Matt Gallagher - Youngblood

“Mad sorry, yo!” Snoop ran out of the shadows wearing a do-rag and a fleece jacket, pulling up his basketball shorts as he made his way over. “They didn’t tell me which gate.”

“Talk to him,” I said, pointing at Haitham. “Figure out what he wants. And say we’re sorry we shot his nephew’s goat.”

As Snoop kneeled down next to a still-rocking Haitham, I walked over to Dominguez, who was leaning against the near side of the Humvee.

“This place never ceases to amaze me,” I said, shaking my head.

Dominguez spat out a wad of dip. “Sir, can I tell you something?”

“Of course.”

“You didn’t hear it from me.”

“ Está bien . What is it?”

He scanned my face in the dark, and lowered his voice. “Staff Sergeant Chambers been pulling in the squad leaders, tweaking the rules of engagement.”

“ ‘Tweaking’?”

“You know what I mean.”

“He can’t do that. Captain Vrettos can’t even do that. Those are set by the battalion commander.”

“Lots of gray in those rules.”

“Mmm.” I paused and hoped it made me sound thoughtful. “Why you telling me this, Sergeant?”

The dip in his mouth slurred his words and puffed out his chipmunk cheeks. He spoke with memory rather than from it. “In Afghanistan, we got hit bad. Forty percent casualty rate. So we got trigger-happy. One day, during a firefight in the mountains, a little girl got killed. Shot through the forehead, brains everywhere. Worst thing I ever seen. Screaming mama, raging papa, a total shitshow. She was still holding a fucking dinosaur coloring book we’d handed out a couple of days before. No one knew who had done it, but we all blamed ourselves. Could’ve been a Taliban round, but we were sure it was us. That day destroyed the unit in a way no enemy could.” He spat out another wad of dip and started cleaning the remnants of snuff from his teeth. “Thought you should know.”

This, I thought, this is why I need to get rid of Chambers.

I cleared my throat. “Maybe it’s time to bring the guys together, do a refresher course on what we can and can’t do. Wouldn’t hurt anyone.”

“Good idea, sir.”

“Thanks. And, well. Thanks.”

Rather than respond, Dominguez nodded to Snoop and Haitham, who were still behind us. I turned around.

“Haitham drank too much whiskey,” Snoop said. “Talking like a crazy man. About ghosts and phantoms, the bad days in Ashuriyah.”

“Before you came down, he was ranting about ali baba,” I said. “And he mentioned karim . What’s a karim ?”

Haitham still had his face between his knees. The terp had to lean in to hear what the drunk said, but a few seconds later he had it.

“Karim is a person.” Snoop’s voice dropped to a strong whisper. “Karim was al-Qaeda. Dead now.”

I felt an anger rising in my chest, red and hot like a fire poker. The looks of confusion on Alphabet’s and Batule’s faces didn’t help. “Just find out why he’s here, Snoop. Tell him if he doesn’t get to the point, we’re going to drop him off in the Shi’a part of town.”

After a minute or so of rapid-fire Arabic, this: “Haitham wishes to go to Camp Bucca. He say jail is safer than Ashuriyah now.”

“Snoop—”

The little man cut me off and pointed north, toward the ancient mosque.

“He say he will tell you everything, he swears by the shrine. But you must promise him Camp Bucca.”

I’d heard enough. I wanted to read the sworn statements in my pocket and get to bed. “Tell him to come back tomorrow, sober. We’ll sit down and talk then.”

I started walking toward the outpost. Then came a low, singing pop, howling with consequence.

I dropped to the ground and waited for more fire. None came. I counted to three with my eyes shut tight. Some combination of angel and instinct induced me toward the Humvee for cover.

“Contact to the front!” Dominguez shouted. He’d dropped to one knee and held his rifle at the low ready. He swung his night vision goggles down from his helmet. “Anyone get eyes on?”

“Negative, Sergeant!” Hog said. He’d somehow made it up the Humvee’s turret to the machine gun.

“Scan the rooftops and windows across the road, Hog — fucking sniper.”

“Roger, Sergeant.”

“Tool, report.”

“Got nothing.” He was somewhere in front of the vehicle, in the vicinity of the gate.

I was racking my brain for what the manuals said the platoon leader needed to do in situations like this. I drew a blank. “Snoop?” I asked into the air. “You okay?”

“Yeah, LT,” he said from somewhere on the other side of the vehicle. “Haitham, too — he’s with me.”

That was when Alphabet started gurgling. He sounded like a broken sprinkler back home. But it wasn’t anything that technical or complex. Just blood spilling out of a throat.

Dominguez shined a white light onto Alphabet. He’d been shot three feet in front of me and his legs were bucking, one at a time. Left, right. Left, right. Left, right.

“CP!” I shouted into my walkie-talkie. “This is Hotspur Six. Casualty at the front gate, a friendly! Request medevac immediately!”

The voice that came back was incredulous. “A casualty?”

“Yes, did I fucking stutter?”

A blur of barking orders rushed past me.

“Tool. Third platoon is on their way down. Take point and clear the buildings across the road. Fire at anything that fucking moves.”

“Roger, Sergeant.”

It was Chambers. He slung his rifle and grabbed Alphabet by a body armor strap, dragging him toward the blast walls.

“Hog, stay up there and provide cover. Fire at anything that fucking moves.”

“Roger, Sergeant!”

“Dominguez. You and the terp help me with this. Sir, get a medic down here. Lieutenant Porter, that means you.”

I still held the walkie-talkie in my hand, but my mind was stew, so it took me a second to process what I needed to do. Then I did it.

Chambers got Alphabet’s body behind the barriers before anyone could catch up to them. A group of twenty hustling bodies and jangling gear emerged from the outpost. Third platoon. They followed Batule, bounding and covering into the black night. The mechanical swerving of Hog in the turret sounded like a garbage truck eating trash, and it reminded me that there was still a sniper out there. I ran behind the blast walls to check on my soldier.

Doc Cork was there. He’d managed to stop the bleeding with some gauze pads and adhesive tape. Both Snoop and Dominguez were on their knees, holding Alphabet’s shoulders with one hand and his palms with the other. I asked Doc Cork if I could help, but he shook me off and stuck an IV into Alphabet’s arm. I wasn’t sure what to do with my hands, so I leaned down and stroked Alphabet’s left calf.

You joined to be a part of something, I thought. I joined to believe in something. Not that different. Not the same, but not that different. I wish I’d told you that.

Then I told him that.

His body armor had been stripped and his breathing was low and labored and his legs weren’t bucking anymore. Chambers ran up holding a litter, and he and Dominguez prepped Alphabet for movement to the landing zone while Doc Cork held the IV bag high.

I grabbed a litter handle to help carry it. It was lighter than I’d expected. The bird had a hard time landing in the field behind the outpost; it was whipping up too much dust. Chambers produced a pair of ChemLights from a cargo pocket and guided the pilot down. After the helicopter landed, collected Alphabet, and took off for Camp Independence, Chambers remained in the field. I walked over to him, kicked-up dust falling down on us in a dry rain. He was in his undershirt, tapping his arm tattoos with the ChemLights as if he wanted to inject neon into his bloodstream. The black skulls on his arm throbbed in the dark, little halos of fluorescent green.