Thomas Cook - Streets of Fire

Something in him seemed to break a little. ‘Nobody has to be afraid of me, Esther,’ he said.

‘They think I’m letting you know things,’ Esther told him. ‘About the demonstrations and all. They believe you’re over here spying on us. They don’t believe you’re trying to find out about Doreen. Nobody believes that.’

Ben looked at her pointedly. ‘Do you?’

She did not answer.

‘Do you, Esther?’

She shook her head. ‘I don’t know.’

He started to take her shoulders in his hands, but stopped himself. He felt a deep longing sweep over him, dense, demanding, barely controllable. ‘I don’t mean any harm,’ he said helplessly.

‘It can’t look right, though,’ Esther said. ‘It just can’t look right.’

Ben could feel his longing giving way grudgingly, as if it were being driven from him like a hungry animal from the fire.

‘I won’t come again,’ he said, ‘unless it’s about Doreen.’ He nodded gently. ‘Good night, ma’am.’

He started to turn, but she reached out quickly and touched his arm.

‘Wait.’

He turned toward her.

‘What do you think about all this?’ she asked bluntly.

‘All what?’

‘All this trouble we’re having,’ Esther said. ‘All this business in the streets.’

‘I’m sorry about it.’

‘But us, the Negroes,’ Esther asked insistently. ‘What do you, yourself, think about us?’

He realized suddenly that he had never been asked, and for a moment he couldn’t find an answer. But he remembered how as a little boy he’d first noticed that the Negroes always took seats in the back of the trolley. He’d once asked his mother about it, and she’d only said, ‘ ‘’Cause they like it.’ But his father shot back, ‘No, they don’t. Nobody d like having to do that.’ Having to do that? It was the first and last exchange he’d ever heard about the matter, and yet in all the years that followed, he’d never glanced toward the back of a trolley to see the dark faces staring toward him without thinking of what his father said.

Now he looked at Esther. ‘Well, I think that people ought to have a chance to do something, or be something, that makes sense to them,’ he said. ‘I think everybody ought to have that chance.’ He could feel the hard, insistent quality of the belief rising in him. ‘Nobody should have to give them that in the first place. But if it comes down to it, they should just up and take it.’

She watched him with an odd intensity. ‘Good night, then,’ she said.

He drove directly home and slumped down in the little swing on his front porch. The long day’s rain had cooled the air and filled it with an aromatic lushness. He could smell the rich sweetness of the flowers which grew across the street in Mr Jeffries’ yard.

He pressed his feet to the floor and pushed himself back, then swung forward. The wind hit him lightly, ruffling his hair, and he thought of Ryan again, not dead, but living as he should have lived, with that girl he’d met and come to love, living far away, no matter how far, in the place he should have taken her, north toward the huge anonymous cities, or west into the islands of the Pacific, but somewhere far away from the little house in which he died. He could see the house in his mind, but it was the smell of it that lingered in his memory. Ryan’s smell, and only Ryan’s smell. How long, he wondered, did someone have to live alone before he sank his own isolated smell into everything around him? How long did it have to go on, such loneliness, before someone said, ‘Enough.’

He felt a sudden wrenching agitation cut through him like a strand of barbed wire, and his hand jerked up and took the purple ring from his shirt pocket. He lifted it slowly and let the gray light of the streetlamp sweep over it. It winked dully, like a dead eye, but he held on to it anyway, as if, in all the world, it was all he had.

EIGHTEEN

Stacks of mattresses lined the walls of the lobby when Ben got back to headquarters the next morning, and Luther was busily directing a couple of highway patrolmen in how to carry them.

‘Over your goddamn shoulders,’ he said irritably. He heaved one onto his own shoulder. ‘Like this.’

Each of the patrolmen began wrestling awkwardly with a mattress.

Luther shook his head helplessly as he walked over to Ben. ‘Shit for brains,’ he said. ‘Where does Lingo find these assholes?’ He glanced back over to the two men. They had finally managed to hoist the mattresses to their shoulders. ‘Now take them down to the cells and throw them in with the female prisoners. The bucks can sleep on the fucking springs.’

The two men lumbered toward the stairs, one of them giggling mindlessly.

Luther turned to Ben. ‘By the way, I didn’t have time to ask you last night. What’d you find over at Kelly’s?’

‘Just the body.’

‘No sign of foul play?’

Ben shook his head. ‘Not that I could see. Daniels and Breedlove were going over the place when I left.’

Luther shrugged. ‘Well, they had nothing better to do. The rain had put a damper on the demonstrations. At least for a while.’ He glanced toward the front door where bright shafts of warm sunlight could be seen cascading through the glass. ‘Not like today. Today we’re going to get it.’

‘That guy Coggins,’ Ben said. The one Breedlove was after yesterday. Is he still in custody?’

‘I’d keep that agitating bastard in jail for twenty years, if it was me,’ Luther snapped. ‘The idea of putting little kids in jail. It makes me sick.’

‘Is he still around?’ Ben repeated.

Luther looked at him as if he were a naive little boy. ‘Well, nobody’s trying to get out, Ben. Shit, that’s the whole idea, fill up the jails.’ He shook his head. ‘We got them in Mountain Brook, Irondale, Bessemer. We’re hauling by the truckload all over Jefferson County.’ He sighed loudly. ‘When’s it going to end?’

‘Coggins,’ Ben said. ‘I want to talk to him.’

‘All right,’ Luther told him, ‘he’s in one of the cells with the rest of the male prisoners. Ask McCorkindale. He’s supposed to be keeping track of people.’ He glanced nervously at the stairs. ‘Let me go check on those two monkeys,’ he said irritably. ‘They could end up trying to stuff those mattresses down the goddamn toilet.’ Then he rushed away.

Ben found McCorkindale straddling a metal chair at the entrance to the cellblock.

‘Howdy, Ben,’ he said. ‘They got me watching the niggers.’ He frowned unhappily. ‘They’ll probably have me doing a lot of this shit now that Kelly’s gone.’

Ben looked down the hallway to the lines of cells. Scores of black hands could be seen clutching loosely to the bars.

‘Looks like you’re full up,’ he said.

McCorkindale lifted a small box of chocolate candy toward him. ‘Want one?’

‘No, thanks,’ Ben said.

McCorkindale popped one into his mouth and chewed it slowly. ‘Nothing to do down here but feed your face.’

‘I’m looking for one of the prisoners,’ Ben told him.

‘Take your pick, son,’ McCorkindale said. ‘They all look alike.’

‘Leroy Coggins.’

McCorkindale smiled. ‘Oh, one of the big boys. Got a mean mouth on him, too.’

‘Captain Starnes said you might know where he was.’

McCorkindale scratched his chin. ‘They brought him down yesterday afternoon,’ he said thoughtfully. ‘He was bitching about something upstairs.’ He peered off down the hall. ‘I believe he’s in that far-left cell. You know what he looks like?’

‘Yeah.’

‘Well, go check that far-left cell,’ McCorkindale said. ‘I think that’s where I put him.’

Ben made his way slowly toward the cell McCorkindale had indicated. A murmur rose slowly among the prisoners as he passed them, and, as if in response to some silent cue, some of them began to sing and clap their hands. On either side, the individual cells were packed tightly. Young black men sat Indian-style on the bare springs of the metal bunks or stood, shoulder to shoulder, on the cramped cement floor. The cool which had swept over the city with the rain had not penetrated to the cellblock, and the suffocating smell of hundreds of sweaty crowded bodies thickened the air.