— Is what because you’re black?

— That you asked me out.

— No, I don’t think so. Is it because I’m white? That you accepted?

— Maybe.

— Well… do you want to talk about it?

— No. Not now.

— When?

— Maybe never.

— Okay.

Which, of course, had been the end of all conversation until it calve time to say Gee, you know, Bert, I don’t think we have time to catch that movie, really, and besides we’ve both got to be up early tomorrow morning, and anyway do you really like cop movies, maybe we ought to call it a night, huh?

— Thank you, I had a very nice time.

— No, hey, thank you. I had a nice time, too. Palpating the chest wall now, pushing along the sternum…

“Feel any pain here?”

“No.”

“How about here?”

“No.”

Ruling out any inflammation of the carti…

“What’s this?” she asked suddenly.

“What’s what?” Garrod said.

“This scar on your shoulder.”

“Yeah.”

“Looks like a healed bullet wound.”

“Yeah.”

“Is that what it is?”

“Yeah.”

“I didn’t see anything in your file about…”

“It’s in there, all right.”

“A gunshot wound? How’d I miss a gunshot wound?”

“Maybe you didn’t go back far enough.”

“When did you get shot?”

“Six, seven months ago.”

“Before the chest pains started?”

“Yeah.”

She looked at him.

“The scar’s got nothin to do with those pains,” he said. “The scar don’t hurt at all.”

“But the pains started after you got shot.”

“Yeah.”

“You keep testing normal…”

“Yeah, but…”

“EKGs, stress tests, GI tests, everything normal, no muscular problems…”

“One thing’s got nothing to do with…”

“How soon after the shooting did you go back to work?”

“Few weeks after rehab.”

“Where was that?”

“Buenavista.”

“Good program there.”

“Yeah.”

“Went back to undercover?”

“Yeah.”

“Were you doing undercover when the chest pains started?”

“Yeah, but…”

“Who’d you work with at Buenavista?”

“Oh, the physical therapists. Getting the shoulder working again. I’m in good shape, you know…”

“Yes.”

“So it didn’t take long.”

“Did you talk to anyone about getting shot?”

“Oh, sure.’’

“About the psychological aftereffects of getting shot?”

“Sure.”

“About post-trauma syndrome?”

“Lots of cops in this city get shot, you know. I’m not anybody special.”

“But you did talk to someone at Buenavista about…”

“Well, it didn’t apply, you see. I had no problem with it.”

Sharyn looked at him again.

“There’s someone I’d like you to see,” she said. “I want you to stop at the sick-call desk on your way out, and make an appointment with him. His name is Simon Waggenstein,” she said, writing it on one of her cards. “He’s one of the deputy chief surgeons here.”

“Why do I have to see another doctor? All I’ve done so far is go from one doctor to…”

“This one’s a psychiatrist.”

“No way,” Garrod said at once, and stood up, and yanked his shirt from where he had draped it over the chair. “Send me back to active duty, fuck it, I ain’t seeing no psychiatrist.”

“He may be able to help you.”

“I got chest pains and you want me to see a head doctor? Come on, willya?”

Angrily pulling on the shirt, buttoning it swiftly, not looking at her.