Diane Davidson - Sticks & Scones

John Richard’s voice was cold. His eyes stayed on Boyd. “We want to see him today. We’re going to take him back to my place, not some stranger’s castle, where you have to stay because somebody else you pissed off is taking potshots at windows in your house.”

I looked at Viv, who widened her black-lined eyes at me. In a deep, sexy voice, she said, “Windows don’t turn me on, Goldy.”

I raised an eyebrow at her. “Mac user?”

“Knock it off,” John Richard snarled.

“I’ll call your lawyer,” I repeated to him. “Now, leave. Please.”

“You have not heard the last of this,” John Richard said softly.

“Ooh,” Viv murmured. She leaned toward the Jerk’s ear and purred, “I love it when you threaten the rough stuff.” As I shook my head, John Richard took Viv’s hand and descended the porch steps.

“You haven’t heard even the beginning of the last of this,” John Richard shot over his shoulder.

How very unfortunate, I thought as he climbed into the driver’s seat of the gold Mercedes. How very unfortunate, indeed.

-14-

Head pounding, body aching, I trod upstairs, tossed a slew of outfits and odds and ends for Tom, Arch, and me into a large suitcase, and retrieved the canvas sack Tom had filled with our photo albums. There were bound to be several photos of the Jerk in one of the old books… enough for the Hydes and Michaela to get a good image of the guy who needed to be kept out of the castle.

And then the suspicious side of me, that voice I wished would be quiet, insisted I had one more thing I needed to do. I called to Boyd and Armstrong that I would be right down.

Rifling through Tom’s bureau made me wish that Episcopalians were as big on confession as Catholics. Yes, “reconciliation of a penitent” was a sacrament available to us. But it wasn’t so common among the Chosen Frozen that the thought of cleansing away my sin - in this case, deliberately invading my husband’s privacy - made committing the sin any easier. So I felt like a heel. Still, if there were love letters, charge receipts, anything, I wanted to find them, because I needed to know what was going on. After five minutes of frantic searching, I came up with nothing. Of course not, I thought, as I carried the suitcase and heavy sack of albums down the steps. I didn’t really think he’d cheat on me, did I?

The suspicious voice admitted that I wasn’t sure. Boyd heaved the suitcase and sack into my van, then turned to me. “I don’t want you and Tom moving back in here until we catch these guys, understand? We’re putting a twenty-four- hour guard on the house, starting now.”

I sighed, but nodded. Boyd told me to call anytime if I needed help. I promised I would. I thanked him for helping with Dr. Korman and for pulling together a team to watch our place. He nodded impassively. When he walked back to the house, I saw Trudy and Jake watching him from her window. Jake’s morose face about broke my heart.

I sat in my van and tried to think. My head throbbed. I couldn’t face another historic-food discussion with Eliot Hyde just then. John Richard knew Arch was in school. His appearance at our house must have been meant to intimidate me. For a moment, I savored the memory of that astonished look on his face when confronted with two armed cops.

But what about the mystery woman who’d been sitting in the rusty station wagon? Did she know we were staying at the castle? Had she followed me there after shooting out the window?

Was she the one who’d shot Tom? Was she the one Tom didn’t love?

I glanced around at the sack of photo albums on the floor. That suspicious voice again wormed its way into my brain … maybe this was where he’d stashed his credit card receipts for flowers, motel visits, jewelry. On the other hand, perhaps being whacked on the head and sustaining a visit from a violent narcissist unleashed more industrial-strength paranoia in the cerebral cortex.

I dug reluctantly into the bag of albums. As it turned out, Tom had purchased another photo album since our wedding. He hadn’t mounted anything in it, but he’d tidily rubber-banded the photos from the last year and stuck them inside. Guilt juiced through my veins when I saw Tom’s pictures of me barbecuing for our little family’s first picnic, of Julian standing by the fountain at the University of Colorado student union. I scooped up the photos and slapped them back inside the new album. Then, unable to help myself, I finished my nefarious snooping task, shaking each of our old albums to see if any incriminating papers fell out.

An old envelope dropped to the van floor. I bent and retrieved it. Inside was a snapshot of John Richard in his white doctor coat. His blond hair tousled, his hands in his pockets, he was smiling with all the charm that had hypnotized so many women - me included. I didn’t remember saving the picture, but perhaps I had and just didn’t recall. Or maybe Arch, ever the idealist when it came to his father, had tucked it away. I slipped the picture back into the envelope and dropped it into my purse.

Finally I reached Tom’s own ancient album. When I shook it, newspaper articles and stray photos cascaded into my lap. “Army Veteran Graduates First,” screamed a proud headline of the Furman County Sheriffs Department newsletter, detailing Tom’s triumphant graduation at the top of his class from police academy. “Top Cop Honored” was another one, for the time Tom had received an award for finding a group of paintings stolen from a Denver art dealer and stashed in an Aspen Meadow garage. Then there was a much older photograph: Tom in his Cub Scout uniform, curly sandy-brown hair, chubby cheeks, crooked smile.

It was too much. I cracked open the yellowed pages of the old album and admired each photo of my dear Tom. As I worked my way through the book, I tried to replace each item I’d shaken loose in its original order.

Page after page showed Tom with school friends, in his army uniform, with cop buddies. My suspicion turned to pride, then to bitter humiliation for doubting him. He had been delirious after he’d been wounded yesterday, that was all there was to it. I had replaced nearly every article and photo when, suddenly, I was brought up short.

“Local Nurse Reported Killed in Mekong Delta Helo Crash” was the headline from a 1975 article. I stared down at it and recalled what I knew: that Tom had been engaged to a woman named Sara who’d been a few years ahead of him in high school. Sara had gone to nursing school and then been assigned to a Mobile Army Surgical Hospital, a MASH, in Vietnam. As soon as he turned eighteen, Tom had enlisted and followed her over. That was all that he’d told me, except that they’d never actually seen each other in that war-ravaged country before she was killed. But hadn’t she died in an artillery shelling, not a helicopter crash?

There was a graduation photo of her in her white nurse’s cap and uniform. Sara Beth O’Malley had been a pretty young woman with wavy dark hair and a face glowing with youth, enthusiasm, and pride. I swallowed. On the photo, she’d written: Love you forever, S.B.

I sat there for a long time. I’d seen her, of course. Her face was now thinner, the youthful glow long gone. But the years had not rendered her unrecognizable. I’d announced I was Goldy Schulz. I’m just waiting, she’d said, when I’d stared into the battered station wagon. She’d started the car and pulled away. I’d been so eager to suspect her that I hadn’t registered - much less understood - her expression as she whipped the wagon away from the curb.

Her lips had trembled; her eyes had been filled with pain.

A cold wind rocked the van as I started down our street. Questions tumbled through my mind: Is she really Sara? What was she doing here? I remembered the title of one of Tom’s e-mails. Call to State Department. Even worse, I wondered how in the world I was going to broach all this to Tom. Hey, honey? Any old flames still burning? I did wonder how someone who’d been reported dead in Vietnam could disappear for all these years. If the woman in the station wagon was Sara Beth O’Malley, where had she been for the last couple of decades?