Jeffery Allen - Rails Under My Back

Lucifer took the hand, hard and cool as money. The reverend shook firm and sharp, machinelike. Lucifer Jones.

Glad to meet you.

You too. The reverend switched his long thin legs to the left, like a gate allowing a ship (Lucifer) to enter dock. Lucifer sat down in his seat— How did he know that I was sitting here? How did he know that I wanted to sit down? — and tried to be comfortable. Every nerve in his body alive. Strangers steel us.

Hope you don’t mind me sitting here? The reverend returned his legs to their original position. The gate closed; only the reverend could open it.

Not at all. Lucifer’s skin was hot. Fire stirred about him.

My car was too cold. So I decided to change.

Lucifer watched the moving words lift from the reverend’s long phallic neck. He’s a preacher. I’m riding with a preacher. Not what he had imagined: a long, quiet ride, the steady soothing rumble of the train.

Looks like we gon share this ride. The preacher’s right eye was completely red, a broken blood vessel.

Yes.

I’m always happy to make a new acquaintance. The preacher’s Dobb — ah yes, tight-fitting to hide his preacher head — sat on the empty seat next to him. Preacher-typical. His egg-shaped head contained the secret yolk of life.

Me too. Lucifer tasted his teeth. Whiskey had failed to burn away the sleep. He would have to brush them.

Where you headed?

New York.

Me too.

I knew it. Jus my luck.

I’m attending my brother’s funeral.

Sorry to hear that. Bet you gon preach his funeral. Probably be around to preach mine. Preachers never die. The preacher smelled like the past in his dark — black? brown? — three-piece suit. I bet he’s had that suit twenty-five years. Lucifer heard the tight heart beating inside his vest.

He lived on Amsterdam Avenue. You know where that is?

Uptown. Probably in Harlem.

Yes. Harlem. His wife gave me the address. The preacher fisted his left lapel and threw open his blazer, revealing the shiny vest. His free hand searched in the small vest pocket. Discovered a strip of paper luminous with grease stains. He handed — lines ran like dark roads on the old man’s palm — Lucifer the paper. There. The preacher’s finger indicated numbers scrawled across a bus transfer. Lucifer pretended to read them.

I see. Lucifer nodded.

She told me to take a cab from the train station. Said it should cost no more than eight dollars.

Probably so.

Sounds like you know New York City.

Not really.

You ever been to New York City?

Once or twice. New York and Home: two cities sailed together; he dreamed about one while he lived in the other.

Furrows in the earth last for three months. Furrows in the water come back together.

Lucifer sought slow understanding. The preacher’s serious mood would not taint him. He would not allow it. Damn if he would.

I probably won’t even recognize him.

Who?

My brother.

Oh.

He never sent pictures. He wrote or called me once a year. That was about it. We had no reason to see each other. This will be the first time he ever heard me preach. And I’m sure he’ll be listening. Sure. He moved to New Orleans in 1928. Then Memphis for a few years, then Chicago, then Detroit, then Los Angeles, finally New York City, Harlem. He hated the world.

Lucifer thought about something courteous to say and thinking found nothing.

What about you?

Me?

Why are you going to New York City?

To see my brother.

He lives there?

No. Well, not exactly. It’s a long story.

Well, we’ve got fifteen hours, I believe.

Lucifer said nothing. Nothing to be told.

I understand, the preacher said. The necessities of blood.

Yes, Lucifer said, not knowing what else to say.

What’s your brother’s name?

John.

John. The preacher broke the word between his fingers. John. Be kind to your brother, for he is just a ship in the ocean of time searching for a harbor.

Lucifer studied the preacher’s wrinkled skin, legends or biblical passages written beneath it. So the preacher thinks he’s a prophet.

I’m sorry. I’m not trying to pry.

No need to apologize.

I like to talk. The first sign of old age is all the talking cause you can’t do much else.

Lucifer attempted a laugh.

Where you from?

Lucifer told him.

Oh yes. I often preach there. You know Mount Zion Church?

I used to know one called that, years ago, but it’s probably not the same church.

It probably is. The preacher was looking directly at Lucifer’s forehead. A red stalactite reflected in his white eye. Ah, the red widow’s peak. He had forgotten to shave it.

Excuse me, Lucifer said. He tried to rise from his seat.

You see — the preacher’s wing tips flopped like catfish — I got a few years—

I’ll be right back.

— but I try to travel and spread the truth.

That’s good, Lucifer said. Excuse me. I need to use the bathroom.

Maybe before God calls me home — the red eye was looking into a new country — I’ll carry the gospel to another land.

The solid front of words knocked Lucifer back into his seat. The preacher must be deaf. All that screaming in church. That would be nice.

I’m from Memphis. Live there, that is. Born in—

Memphis? My wife’s from there.

Maybe she knows my church. Here’s my card.

Lucifer took it. Thanks. Pretended to read it. Buried it in his shirt pocket.

Being that your wife’s from there, you’ve visited?

No. I’ve never been down South. Well, except when I—

You should visit.

I plan to. The world sped past. Lucifer wanted to sit here quietly and alone and watch it. Perhaps study his map of New York City. (So long since he’d been there.)

Memphis used to be a nice place. Now everybody got bars on their doors. The world’s changed so.

Yes.

We hurt ourselves. Cain killing Abel. If we had any sense we wouldn’t be stealin from other po folks. Socrates said, Teach your mouth to say no. Black people are petty thieves. That’s the message of Jesus and the ten lepers.

Lucifer didn’t know the parable.

But we still got some good folks in Memphis. You should visit.

I plan to.

Come by my church anytime.

Thanks.

You and your wife. You can stay with me.

Thanks.

My wife ain’t living. God called her home.

Sorry to hear that.

She had bad kidneys. She had to drink one beer a day and keep her insides clean. By the time she lay back on her deathbed, she developed a round belly. Everybody thought she was pregnant, about to give birth to our sixth child. But you see, God been good to me.

Oh no. Here it comes. Forcing me to go to church, right here on this train. Then he’ll shout Lord! and pass around his collection plate. Why does everyone want to talk religion to me? Lucifer was tired of the small predictable truths, gilded platitudes, humming homilies.

I got married in 1933. My wife was nineteen. We were married for forty-five years. God been good.

Lucifer smiled.

I was born in 1910. That makes me how old?

Lucifer told him.

And I still got my health. And I have plenty to live on. I collect rent on three houses I own. I get eighty-five dollars a week from my congregation. And I get eight hundred eighty-nine dollars a month in pension.

What sort of work did you do? Why did I ask that?

Railroad.

Oh yeah? One of my wife’s uncles — he thought about And’s relationship to Sheila: his wife’s great-aunt’s husband — worked for the railroad.

Which railroad?

I’m not sure. But he always talked about it.