Radclyffe - The_Color_of_Love_-_Radclyffe

“You really aren’t going to tell me it’s because of the business, are you?”

Emily shook her head. No more time for hiding the truth. “No, it’s not that. I—”

Derian gave an impatient growl and, still holding Emily’s hand, slid gracefully onto her knees in front of Emily.

A few people passing by paused to stare.

“Derian, what are you doing?”

“What I should’ve done before.”

Derian’s eyes gleamed and sent Emily’s heart racing.

“I love you,” Derian said, her voice strong and pure. “I want to be your lover and your mate, your friend and your spouse. I want you to marry me, Emily. Will you?”

Emily’s heart said yes, oh yes, yes . The words would not come out. Derian was watching her, clear-eyed and intense. “I wasn’t expecting this.” She laughed shakily. “I might need a few minutes.”

“How about you think about it over dinner? Long enough?”

“I love you,” Emily said, unwilling to let Derian be the only one taking a chance. “I have for a long time.”

Derian grinned. “Me too.”

“I’m just not sure about all the rest.”

“That’s okay. I am.”

Emily laughed. “You can get up off your knees now.”

“I like it here.”

Emily freed her hand from Derian’s grasp and framed Derian’s face. Leaning over, she gave her a proper kiss, slow and deep, that helped fill the emptiness she’d been carrying inside her since the moment Derian walked out of her apartment. When she drew back she whispered, “I love you.”

Derian somehow managed to flow to her feet and pull Emily up with her, catching her in the circle of her arms. “Tell me we can have dinner in my room and you’ll think about being mine.”

“Yes, all right,” Emily said, “I’ll think about it.”

Derian kissed her and murmured in her ear, “Tell me again you love me.”

“I love you,” Emily whispered.

*

“I never want to live without room service.” Derian tightened her hold around Emily’s middle and kissed the back of her neck.

Emily wiggled her rear a little tighter into the curve of Derian’s hips, found her hand, and drew it to her lips for a kiss. “Did we eat?”

Derian chuckled. “Not yet. But we can whenever we want.”

“I don’t ever want to move.”

“Then we don’t have to. There’s nowhere else I want to be.” Or anything else she’d rather be doing. Lying with Emily, loving Emily, filled her with quiet contentment and excitement that never relented. “You’re everything I want, and I want you endlessly.”

“I’m so glad.” Emily gave a little groan, rolled onto her back, and pulled Derian’s head down to kiss her again. “I love being yours.”

Derian leaned on an elbow and stroked Emily’s warm, pliant body. She couldn’t stop touching. Couldn’t get enough of her. Knew she never would. “Are you? Mine?”

“I am.” Emily’s smile was small and, for just a second, a little sad.

Derian’s middle clenched. “Does that make you unhappy?”

Light leapt in Emily’s eyes. “Oh no. Never, not for a second.”

“But there’s something, isn’t there?”

Emily laughed, a little tremor in her voice. “I’m just being me. I’ll miss you when you’re gone.”

Derian frowned. “Where am I going?”

Emily grinned, the sadness vanishing in the face of so much joy. She had fallen in love with a woman who lived on the edge. She would cope. “Oh, you know, race cars, fancy casinos, and…all of that.”

“There is no more all of that, only you.” Derian pushed up on the bed and pulled Emily into her arms. “Clearly, I have not done a good job of this proposal business.”

“You did a perfectly wonderful job. I will never forget you, on your knees in the park, or the things you said.”

“Good, because I meant all of them.” Derian brushed Emily’s hair from her neck, kissed the tender spot below her ear, drew her in. Emily’s scent flooded her with the essence of belonging. “You’re the only woman in the world I want, the only thing I need. I love you. I need you, I need to be with you.”

“Derian…” Emily put her lips to Derian’s throat where she could feel her pulse race, taste the life and power of her, bask in the preciousness of being so close. “I love you too, with all my heart. And I want you to be happy. I want you to live the life you want to live, and it’s not back in—”

“It’s with you, Emily. Where you are, that’s where my life is.”

Emily swallowed hard, wishing that little logical part of her brain would shut up and let her just believe in this fairy tale. But she loved Derian too much to let her give up the things that mattered to her. “I’ll always be there for you, I promise. I’m a one-woman woman, and you have my heart.”

“Then why don’t you believe that you are my heart?”

“I would like nothing better than to go to sleep with you every night and wake up next to you every day,” Emily said, giving voice to the dream. “But not if it means caging you in, making you unhappy.”

“It won’t. I want that too. Every day for the rest of my life.” Derian kissed her. “So if it’s all right with you, I’ll be heading home with you. And staying.”

“I would love that, but what will you do?”

“I’ll have to travel sometimes for racing business, sure, and I’ll hate every second away from you. But I can cut down my personal appearances so I won’t be away very often.”

“Maybe,” Emily said slowly, a new, breathtaking image of the future forming, one she believed was not a dream, “I can come with you sometimes.”

“I’d love that.” Joy erupted in Derian’s chest. “Whenever, wherever you want to go. I’d love for you to come.”

“As long as you promise no celebrity photos.”

Laughing Derian nuzzled her neck. “Can’t promise that—you’ll look gorgeous on camera.”

Emily pressed against her. Beautiful is exactly how Derian made her feel. “What will you do the rest of the time?”

“I thought I’d get a little more involved in the business. I have a seat on the board I’ve never bothered with. I’m good with numbers, and I have accumulated a great many international contacts.” She shrugged. “It might even be fun.”

Emily rolled her eyes, the idea of high-powered business dealings her farthest idea from fun. But Derian had a knack for it, and it was, after all, her legacy. “What about your father?”

“For all he’s constantly criticized me for not taking part, he probably won’t like it.” Derian grinned and kissed Emily. “And you were right about one thing, I enjoy irritating him. So that’s a bonus.”

Emily laughed, lightness flooding her heart. She couldn’t fight what she wanted so much. Love was about believing, about taking the gifts that were offered and rejoicing in them. “I want us to be together always.”

Derian grinned. “Are you going to marry me, then, because I want us to get married.” She kissed Emily quickly before a question or protest could form on her lips. “Not because of Henrietta, not because of the agency, not even because of your visa. I want you to be mine and I want everyone to know it. I want us to have a life together, to make life what we want it to be, together. And…I want everyone to know I’m yours.”

Emily slid her hand into Derian’s hair and gave a little tug. “That means only mine. All mine. You understand that, right?”

“I’ve been all yours since the first kiss. All I think about is you, all I’ll ever want is you. For better or for worse.”

“For today and tomorrow,” Emily whispered.

“For all the tomorrows.” Derian rolled over, slid a leg between Emily’s thighs, and kissed her throat. “Did you just say yes?”