James Benn - Billy Boyle

“Ah, yes, I do. Just checking.”

“Tell me how I can help you… did you say your name was Billy?”

“Yes, ma’am.”

“Well, if I’m going to call you Billy, you must call me Victoria. But not Vicky. Only Richard calls me that.” I looked up on the wall behind her at the framed photo of a young man in an RAF uniform. He stood next to a bomber, a wide smile on his face, the RAF roundel showing in back of him. Both man and machine long gone.

“Victoria, I don’t mean to pry into your private life, and I want you to know that I’m not compiling a written report or anything… .”

“My goodness, Billy, whatever are you going to ask me about?”

“I understand that you were in Jens Iversen’s room early, very early in the morning on the day Knut Birkeland died.”

She nodded. “Yes, I was.” Calm and cool. No embarrassment, no anger at the question.

“And he escorted you from his room back to your room?”

“Part of the way. He didn’t want to be seen, so he took me down his hallway, down the staircase, and then turned back.”

“I should tell you, Victoria, that Jens didn’t tell me your name. I wouldn’t want you to think he betrayed your confidence.”

“Why would I care what that little worm thinks?”

Whoa. That took me by surprise. I had thought they had a hot romance going. How did Jens get to be “that little worm”?

“Weren’t you and he… close?” I asked.

“All he wanted was sex,” she said disgustedly. “He pretended to be my friend and to comfort me, but all he wanted was to get his hands all over my body.”

I had noticed that whenever women talked about some guy getting fresh with them, they would unconsciously put their hands over their breasts in a protective gesture, checking buttons or pulling at something. But Victoria sat there, one leg crossed over the other, with her hands resting flat on the chair arms. Something was really wrong here.

“I got the feeling he was devoted to you.”

“I thought so, too. But evidently not. Did you come here to ask me about Jens?”

“No, no. I’d like to know who or what you might have seen on the way to your room that morning. Anybody or anything out of the ordinary.”

“Am I a suspect, Billy?”

“Did you kill Knut Birkeland?” I asked.

“No.”

“Then you’re in the clear. Did you see anything?”

“I don’t remember. It was very early and I was tired. Do you like music?”

“Yeah, sure, but think back…” She got up with a bored look on her face and walked to a record player.

“Can you stay for dinner, Billy?” I hadn’t yet thought about dinner, but I got the feeling she wanted me for dessert.

“No, I need to get back.”

“Back where?” She flipped through a stack of records but settled on the one already on the turntable.

“To Beardsley Hall.”

“That dreadful place? It’ll be after dark before you get back. Stay here tonight. It’ll be good to have a man around the house. I’ll cook us a nice dinner.”

That gave me the shivers. There was no us, and I didn’t intend on being part of her fantasy. But I also had the feeling she knew something, and wasn’t going to give it up easily.

“Maybe. But we need to finish this first. Think about what you saw that morning.”

“Do you like Irving Berlin?”

“Sure, who doesn’t?” She put the needle down on the record. Hissing and scratching came out of the record player. This platter had been played a lot.

“Let’s dance. Then I’ll tell you everything, and you can decide if you want to stay.” She held her arms outstretched in front of her, a slight innocent smile on her face. One little dance, I thought, in pursuit of the truth. Can’t hurt.

“OK.” I got up and held her as the music started. She folded my hand holding hers into my chest and rested her cheek on my shoulder. We danced slowly. Her body felt warm, and I could feel her breasts press against me as she breathed. Her hips moved against mine. The words from “I’m Getting Tired So I Can Sleep” drifted out over us. I’m getting tired so I can sleep

I want to sleep so I can dream

I want to dream so I can be with you.

She sang the words in a sad, quiet, high voice. A wish to see her man again, even in a dream. She looked up into my eyes, her eyes only inches from my face. Her cheeks were wet with tears, but she wasn’t crying right now. I could feel the heat from her whole body rising up, or maybe it was the heat of the room. Or maybe it was me. My heart was pounding and I felt her chest rise and fall with each breath, a thin layer of sweat glistening against her white skin.

She canted her head and pushed her lips against mine, her mouth open and the dampness from her tears and sweat combining in an unholy alliance against the little willpower I had. My mind said no, my heart said no, but my body was saying, Go right ahead, boy, this dame’s delicious.

“Victoria, I can’t…”

“Call me Vicky,” she said in a small, breathless voice. She took my hand and pressed it against her breast. It was full and her nipple was at attention. So was I and it was getting really tough to stay in control. I want to dream…

I felt like she would break into a million pieces if I let go. If I didn’t, I’d break a promise I hadn’t even made yet. I had to buy some time, and I still had to get some answers. I tried to be a cop and think of her as just another civilian I needed something from.

“Vicky.”

“Oh yes, darling!” She smiled, her eyes still closed and her hips thrust against mine.

“Vicky, tell me about the morning you left Jens’s room.”

“I don’t want to talk about him.”

“I don’t either. But we have to. Who else did you see, on the way back to your room?”

“Another man.”

“Who, Vicky?”

“If I tell you, will you stop asking questions? So we can sleep?”

“Sure.”

“He was always very nice to me. Kind. He didn’t take advantage, like the others.”

“Who was he, Vicky?”

“Anders. Major Arnesen. I saw him on the main floor.”

“In the corridor near the map room?”

“Yes, I think so. We smiled at each other, but didn’t say anything. He must have a girlfriend. I’m glad.”

“Did you see anyone else?” The music ended and she stopped dancing. The needle made a quiet hissing sound as the record went round and round and we both stood there, frozen. Her dreamy smile faded into nothing as she came back from that place she had retreated to. Then awareness crept into her face. It was like someone waking up and remembering what they had gone to sleep to escape.

“That’s all you want, isn’t it?” There was a fury in her eyes that denied any lie I could tell. Her carefully constructed fantasy had just fallen apart. Without wanting to, I had just thoroughly humiliated her. There was only one answer I could give.

“Yes.”

I let go of her hand. I was smart enough to not say anything else. She walked over to the record player and raised the needle from the turn table.

“Get out.”

“Please, Mrs. Brey, just tell me if you saw anyone else. Lives may depend on it.”

“Lives? How dare you lecture me about lives! I’ve already given one life to this damned war! The people you’re talking about are still alive! They can walk in the sunshine, eat dinner, make love, hold hands… what do I care about them?”

Her face crumpled as she tried to hold back a torrent of tears. She raised her hand to her mouth as she made an anguished noise, tears running over her hand and onto the wooden floor, clean little splashes on a thin layer of dust. She fell to her knees and I thought she might actually be sick. I knelt down beside her and put my hand on her shoulder. She trembled as she covered her face with her hands.