Adrienne Celt - The Daughters

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In this virtuosic debut, a world-class soprano seeks to reclaim her voice from the curse that winds through her family tree.
Since the difficult birth of her daughter, which collided tragically with the death of her beloved grandmother, renowned opera sensation Lulu can't bring herself to sing a note. Haunted by a curse that traces back through the women in her family, she fears that the loss of her remarkable talent and the birth of her daughter are somehow inexplicably connected. As Lulu tentatively embraces motherhood, she sifts through the stories she's inherited about her elusive, jazz-singer mother and the nearly mythic matriarch, her great-grandmother Greta. Each tale is steeped in the family's folkloric Polish tradition and haunted by the rusalka-a spirit that inspired Dvorak's classic opera.
Merging elements from
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reveals through four generations the sensuous but precise physicality of both music and motherhood, and-most mysterious and seductive of all-the resonant ancestral lore that binds each mother to the one who came before.

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The only risk to this tactic was that sometimes I would fall asleep, and then my dreams might take me anywhere.

I remember the last time I ever visited the ghost room, how I pinched my eyes shut and concentrated on the sound of my own breathing because it blocked out all other distractions — a creak in the corner or a suspicious lowing of conversation from the floor below. As with any dream, I can’t recall the moment that it began, just that there was a woman roaming in a forest with her skirt brushing against her knees. Daylight leaked through the nearly bare tree limbs, but it was a bleached light, bone-white and arctic. When the woman — for I was the woman, though then again I wasn’t — looked up at the sky, she could see a cold bulb dangling there as if from a wire.

Something was following her. Maybe more than one something. The woman picked up her pace but her path was obscured; thorns pricked her shins and left thin scratches on her arms that turned into messages she couldn’t read. Lying on the floor of the room full of wedding dresses, I felt the rough carpet rub against my cheek and I tossed in my sleep. The woman felt a tug on the hem of her skirt, but when she turned around there was no one behind her. Just bushes and trees.

Dark clouds rolled over.

They rolled back.

I felt something pulling me forward, away, but the woman either couldn’t hear me or wouldn’t listen. She paused to look around herself, and I thought, No. Go faster. My heart broke into a run. It was stuck inside the woman’s body, though, and she was curious about the patterns in the tree bark that appeared and disappeared, changed colors. Changed shapes.

Greta-ah-ah-ah.”

We heard the voice, and her blood froze for both of us. There was another sharp tug on her skirt. A sudden wind scattered a pile of leaves and the woman jumped. Somewhere far away my body was tossing and turning, itching to wake up. But around us issued the soft crunch of footsteps; out of the corner of my eye — or was it hers? — I saw shadows ducking in and out of view.

Greta-ah-ah-ah .”

Closer, the voice splintered into many voices, a hollow harmony that encroached from all sides. Hairs stood up on the back of the woman’s neck, tiny follicles prickled on her cheeks. A third tug came, the waist of her skirt pulling away from the skin and snapping back into place. This time when the woman looked down, she saw a beautiful little girl with thick dark hair who took a step backward when she realized that she’d been spotted. Her hands were folded demurely behind her back.

A circle of little girls surrounded the dream woman. And though some of them were larger and some were smaller, they were clearly identical in design — they would grow into the same woman. If they were given the chance to grow.

“We’re here so you can eat us.”

“Eat us.”

“Eat our hearts.”

The dream woman spun around and I spun somehow in the other direction so we saw them in stereo, their mouths moving in tandem. Each set of small brown eyes was serene. The voice of the dream woman trembled.

“I don’t understand. I don’t want to eat your hearts. I was just out walking. ” She trailed off as she realized that she didn’t remember how she got there or why she began strolling through the woods in the first place. I shifted around on the floor of the wedding dress room, feeling like the driver of a runaway car.

“Oh,” said the little girls. “ Oh. Oh. Oh. ” They stepped forward, their knees knocking together. “Well, then.” The sound echoed: well well well . “We will have to eat your heart instead.” They stepped forward and grabbed the hem of the woman’s skirt as though they were her children trying to keep from getting lost.

The first girl, the tallest, reached up and put a hand on the woman’s arm.

“Don’t worry.” She stroked the woman’s arm lovingly. “Everything will be better when we’re done.”

I awoke screaming beneath a row of white dresses with my baba Ada shaking my elbow. Her skin was pale paper, crumpled slightly and pulled back tight by the set of her mouth. For a moment I couldn’t stop my screams — the dresses brushed back and forth around me like branches and the plastic wrappings clung to my skin. Ada grabbed my shoulders and pulled me out into the center of the room, dragging a couple of wedding gowns off their hangers behind me. Standing on my own two feet, I was able to bring the room into focus. I took a few gulping breaths, feeling the hash marks I’d scratched into my throat by shrieking.

“What is it?” Ada kept hold of my shoulders and searched my face as if she would be able to see through it. On the word it, she gave me the tiniest shake, so slight I’m not sure she was aware of doing so. “What’s the matter?”

A whispering drew my attention to the doorway. There, several seamstresses leaned their heads together, sneaking occasional peeks in my direction. A sick feeling followed: they were talking about me, their eyes full of pity. I tried to straighten my spine. What I wanted more than anything was to burrow into my babenka ’s arms, feel her cradle and soothe me. But the women were watching. I tried to imagine what they’d say if I told them what I’d dreamed — they’d think I was crazy.

And what would Ada think? It wasn’t so much the disruption that made me feel guilty as the fact that my dream had turned Greta somehow sinister. It populated her landscape with threats, which was the opposite of what Ada wanted. My babenka didn’t always tell me the truth. But when she chose not to, it was because she wanted to let me believe something better. Or because she needed to believe something better. She could give that to me, and I could give it to her, too.

“Nothing,” I said. “I’m okay. I fell asleep.”

Ada looked at me with a terrible little wrinkle in her forehead. But then she straightened up and turned towards the doorway with a shrug that scattered the women who’d gathered there. When they’d gone, Ada picked up one of the wedding dresses that had fallen to the floor in the confusion — it draped heavily over her elbow like a lady in a pose of supplication, arms wafting hopelessly down.

“I’m going to have to press this again.” She spoke quietly, inspecting the few almost imperceptible new lines in the fabric. “Maybe you could go sit in the main room with the girls? I think you left a book with Basia.”

I nodded tightly and walked down the hall, trying to keep my footsteps quiet. Trying to be good. I’d bitten my tongue thrashing around inside the nightmare, and for the rest of the day my mouth tasted like blood. I found it sitting on my teeth at the gum line and felt myself swallowing it, my stomach filling up with iron.

I try to walk slowly and keep myself calm as I move away from the graveyard, but the weather won’t let me. The weather, and the tight fist of my heart. There are too many people on the street, all of them guarding their faces from the wind but still, somehow, seeming to watch me. When I see a bookstore I duck inside, because it looks empty. In the heat of the store, cold fingers of snow melt off my hair and drip down my neck, and I watch the sleet outside, leaning with one hand on a stack of old books with cloth covers. They smell like little museums.

I turn away from the window-paned door and start to gather myself. Or at least I try. What actually happens is that the baby sneezes, and an older man behind the counter looks up and says, “God bless you.”

I begin to cry.

“Hey now,” says the man. He’s half hidden behind piles of merchandise, the corners of his mouth turned down in a frown. “No need for that.”

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