Megan Bergman: Almost Famous Women: Stories

Joe stood up and leered at Phillip, practically spitting across the table. “They can hate me all they want; they need me. Why don’t you get back on that goddamned canoe you came in on? Yale degree my ass. You’re a deserter. Don’t think I don’t know it.”

“You don’t know anything about me,” Phillip shot back, storming out of the dining room. Georgie could hear him shouting as he marched away in the still air. “Blessed is the one who does not walk in step with the wicked!”

“I think we should take her to Nassau,” Georgie said, turning to Joe.

“What do you know?” Marlene snapped.

“It’s the right thing to do.”

“A little rum will make us all feel better,” Joe said, forcing a smile. “Hannah?”

“It doesn’t make me feel better at all,” Georgie said quietly. She had been determined to hold her own tonight, to look Marlene in the eye, to prove to her that she was a worthy partner for Joe. But she quickly sensed a loss of control, of confidence.

“It’s all about you, is it?” Marlene asked. “You’re lucky to be here, darling, you know that?”

“We need to get the hell out of this room,” Joe announced, knocking over her chair as she stood up.

Joe gathered her guests in the living room, which was full of plush sofas and polished tables covered in crystal ashtrays. Mounted swordfish and a cheetah skin decorated the whitewashed walls.

Joe put on a Les Brown record and opened a cigar box. She clamped down on a cigar and carried around a decanter of scotch, topping off her guests’ drinks.

“No restraint,” she said. “Drink as much as you want. It’s early.”

Georgie leaned against a window, gulped down her drink, and stared out at the black sea. Joe pulled her away and into a corner.

“Are you having a good enough time?” she asked. “Are you angry?”

“What do you think?” Georgie said.

“You’re drunk,” Joe said.

“What?” Georgie asked, voice falsely sweet. “I’m the only one who’s not allowed to have a big night?”

“It’s just unusual for you,” Joe said.

“We should take the boat to Nassau,” Georgie said.

“You’re slurring,” Joe said. “And besides, I’ve said no. If I go now, I’ll lose my authority.”

“You might lose it anyway.”

Joe was silent and turned to refresh her drink, pausing to talk with the financiers. Georgie stayed at the window. She could hear the islanders’ voices outside. She couldn’t understand what they were saying, but they were loud and animated. Hannah, who was making the rounds with a box of cigars, lingered by the window, a worried expression on her face.

Would the native islanders riot? Maybe. But what weighed most heavily on Georgie was the sense of being complicit in Celia’s suffering.

Marlene approached, locking eyes with her. She topped off Georgie’s glass and lit another cigarette.

“Got ugly in there, didn’t it?” she said, exhaling.

Georgie nodded.

“Bet you don’t see that every day in the mermaid tank,” Marlene said. “But Joe can handle it. Even if you can’t. Those of us that have been to the war—”

Georgie held up a hand, stopping Marlene. She felt claustrophobic, drunk. She knew she wasn’t thinking clearly. Her body was warm from the rum and wine and she felt anxious, like she needed to move.

“Tell Joe I’m off for a walk. To think about things.”

“Stay out awhile,” Marlene said, calling after her.

Georgie left the house through the kitchen and walked away from the group of islanders who had clustered near the dock. She wanted to tell them that they were right, that they should take the boat, but she was too ashamed to look them in the eyes, too afraid to speak against Joe. She wanted to talk to Phillip, so she followed the path of crushed oysters and sand north toward the simple silhouette of the small stone church.

Georgie recalled the hymn her mother liked—“O God, Our Help in Ages Past,” and couldn’t keep herself from singing. Her tongue felt too big for her mouth, but still the words filled her with unexpected serenity. She took another drink from the crystal tumbler she’d carried from the house and sang the first verse again, and then again, until she could feel her mother’s nails on her back, calming her, loving her to sleep.

She found Phillip passed out on a wooden bench in front of the church.

“Phillip,” she said, gently rocking him with her hands. He was shirtless and his skin was warm. A single silver cross Joe had given him hung around his neck.

“Phillip,” she said. He stirred but didn’t open his eyes. She pinched the skin above his hip bone.

“What?” he said, opening his eyes into slits.

“Take the boat. Just take it.”

“I’m in no shape to drive a boat.”

“You have to. Someone has to.”

“I like you, Georgie,” Phillip said. “But you need to leave me the hell alone now.” He waved her off with one hand, the other tucked underneath his head.

“But you said—”

“I give up. You should too.” He rolled away from her, turning his face toward the back of the bench.

She took another sip of her drink while waiting for him to roll back over. When he didn’t she walked to the place where the sand broke off into high cliffs, and began to pace the rim of the island, staring at the water below.

Looking down at the waves from the cliffs, she remembered Florida. She remembered sipping on the air hose and drinking Coca-Cola while tourists watched her through thick glass at the aquarium show. Sometimes Georgie had to remind herself that she could not, in fact, breathe underwater.

“Whatever you do,” the aquarium owner had said, “be pretty.”

And so the girls always pointed their toes and ignored the charley horses in their calves, or the way their eyes began to sting in the salt water. Georgie recalled the feeling of her hands on the arch of another swimmer’s back as they performed an underwater adagio, the fatigue in her body after the back-to-back Fourth of July shows. She remembered a time when she felt good about herself.

She thought of Joe, and her arm around Marlene’s back. She thought of the stone house, and for a minute, she wanted to leave Whale Cay and return home. But home would never be the same.

In a few days the yacht would pull away and Joe would wake her up with coffee in bed. Hannah would make her eggs, runny and heaped on a slice of white toast with fruit on the side. She would take her morning swims and read a book underneath the shade of a palm. And would that be enough?

They had a rock in the yard back home. Her father used to lift the copperheads out of the garden shed with his hoe and slice them open with the metal edge, their poisonous bodies writhing without heads for a moment on top of the rock. The spring ritual had horrified and intrigued Georgie, and it was what she pictured now, standing above the sea, swaying, the feeling of rocks underneath her feet.

But she might never see that rock again, she thought.

It was dark and she couldn’t see well. There was shouting in the distance. She felt bewildered, restless.

She set down her glass and took off her sandals. She would feel better in the water, stronger.

With casual elegance, she brought her hands in front of her body and over her head and dove off the cliff. As she approached the water, falling beautifully, toes pointed, she wondered if she’d gotten mixed up and picked the wrong place to dive.

She was falling into the tank again, the brackish water in her eyes, but no one was watching.

She was cherry pie.

She was a ticker tape parade.

Her hands hit the water first. The water rushed over her ears, deafening her. Her limbs went numb, adrenaline moving through her until she was upright again, gulping air.