Anne Perry - A Christmas Visitor

Henry felt the need to say something quickly, but it must be both helpful and true. False comfort now would only make things worse later, and though she might well understand why he had done it, she would never trust him again.

“He made these charges before Judah’s death?” he asked. The truth was a poor refuge, but it was all he had.

She looked up at him.

“Yes. He came out of prison in Carlisle, straight back here.” Suddenly anger took hold of her. “Why couldn’t he have gone somewhere else, and started a new life where he wasn’t known? If he’d gone to Liverpool or Newcastle, no one would have known he’d been in prison, and he could have begun again! I’ve never seen anyone so filled with anger. I’ve seen him in the street, and he frightens me.” She looked terrified. Her magnificent eyes were wide and hollow, her face almost bloodless.

“Surely you don’t think he would hurt you?” he exclaimed. The lights were exactly as before, and the coals were still hot, but it was as if the room were darker. “Antonia?”

She turned away from him. “No,” she said quietly. “You’re really asking if he hurt Judah, aren’t you?” She drew in a long breath. “We’d been into the village for a violin recital. It was a wonderful evening. We took Joshua, even though it was late, because we knew he’d love it. He is going to be one of the world’s great musicians. He has already composed simple pieces, but beautiful, full of unusual cadences. He took one of them, and the violinist played it. He asked if he could keep the copy.” Her face filled with pride at the memory.

“Perhaps he will be England’s Mozart,” he answered.

She said nothing for a few moments, struggling to regain her composure.

“Perhaps,” she agreed at last. “When we came home it was after ten o’clock. I saw Joshua to bed. He was so excited he wanted to stay up all night. Judah said he wanted to walk. He had been sitting all evening. He … never came back.” Again she took a few moments before she could continue. “A while after, I woke Mrs. Hardcastle, and we sent for Wiggins. He and the butler and the footman went out with lanterns to look for Judah. It was the longest night of my life. It was after three when they came back and said they had found him in the stream. He had apparently tried to cross in the dark over the stepping stones and slipped. They are very smooth there, and could be icy. There is a slight fall a few yards down where they are jagged. They believe he slipped and struck his head, and the water carried him.”

“Where to? It’s not very deep.” Was he thinking of the right place, remembering accurately?

“No, but it doesn’t have to be to drown. If he had been conscious he would naturally have climbed out. He might have caught pneumonia from the cold, but he would be alive.” She took a deep breath. “Now I must fight the slander for him.” She lifted her eyes to meet his. “It is hard enough to lose him, but to hear Ashton Gower say such evil things of him, and fear that anyone at all could believe it, is more than I can bear. Please help me prove that it is absolutely and terribly wrong. For Judah’s sake, and for Joshua.”

“Of course,” he said without hesitation. “How can you doubt that I would?”

She smiled at him. “I didn’t. Thank you.”

S upper was early, and there were only the three of them at the table. Henry did not sit at the head, in Judah’s place. It seemed an insensitive thing to do, not only for Antonia, but for the grave, pale-faced Joshua, who had not yet reached his tenth birthday, and was so suddenly bereft of his father.

Henry did not know him well. Last time he had been here Joshua had been only five, and spent more time in the nursery. Already he had played the piano and had been too fascinated by it to pay much attention to a middle-aged gentleman here for a week in the summer, and more interested in hill walking than music lessons.

Now he sat solemn-eyed, eating his food because he had been told to, and staring at the space on the wall opposite his seat, somewhere between the Dutch painting of cows in a quiet field, and an equally flat seascape of the Romney Marshes with light glistening on the water as if it were polished pewter.

The servants came and went with each dish, soundless and discreet.

Henry tried speaking to Joshua once or twice, and received a considered answer each time. Henry had a son, but Oliver was a grown man, one of London’s most distinguished barristers, well known for his brilliance in the criminal court. Henry could hardly remember now what Oliver had been like at nine years old. He too had been intelligent, certainly, precocious in his ability to read, and as far as Henry could remember, in his taste in books. He had been inquisitive, and profoundly argumentative. He could recall that clearly enough! But that was nearly thirty years ago, and the rest was hazy.

He wanted to speak to Joshua, so as not to appear to ignore him.

“Your mother says you composed a piece of music that the violinist at the recital played,” he observed. “That is very fine.”

Joshua regarded him soberly. He was a handsome child with wide, dark eyes like Antonia’s, but his father’s brow and balance of head.

“It did not sound exactly how I meant it to,” he replied. “I shall have to work harder at it. I think it ends a little soon … and it’s too quick.”

“I see. Well, knowing what is wrong with a thing is at least halfway toward putting it right,” Henry replied.

“Do you like music?” Joshua asked.

“Yes, very much. I can play the piano a little.” Actually, he was being quite modest. He had a certain flair for it. “But I cannot write for it.”

“What can you do?”

“Joshua!” Antonia remonstrated.

“It’s quite all right,” Henry said quickly. “It is a fair question.” He turned to the boy. “I am good at mathematics, and I like to invent things.”

“You mean arithmetic?”

“Yes. And algebra and geometry.”

Joshua frowned. “Do you like it, or is it that you have to do it?”

“I like it,” Henry replied. “It makes a very beautiful kind of sense.”

“Like music?”

“Yes, very much.”

“I see.”

And then the conversation rested, apparently to Joshua’s satisfaction.

After a postprandial half hour by the fire, Henry excused himself, saying that he wanted to take a walk and stretch his legs. He did not ask Antonia where Judah had died, but when he had his coat and boots on, and a hat and scarf as well, he inquired from Wiggins, and was given directions to the stream nearly a mile away.

It was nearly half past eight, and outside the night was dense black, apart from the lantern he was holding, and the few lights he could see from the village a couple of miles away. The sound of his feet on the gravel was loud in the cloaking silence.

He moved very slowly, uncertain of his way, wary of tripping over the edge of the lawn, or even of bumping into the drive gates. It took a few minutes for his eyes to become sufficiently accustomed to see ahead of him by starlight, and make out the black tracery of bare branches against the sky. Even then it was more by the blocking of the pinpricks of light than the line of a tree. A sickle moon made little difference, just a silver curve like a horn.

Why on earth had Judah Dreghorn walked so far late on a night like this? The cold stung the skin. The wind was from the north, off the snows of Blencathra. Here in the valley the ground was frozen like rock, but there was no gleaming whiteness to reflect back the faint light. He wound his scarf more tightly around his neck and a trifle higher about his ears, and moved forward on what he hoped was the way Wiggins had told him.