Richard Price - The Whites

“Yeah, well.” Stacey took a breath. “Not no more.”

Billy just stared at her: This is why I screen your calls, this is why I…

“What happened.”

At the end of Stacey’s tale, Billy was staring at his ashy coffee, his jaw askew with fury.

“I need you to find someone for me,” he said.

“I thought you would,” Stacey sliding a single sheet of paper across the table. “Got the horse right here.”

Billy speed-scanned the document and learned that Curtis Taft was still working for the same security outfit that had employed him at the time of the triple homicide and was now living in Co-op City in the Bronx, although the place to find him this week was neither work nor home but at Columbia Presbyterian, where he was recovering from surgery on a perforated ulcer.

“I thank you for this,” holding up the sheet.

Stacey shrugged and then looked away, Billy sensing the mortification that still coursed through her veins over the long-ago debacle that had ended her career.

“Seriously,” Billy said, his own mortification equal to hers, given that she’d been right about him all along: when he had fired the shot that killed a man and then entered the groin of the ten-year-old boy who had been standing behind him, he was coked to the gills. All the WGs were that night, a fact they would keep to themselves until the day they died.

“So, Mr. Taft, how are we feeling today?” Billy’s voice burbling with rage-induced pep as he whipped back the curtain that curved around the hospital bed. The sight of his White made Billy tingle with a rush of dazed energy, made his eyes brim with light.

“Aw, you again,” Curtis Taft moaned, rolling his fleshy head away.

Billy couldn’t believe it: the guy had nearly doubled in size since the murders, his torso so inflated that his arms looked like flippers.

Taft attempted to reach across himself in order to press his call button, but Billy grabbed his wrist.

“Perforated ulcer, huh? Goddamn, from what I hear you can get that from smoking, but you smoking? Shit, you don’t even eat off plastic as far as I remember, right? Everything had to be in stone bowls, incense all over the place, a real my-body-is-my-temple-type individual. So, my theory is,” poking the soft mound of dressing across Taft’s belly, “this right here? I think it’s just Tonya and those kids in there getting to work on you.”

“I don’t know what you’re talking about, Graves, get the fuck out of here.” He reached for the call button again, Billy this time yanking it out of the wall.

“What’s going on over there,” the old guy on the other side of the curtain called out.

Billy stepped over and raised the volume on his ceiling-suspended TV.

“So,” flopping down on the side of Taft’s bed, “you hear what happened to Memori Williams’s twin sister, Shakira?”

“Who’s Memori,” Taft said, then, barking to his roommate: “Yo, call the nurse station.”

“Oh c’mon, you got to remember Shakira, real wallflower type? Well, that wallflower just killed a sixteen-year-old girl last week, stabbed her through the lungs with a bread knife over in Jersey City, can you believe that? She’s in Hudson County CC right now, but she’ll wind up in Clinton Correctional Institute for Child-Eating Psycho Bitches — that is, if they aren’t full up, in which case they’ll put her in Bellehaven, that temporary women’s wing they got out there in Sparta, but the ACLU is trying to get that shut down because of the rapes. We’ll see.”

“I don’t know no Shakira nobody.” Then, attempting to sit up, barking: “I told you call the fucking nurse.”

Billy shoved him back down, Taft grimacing through his close-cropped beard. “Now, Memori was a handful, no doubt, fighting in the cafeteria, cutting school, running away from home, always with a boy, but Shakira, she was no trouble to anybody, fourteen years old and never been kissed, had all the answers in class but too shy to raise her hand. But soon as you killed her sister…”

“I din’t kill nobody, and you know it.”

“… as soon as you killed her sister, all of a sudden she starts banging with the Black Barbies, gets caught with a razor in her mouth going through the metal detectors, threw a chair at a teacher, they finally sent her to a social worker, the lady says to her, ‘Kira, what happened to you?’ You know what she said back? ‘Well, somebody’s got to be my sister.’”

“Graves, you just pissed off because you ain’t police enough to catch a fuckin’ cold. Cops like you, you just grab the first nigger you see and hope for the best. Well, it didn’t work out so well, did it.”

“Anyways, Curtis, that was five years ago and now the kid’s a nineteen-year-old murderer with two babies of her own, and she is as fucked as fucked gets. It would probably have been better if she was in the apartment that morning and you put a bullet in her head too, because this, this is gonna be one slow-motion death she’s facing in there. So, as far as I’m concerned, they are all in there,” poking his sutured gut again, “all those angry females chewing you up from the inside out. And when they finally cut you open to see what killed your ass, you know what they’re going to find? Teeth marks, motherfucker, nothing but teeth marks.”

“You stop that bullshit right now,” Taft said more quietly, his eyes going a little bit wide.

“Tell me you don’t feel them,” Billy pressed. “Look at me and tell me you don’t feel them.”

Gingerly touching his gut as if something might pop out, he looked at Billy full-on, no resistance, after all these years, no resistance, Billy’s heart slamming as he scrambled to seize the moment.

“You were raised in the church, right? I remember interviewing your sister, she said you all were.”

“So,” Taft said carefully.

“So you believe in God?”

“Who don’t believe in God.”

“Know your Bible?”

“Some,” Taft said, still palming himself.

“Remember your Luke? Jesus coming on a man had so many demons inside of him that when He asked for his name… You remember what the man answered?”

“Legion,” Taft said, his eyes unblinking.

“Legion, that’s right. Legion. A whole fuckin’ battalion. And that’s what you’re dealing with too.”

Taft removed his hand from his belly, placed it flat on the bed, then went still.

“Now, you know and I know that the only way to get those angry bitches out of you before they can finish what they started is for you to make a clean breast of it and say what happened that day. Say it right now, say it to me, and they will be gone before you know it.”

Taft kept staring at him, his mouth slowly going as round as a doughnut, just staring and staring until he apparently saw what he wanted to see in Billy’s eyes, that small quivering…

“Graves,” his voice abruptly all the way back, “I got a better chance of cleaning you out in court for harassment than you got of giving me a motherfucking parking ticket. Where’s the goddamn nurse.”

Billy yanked the pillow from under Taft’s head and held it an inch from his face. “You know how easy it would be to punch your ticket right now?”

“But they know you’re here,” he said, shoving the pillow away with surprising strength for a man fresh out of surgery. “So what are you gonna do, huh? This a public building, you gonna kill me? Kill that man in the other bed, too? What are you gonna do. Fuck you.”

“Hi there, everything OK?” The nurse in the doorway sounded cheerful but in charge.

“Nah, he’s just upset over me being like this,” Taft said.

“You’ll be fine,” she said, no one’s fool. “Are you just about done in here, sir? I think your friend—”