Diane Davidson - The Grilling Season

I began to scoop silky dollops of cake batter into the next pan. I put down the spatula, sipped more coffee, and smiled. There was another reason why I’d given up the need for revenge. Just over a year ago, happiness had come into my life like an unexpected houseguest determined to stay. I’d married a homicide investigator who worked for the sheriff’s department. Tom Schulz’s bearlike, handsome presence, his kindness and intelligence, his affection for Arch and me, still felt like a miracle. I glanced up at one of his recent presents to me: a blond doll dressed the way you might imagine a Tyrolean caterer would be, with a snowy lace apron over a royal blue vest and skirt. Actually, the doll’s official name was Icelandic Babsie, and Tom had bought it for me to celebrate an upcoming booking to cater a doll show. He’d told me I could sell the doll in a year and retire on the profits. In addition to his other virtues, the man has a sense of humor.

Tom was like a slice of capital-G Grace, a concept I sometimes discussed with my Sunday school class. Plus, being married to a cop finally made me feel safe. And through all this – divorce, building a business, raising a child, remarrying – I’d held my own. I’d kept my friendships, made new ones, even stayed the course in our local church, where we now had a new priest and I still took my turn teaching Sunday school and making muffins for the after-ser- vice coffee. Which brought us to the present moment.

Rejoicing in the suffering of others is a sin. Well, then. Call me a big-time sinner.

The timer beeped and I remembered the hockey fans. I checked the cupcakes – not quite done – reset the timer, and again studied the menu for the party. I took a deep breath and ordered my-self to let go of all the negative thoughts that Patricia’s vengeful tale had provoked.

“He’s going to run out of money,” Patricia’s voice echoed.

I still did not know how, in addition to the legal mess, the Jerk had gotten himself into a deep financial pickle. I’d promised Patricia I’d listen to the details of that news when I catered her party.

I grimaced at the list of dishes to be prepared and tried to picture the setup at the McCrackens’ Aspen Meadow Country Club home. The McCrackens were adding playing hockey to celebrating hockey. So I would start with beer and a vegetable-and-chip tray with layered Mexican dip served at the end of the driveway during the in-line skating, provide more drinks and Mexican eggrolls upstairs in the living room, do the grilling and barbecue buffet on the large deck, then finish in the living room with cupcakes and coffee. Actually, the McCrackens did not live too far from the Jerk’s year-old million-dollar house. The million-dollar house he might have to sell. Oh, too bad.

Think about hockey, I scolded myself. Fix the frosting for the Stanley Cupcakes. I’d told Patricia the NHL wouldn’t approve of her husband’s name for the dessert. She’d retorted that she didn’t care. I fitted the electric mixer with a flat beater and recalled how breathless Patricia had been with her news yesterday about John Richard’s impending financial demise.

“We were right there when they auctioned off his Keystone condo,” she’d squealed. “It went for sixty thousand below market. This must be the juiciest revenge you’ve ever envisioned,” she’d added with glee.

Not quite. John Richard still had the Aspen Meadow house, a condo in Hawaii, white and silver Jeeps with personalized license plates-the white one said OB and the silver said GYN, just in case anyone wondered what kind of doctor he was – and a wealthy, beautiful, smart, new girlfriend whom I grudgingly admired.

The beater began its slow circuit through the pale, unsalted butter. John Richard’s girlfriend, Suz Craig, was the executive vice-president of the AstuteCare Health Maintenance Organization. I didn’t know if Suz’s feelings for John Richard were being affected by Patricia’s suit against ACHMO. I did know that as of four weeks ago, John Richard and Suz were nuts about each other. To celebrate going together for six whole months, he had given her a full-length mink coat, bought on sale at the beginning of the summer, Arch had informed me. Suz had even modeled the coat when I’d catered a corporate lunch at her home in July. And why shouldn’t I have catered for her? Suz had unabashedly informed me that she was a great businesswoman. Well, so was I.

Suz was young, thin, blond, a whiz at her job – by her own accounting – and eager, I thought, to show me that she wasn’t going to make the same relationship mistakes that I had. What that meant, I didn’t know, and didn’t want to ask. Suz had confided that she’d given John Richard a solid gold ID bracelet as a way of showing her six-month-old affection. I’d tried not to roll my eyes. The only stage of relationship John Richard did well was infatuation. But if John Richard and his girlfriend wanted to act like high school sweethearts, I wasn’t going to stop them. His relationships never lasted very long. No, Patricia McCracken hadn’t been quite on the money when she’d said John Richard’s financial crash was the juiciest revenge I’d ever envisioned.

John Richard had not yet lost the malpractice suit. His girlfriend hadn’t renounced him. He wasn’t in jail; he hadn’t even been publicly humiliated. A declaration of personal bankruptcy, which was what I was assuming was about to happen, was not the kind of revenge I’d always hoped for.

But it was close.

2

When I opened the oven to take out the cupcakes, the scent of chocolate drenched the kitchen. I drank it in and immediately felt better. Thinking dark thoughts was unappealing; thinking dark chocolate thoughts was vastly better. That was the conclusion I’d come to yesterday as I whipped up a batch of fudge. Stirring the sinfully rich pot of candy, I’d decided I really didn’t want to get a blow-by-blow description from Patricia of John Richard’s condo being auctioned off, after all. Listening to sizzling gossip while grilling tuna during the parry tonight could lead to frayed nerves, scorched fish, or worse.

Nor could I quite picture hearing about the woes of John Richard Korman while catering to a large group of hockey aficionados. The fans would be hollering with blood-mania at slow-motion videos of battered hockey players slamming other bruised and injured players into the glass – while I celebrated a vengeance I’d tried to put behind me years ago? Something about that didn’t quite work.

I straightened and rotated my shoulders. My right shoulder was scarred from the time John Richard had shoved me into a dishwasher and I’d landed on a knife. I’d fallen on my left shoulder when he pushed me down the stairs in a drunken rage. Both shoulders seized up with pain from time to time. Yesterday, when I was making the fudge, the ache in my upper back had been unbearable. Of course I’d suspected it was because my body didn’t want to be reminded of John Richard. Let go of it, I’d admonished myself. I’d called Patricia in Keystone and said I didn’t want to hear any more about the Jerk.

“You don’t want to hear before our hockey game about your ex-husband’s ruin? Don’t you want to hear what he said to my lawyer about the money the suit is costing him?” Patricia had shrieked. When I’d said no, she seemed stunned by my lack of interest. “You’re crazy. This whole thing is a huge come-down for him.” Then she said – I swear she said this – “You must be out of your pucking mind.”

Maybe so. But my shoulders felt better today. I swirled thick whipping cream into a mountain of snowy confectioner’s sugar for the cupcake frosting. Yes, I could wait to hear the news. Now I could wait, that is. Tom Schulz, even if he was my husband, had always felt that justice would eventually triumph. I guess that’s why he’s in the business he is.