Bentley Little - The Mailman

"Because you know," the mailman said.

"I don't know anything."

"Because you complained."

"A lot of people have complained."

"Because I feel like it," the mailman said, and the random callousness of that admission, the utter lack of reason, struck Doug as the truth. He stared into those cold eyes and saw nothing. No passion, no feeling, nothing. Evil was not hatred, he thought. Evil was this.

The mailman smiled, and his voice was filled with an ugly undercurrent of threatening sexuality. "How's the little woman, little man?"

"You bastard!" Doug struck out at the mailman, but the mailman stepped easily back, avoiding the blow. Doug, thrown off-balance, fell against the counter.

The mailman chuckled, then his usual benign mask fell into place. "I'm sorry, Mr.Albin . The post office is not open yet, but if you'd like to buy a book of stamps --"

"Just leave us alone," Doug said, standing straight.

"It's my job to deliver the mail, and I will continue to perform my duties to the best of my ability."

"Why? No one reads it anyway."

"Everyone reads their mail."

"I don't. I stopped reading it weeks ago."

The mailman stared at him, blinked. "You have to read your mail."

"I don't have to do anything. I take my mail directly from the mailbox to the garbage can, no stops in between."

For the first time, the mailman seemed to Doug at a loss for words. He shook his head as if he didn't understand what Doug was saying. "But you have to read your mail," he repeated.

Doug smiled, realizing he had hit a nerve. "I don't read my man. My wife doesn't read her mail. We don't look at it at all. We don't even look to see who it's from or who it's addressed to. We just throw it away. So just stop wasting your time and leave us alone."

"But you have to read your mail."

Giselle walked into the office from the back.

"Just leave us alone," Doug said to the mailman. He turned and strode out of the building. He was trembling, shaking, as he walked out to the car.

He thought he heard the mailman say something to him as he left, but he didn't hear what it was and wasn't sure he wanted to know.

36

Doug drove through the night shirtless, his hair still uncombed, wearing only his Levi's and a pair of tennis shoes. He had driven this route a thousand times, but now he seemed to be moving in slow motion, the Bronco putting along at a pitifully inadequate speed. He hit the steering wheel as hard as he could, angry at the car and at himself. The horn bleated, and he almost drove into a tree as he turned a corner too sharply. He slowed down as much as he dared, but he had to get moving. He'd already taken far too long. The Bronco bumped onto the pavement as the dirt road ended, and he pressed down on the gas pedal.

He'd been scared a lot lately and he'd thought he'd reached the limit of terror, that he'd been as frightened as he could be, but when he'd picked up the phone from a sound sleep and heardHobie's panicked high-pitched voice screaming of blood and virgins while in the background the static of a police radio crackled, he knew that fear had no limit. It was bottomless, and he just kept sinking deeper and deeper into it.

He saw the police lights from far down the street, a twin red-and-blue pulsing against the trees and houses of the neighborhood. The cars and the ambulance were directly in front ofHobie's house, so he had to park several houses away. He slammed the car door shut and ran down the cracked and dirty sidewalk. A gang ofbathrobed men and women, neighbors, mingled about behind the yellow ribbon used to cordon offHobie's trailer, and he pushed his way through them to reach the driveway.

"Hey!" a policeman yelled at him. "What do you think you're doing?"

"I'm here to seeHobie ," Doug said.

"I'm sorry," the policeman said, blocking his way. "But you cannot move beyond the barrier."

"I called him,"Hobie yelled from the doorway. "Goddammit! Let him in."

Doug looked over at his friend.Hobie's eyes were wide and wild, his short hair sticking out crazily in irregular clumps. He was wearing only Jockey shorts and a T-shirt, and Doug saw with horror that both were streaked with blood.

"Let him through," Tim Hibbard ordered from behindHobie , and the first policeman motioned Doug under the barrier. Doug ducked under the ribbon and crossed the yard. Sealed plastic containers and boxes marked "Willis Police Department" had been placed next to the walk, and from inside the house came the hissing of radio static, the beeping of electronic instruments, and rough voices ragged with frightened disgust.

"I didn't do it, Doug."Hobie's voice was high and frightened. "I --"

Doug walked up to the door. "Don't say anything until you get a lawyer,"

he said.

"I didn't --"

"Don't say anything." Doug put a reassuring hand on his friend's shoulder, hoping he appeared calmer than he felt. Something worse than horrible had happened here, something that had turnedHobie into this frightened gibbering creature before him, and he wished for one cruel selfish instant that he had never metHobie and that he could be one of the hundreds of other people in Willis sleeping right now, totally unaware and unaffected by what was going on.

But then he saw the simple look of blind need on his friend's face and was sorry such a thought had even crossed his mind. He turned toward the closest policeman, a middle-aged man with a mustache he had seen around but did not know. "What happened here?"

The policeman looked at him with barely concealed disdain. "You want to know what happened here? You want to see what your buddy did? Come into the bedroom."

"I didn't do it,"Hobie insisted. "I swear --"

"Shut up," Doug told him. "Don't say anything." He followed the uniformed officer into the bedroom, where another group of policemen were looking through the closet.

The smell hit him immediately. A thick sour-sweet stench that sickened his stomach and made him want to gag.

Blood.

"Oh, God," Doug breathed. "Oh, Jesus."

The girl's body was lying on the bed. Next to the knives. She was nude and on her stomach, facing away from him. The back of her skull was visible through the bloody hole that had been carved through her scalp. The bone had been chipped off in several places, revealing the pale red-tinged worm twists of her brain. Across her back were scores of stabs and slices, and the skin on her buttocks had been completely peeled off, exposing the wet muscle beneath. A

stain of blood that took up half of the sheet spread outward from between her legs.

Doug looked up, unable to bear the sight. On the wall above the bed, snapshots of nude girls had been taped to the paneling. Dozens of them. All of the girls had been tortured and mutilated, sexually violated with knives identical to the ones lying on the bed.

"I didn't do it,"Hobie insisted. "I swear to God I didn't do it. I just got here and found --"

The men by the closet turned around. ChiefCatfield's eyes widened when he saw Doug. "Get him out of here!" the chief roared.

"I just wanted him to see what his friend did," the mustached policeman stammered.

"I don't give a flying fuck what you wanted!"

Doug staggered backward out of the room, gulping air, not needing to be told to leave. He could still smell the sickening heavy odor of fresh blood, could taste its disgustingly salty muskiness in his mouth. He stood for a moment with his hands on his knees, trying to keep down the gorge threatening to rise in his throat.

"I didn't do it,"Hobie said. "He did it!" He grabbed Doug's shoulders, and Doug could see small flecks of blood splattered on his cheeks. "He set me up!" "Who?" Tim asked from the other side of the room.

"The mailman."

"Don't say anything until you get a lawyer," Doug ordered. He glared at his friend, andHobie looked subserviently away.