Walt opens a cabinet over the sink and pours himself a shot of Makers Mark. Then he sits at the table in back and drinks it, feeling the burn in his gullet.
Nancy looks puzzled. You got any rum, by any chance?
Rum is for pirates and high school girls. Youre out of high school, aren't you?
She giggles. Maybe I am and maybe I aint. Do you want me to be?
What I want is for you to pour yourself a little whiskey and sit here by me.
Nancy pours a glass of whiskey and sets it on the table, then sits beside Walt and nuzzles her face into his neck. For an instant he feels a shiver of desire, but then her hand creeps across his thigh and down between his legs, rubbing insistently.
Dont you want to get on over to that hotel? she coos. We wanna be where we can spread out. Dont we?
Walt doesn't want to take the girl back to the hotel. He wants to go back to his room alone and call Carmelita. He cant do that, of course, not without breaking cover. He never had any intention of screwing Nancy. He figured hed get her to do a little striptease, overtip her, then pretend to pass out and hope she didn't try to rob him. If she did, hed wake up and ease her out gently. But now that they're alone, he knows he doesn't have the stomach for even that. Seeing those little tits drop out of that dress wouldn't do anything but make him think about the kids she has waiting at home, and the idea of her working with mechanical urgency to make him climax nauseates him.
What he really feels like doing is talking to her. Asking the same stupid question he asked the whores back in KoreaHow did you wind up doing this?which was all the more pointless back then because almost no one could answer even the simplest queries in English. Only in Japan had he received a real answer, on his extended R&R, and that had almost changed the course of his life.
Dont you want it, Daddy? Nancy murmurs, rubbing clumsily at his trousers. Huh?
He drinks off her shot, then says, Listen, Nancy, and gently moves her hand out of his crotch. You brought me some good luck in there, and I sure appreciate it. But I think I'm gonna call it a night.
The girls face falls. Whats the matter, J.B.? You don't like me?
Oh, I like you. A lot. But I'm gettin on up there in age, in case you haven't noticed.
Nancy gives him a conspiratorial laugh.
Hell, I got kids older than you. I like having a girl on my arm, putting on the dog a little. But the truth is, honey, old J.B. cant really get it up no more.
Her brow furrows as though shes trying to understand an algebra problem. What about Viagra?
Walt chuckles as though with embarrassment. I've got a bad ticker, hon. Cant take that stuff.
Nancy looks almost frantic. Well, theres other things I can do. I mean, you got me out here and all. And I got to make a living, you know?
Oh, I know that, sweetheart. Dont you worry bout that. He digs out his roll and peels off five $100 bills. Nancy almost licks her lips at the sight of them, but she waits until he passes them to her. Does that cover your time?
The glow in her eyes tells him she hasn't seen that kind of money in a long time, if ever. What about my tip?
Walt hesitates, then winks like a man who knows hes being taken advantage of and peels off another hundred, which he folds into the damp little palm.
How long you gonna be in town, J.B.? Nancy asks, obviously thinking about her future prospects. I can put on the dog all you want, darling.
I'll be around all week. Got a piece of some Wilcox wells down here. Youll see me around the boats. If I'm with somebody else, you just give me the high sign, and I'll come get you if I can. If not, I'll catch you the next night. Okay?
She nods soberly. I got you.
Walt smiles with genuine gratitude. Can you get home all right?
Yeah, my cars in the lot here.
Where?
Other side.
Walt gets up and cranks the Roadtrek, then follows Nancys pointing finger to the other side of the vast lot, where he stops beside her wreck of a car.
Its a junker, she admits, but it runs good. My ex is a mechanic.
Walt feels like giving her the rest of the roll, but that would be pushing it.
Nancy raises her slim frame from the seat, leans down, and kisses him on the top of the head, then walks to the door in the side of the Roadtrek. As he looks back to watch her go, she pauses and lifts her tight skirt over her hips. A thin band of black elastic encircles her surprisingly feminine hips, and the thong disappears between the firm cheeks of her rump. She bends and touches her toes without effort, then stands and turns to face him, drawing the thong away from her pubis. The hair there is trimmed flat, a dark shadow over taut skin and protuberant lips. This time something stirs in him, something beyond thought or reason, the old Adam in him coming back to life.
Do you miss it, J.B.? she asks softly. Dont you just want to put your finger in it sometimes?
Walt tries to laugh this off, but something sticks in his throat.
Everybody wants to, she says. You don't never get too old for that.
Walt looks into her eyes, then back at the triangular shadow.
I'll be around, she says, letting the thong pop back into place. You let me know.
She pulls down the clingy skirt, opens the door, and steps out of the van.
Walt drives away without looking back. Her groping touch had repelled him, but that last, unexpected display, her frank lack of embarrassment, arced across the space between them and struck something vital. Its enough to make him want to stop the van and pour another drink. A girl he wouldn't have looked at twice ten years ago has pierced his armor with a simple tease. The confidence he felt on the boat has been shaken. As he climbs the long road that leads up the bluff, he wonders,
Am I getting too old for this game?
CHAPTER
27
After two nights without sleep, seven hours rest is not enough, but ten minutes in a steaming shower at least make me feel human again. Caitlin woke me from a dead sleep at 3:45 a.m. and led me to her bathroom. Now, as I'm toweling off, she comes in and sets a cup of coffee beside the lavatory. I wrap the towel around my waist, and she perches on the edge of the commode. Shes still wearing the clothes she had on at the police station.
Have you slept? I ask her, taking a hand towel off the rack to dry my hair.
I've been reading about dogfighting.
And?
My mind is blown. I'm serious. This is a worldwide sportif you can call it thatand it goes back centuries. Its been outlawed almost everywhere except Japan, but its still thriving all over the world. Did you even Google this?
I haven't had time.
Caitlin shakes her head as though I'm hopeless. I pictured, you know, a mob of hicks with twenty-dollar bills in their hands gathered around a couple of bulldogs. But this is a big-money business. Theres a whole American subculture out there. Two subcultures really: the old-timer redneckswho specialize in breeding game dogs and pass down all the knowledge about fighting bloodlines
from the 1800s; then theres the urban culturethe street fighters, they call them. Hip-hop generation and all that. Its a macho thing. They fight their dogs in open streets, basements, fenced yards. But as different as the two subcultures are, they have a lot in common. Theyre highly organized, they train the dogs the same way, and they expose their kids to it very young to desensitize them
Its
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