Håkan Nesser - The Living and the Dead in Winsford

He burst out laughing, somewhat unexpectedly, and I thought that the wind and fresh air might in fact be having a positive effect on the vodka.

‘I’d like to take a look inside there,’ he said, his voice filled with all the boy-scout enthusiasm I have so valiantly coped with for thirty years. ‘It must be a left-over from World War Two, I reckon. But I remember. .’

And as we trudged through the somewhat looser and more difficult to cope with sand — and as he began kicking away the heavier sand that had piled up against the rusty iron door at the back of the bunker — he went on about a novel by quite a well-known Swedish writer in which a concrete bunker just like this one played an important part. I was familiar with the author but hadn’t read the book, which Martin evidently had done. And thought highly of it, it seemed, because it was suddenly very important to take a look at the inside as well. He removed even more sand, now using both his hands and his feet, and as he panted heavily he tried to explain to me the precise role played by the bunker in the story. A crucial meeting between two rivals, it seemed, but I was only listening with half an ear at most, and thinking back now I can’t recall any details at all. But eventually he had removed so much sand that we were able to remove the bolt from its moorings, and by using all our combined strength managed to begin moving the heavy, awkward door. It squeaked and squealed on its rusty hinges, and opened no more than thirty or forty centimetres — but that was sufficient for us to squeeze in.

Castor thought it was sensible to stand ten metres away, and watch what we were up to with grave suspicion. If we wanted to force our way into a filthy old bunker, that was our business, not his.

It was dark inside, the only light came from the door we had just opened slightly and two small apertures facing the sea. They were located right under the roof, and the size of two small shoeboxes on end: I assumed they were intended for observation duties, and for shooting through.

So there was just one room, about five metres by five. Running along three of the walls was a bench almost a metre wide, also made of rough concrete. Wide enough to lie and sleep on, but also at a height suitable for standing on and keeping a look-out for any signs of enemy soldiers advancing from the sea. And shooting them dead.

The walls were covered in graffiti — names and dates and slogans of various kinds — and the smell of stuffiness and damp concrete was pervasive and stomach-turning. Traces of oil or petrol and cold soot also stuck in our nasal passages, and Martin pointed at the remains of a burnt-out fire more or less in the middle of the floor. These lumps of charred wood plus two tin drums with unknown contents and a few iron hooks in the ceiling were the only objects in the room.

Or at least that was what I had thought until two large rats emerged from underneath the bench, scampered over the floor just in front of our feet and disappeared in a dark corner. But then, perhaps rats don’t count as objects. I screamed and Martin swore.

‘Bloody hell!’

‘Huh, what on earth are we doing in here?’

That seemed to be a very good question indeed, totally justified, and I hurried back to the door. But Martin stayed behind. Climbed up onto the bench and looked out through one of the apertures. His head covered the whole of the opening, and it became even darker inside the room.

‘I’ll be damned if this isn’t almost exactly the same as in the book. .’

There was a distinct tone of excitement in his voice, and I was overwhelmed by disgust. My field of vision seemed to shrink, and before I knew what was happening I had backed out through the door, summoned up reserves of strength I didn’t know I possessed and closed it behind me, then lifted the heavy bolt into place.

Castor was still sitting at exactly the same spot. I hadn’t been inside the bunker for more than a minute. I could hear Martin shouting something from inside.

My field of vision regained its normal dimensions, but my disgust remained.

‘Come on, Castor,’ I said, and we started walking back along the beach, retracing our steps. I assumed that Martin was shouting again, but the strong wind effectively drowned out all sounds.

I checked that I had my car keys in my jacket pocket. And thought about that sticky substance on Magdalena Svensson’s stomach.

For the first hundred kilometres or so I was unable to get the rats out of my mind.

Not the rats in the bunker, but those fat creatures the Swedish author E writes about in one of his novels. It’s only an episode, but Martin wrote his thesis on that very author and I know that he was always fascinated by the story about a man who secretly breeds a veritable army of large rats in his cellar. When they have become sufficiently fat and bloodthirsty — I don’t remember the details, but I seem to recall there were a dozen or more of them — he starves them for several days, then sets up a sort of trap based on his wife needing to go down into the cellar (as he was ill in bed): she slips on the ice on the steps and slides down into the darkness where the rats are lurking, through a door that automatically opens up and then closes behind her.

And those rats are a bit on the hungry side. .

Readers assume that everything went according to plan, because one day the wife suddenly disappears out of the story. It is an episode I find it hard to imagine a female author writing.

As I drove southwards — heading for Szczecin and Berlin — I wondered if right now Martin was remembering that episode in E’s novel.

And if he himself might be on his way to disappearing out of the story.

But before we got as far as the car and the journey along the E65, Castor and I had to tackle a strenuous walk along the beach, into a headwind, and I can’t simply jump over it. That remarkable walk ; and no matter what we thought about and what we felt during that crucial part of our lives, we didn’t turn back. We didn’t even stop to think things over, not once. Neither I nor Castor, we didn’t look back . I could blame that on the fact that after a very short time it would have been too late anyway. What would I have said to Martin?

But nevertheless — and once again — it was as if my perceptions and sensations were in the control of somebody else. As if I were seeing and experiencing the world for the first time. Words seem inadequate when I try to describe it as I look back on the situation, more inadequate than ever; but it was the sand, it was the sea, it was my footsteps — yes, every single one of them — it was the wind in my face, the cries of solitary seagulls, my breathing, and the fact that my dog glued himself to my side — yes, he really did. These external and internal factors seemed to be unprecedentedly clear and sharp, and at the same time they seemed to be in harmony, to be significant and very much relevant: all these qualities were increasing in strength all the time, and I felt myself growing hotter and hotter, as if in the late stages of a fever attack.

But we kept on walking. It was an hour before we found ourselves back at the little lay-by. We hadn’t met a single person on the way this time either, and there was no vehicle apart from our dark blue Audi parked outside the boarded-up cafe. There may have been a hint of rain in the air, but when we clambered back into the car Castor and I felt comfortably uplifted and refreshed. Once I had checked that Martin’s mobile, passport and wallet really were in the outside pocket of his briefcase — and after I had spent some time studying the map — we were able to set off and concentrate exclusively on the future.

We reached Berlin at six o’clock in the evening. On the way there I had telephoned and cancelled the hotel rooms Martin had already booked: I explained that we had fallen ill, and we were excused penalty charges. Instead, Castor and I booked into the Albrechtshof in Mitte for six nights. I felt that we needed time to make plans and take precautions without feeling under undue pressure, and that is in fact how we spent the next few days.