Kelly gives me a sidelong glance. What
are
you going to do with that disc, if you find it?
The truth is, I'm not sure, but I keep that to myself. I hope youre about to find out.
So how did you figure out the clues? Kelly asks.
He hasn't even told me that, Caitlin says with pique.
When I searched the cemetery yesterday, I searched the graves of everyone Tim and I both knew. Classmates weve lost, people from
St. Stephens who died young. I even searched all the famous graves I knew. But I left out one grave. It never even
occurred
to me that Tim would use it.
Whose was it?
A high school senior who was killed by a drunk driver in 1979.
Caitlin leans up between the seats. Why didn't you think of him the other day?
Because Tim Jessup was the driver who killed him.
My God. But how did the clue make you think of him?
The boys name was Patrick McQueen.
Kelly smiles after a moment, but Caitlin shrugs. Sometimes a ten-year age gap causes issues.
The Great Escape?
I prompt. Steve McQueen
? He ran from the Nazis on a motorcycle? Crashed into barbed wire at the end?
Oh
okay, I get it.
I never considered Patricks grave because I couldn't imagine Tim thinking about him in a desperate moment like that. Tim spent a year in jail because of that accident, and it ruined most of his life. I figured hed done everything he could to get Patrick out of his mind. But I should have known better. Hes probably thought about Patrick every day of his life since that night. Especially lately. I think hed been trying to make up for what he did by living a good life.
Caitlin shakes her head sadly.
But what does dog pack mean? Kelly asks. Whats that part of it?
Tim and I used to ride our bikes in the cemetery when we were kids. Once a pack of wild dogs chased us there. I'm not positive about the connection, but I think I know. Well be sure in two minutes. When you get up to the flat part of this road, youll see the river on your left. Turn at the main gate.
As Kelly does so, Caitlin touches my shoulder. Are you sure you cant remember anything else about the girl who gave you the note? Something must have triggered that feeling of familiarity. What was it?
I try to recall the girls face, but the harder I concentrate on it, the less distinct it becomes. I really cant place her. I have this vague
feeling
she reminded me of a girl who used to wait on me across the river somewhere. A store or a restaurant in Vidalia, maybe. But the girl I'm thinking of was really heavy, and a lot plainer. I'm probably way off.
Dont stop thinking about it. Maybe it will come to you later.
I do better with remembering when I'm not trying to.
Despite this assertion, I plumb my memory for some connection to the girls face, but as we climb Maple Street toward the hill from which the Charity Hospital used to look down upon the cemetery, a very different memory rises. In the summer after sixth grade, a bunch of us were staying overnight with a friend who lived downtown. Most of us lived in subdivisions, but a few schoolmates still lived in ramshackle Victorians fronted with wrought-iron fences and backed by narrow alleys and deep gullies. Wed ride our jerry-built banana bikes downtown, pretending to be Evel Knievel, then spend the night tearing around the city streets, trying to do enough yelling to get the police to chase us.
We were just old enough that when Davy Cass suggested we should invade the cemetery, no one dared to say he was afraid to do it. I certainly didn't. Partly it was the idea of a deserted graveyard that scared me, but another part knew that the cemetery lay on the north side of town, uncomfortably close to the Negro sections of the city. During that era, no black male with his wits about him would have dared say a cross word to a white child, but we didn't know that. There was old Jim Clay, who lived in a shack on the Fenton property and who would fire rock salt from a shotgun if we got too near his place. Nook Wilson at the gas station had killed his wife with a butcher knife and sometimes looked at you like hed just as soon kill you too. That was who I thought about when our bike routes took us close to the north side after dark, and not Ruby Flowers, our maid, who lived out that way and would have coldcocked anyone who tried to hurt me. But mostlyand wiselywe feared the unknown.
Our first thirty minutes in the cemetery were euphoric. We flashed down the narrow lanes between the mausoleums like the superheroes we worshipped, riding no-hands and seeing who could shut his eyes the longest without crashing. I rode from the main gate to Catholic Hill without once touching the handlebars, holding my
arms out like wings (and only peeking a couple of times). But this hyperexcited state ended with the sound of a single growl. Barks wouldn't have frightened us, since most of us owned dogs. But when Davy suddenly skidded to a stop, the rest of us slammed into him from behind, and then we saw what had stopped him.
Crouching in the middle of the path was a black cur that had to weigh sixty pounds. Behind him a dozen more dogs stood alert, awaiting an attack signal. The cur had his teeth bared and his ears back, and when I saw his feverish eyes glint in the moonlight, I cringed with prehistoric fear. The lane cut between walls of earth twelve feet high, so our only escape route lay behind us. I felt my bladder turn to stone, then communal panic flashed through our little tribe. By the time we got our bikes turned, fifteen or twenty dogs were in pursuit. Wed had trouble with wild packs before, usually in the woods, and every summer our mothers reminded us that Billy Jenkins had been forced to take twenty-three rabies shots in his stomach because of a dog bite. This knowledge made us pedal like madmen for the gates, praying for deliverance as the frenzied animals snapped at our legs.
We didn't have a chance. Only the savant-level survival instincts of Trey Stacy saved us. When he jumped from his bike and dashed for the low-hanging branch of an oak tree, the herd instinct kicked in. Soon seven boys were treed like coons in the great gnarled branches of the oak. The furious dogs leaped and gnashed their teeth, barking and howling like demons among the gravestones, but that was their undoing. Their baying eventually drew the attention of a passing motorist, who called the police. The first cop shot one dog with his pistol, but the pack didn't retreat until his red-haired partner killed the alpha male with a shotgun. Several boys were crying as the police hauled us back to our sleepover, not for fear of their parents, but from the shock of seeing the dogs killed. I was shivering myself and glad when my father arrived to take me home rather than let me stay the night.
Caitlin touches my shoulder again and says, Penn? We just went through the main gate. Where are we going?
I point along a rank of oaks that line the nearby lane. When we reach the oak of my memory, I tell Kelly to stop. Its trunk is massive now, and its great branches hang so low that weather-treated four-
by-fours have been propped beneath to keep them from sagging to the ground. Across the lane from the tree, beneath a twisted limb, lies the grave of Patrick McQueen.
With Caitlin trailing, I walk to his gravestone, a tall slab of granite with the text of Housmans To an Athlete Dying Young engraved on its face. One quick scan tells me that no disc is hidden beside the stone, but I'm certain now that Tim told me what I need to know. Leaving the stone, I walk out to where the crooked limb almost touches the grass. Then I set my foot in its crook, grip the rising branch with both hands, and begin climbing toward the trunk of the tree.
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