Nadia Hashimi - The Pearl that Broke Its Shell

“Of course I did! What kind of question is that? He’s a wise man — this I could see right away. But they’ll be leaving at first light and I think the girl should be presented tonight, over dinner, so that everyone can see what a gift we have made to the king! We will make our mark while Hafizullah makes his. Bring the girl! I do not want to sit here and chatter with you now. I want to get back before dinner.”

“The girl is ready,” Marjan said, and went to bring her. She found Shekiba sitting against the cold wall, her legs tucked under her. “Get up, Shekiba. It’s time.”

She looked at Marjan blankly. After a moment, she rose, ignoring the pain shooting through her ribs. Marjan led her by the elbow to the living room. She stopped short in the hallway.

“Shekiba, listen to me. You are a girl without mother or father, without brothers or uncles to look after you. Obey the word of God and let Him look after you. Bring your head out of the sky and understand your place in this world.”

“I have no place in this world, Khanum Marjan.”

Marjan felt a chill run through her spine. Shekiba’s words were cold, resolute. She wondered if this half-crazed girl had finally gone completely mad. Zarmina’s warnings echoed in her mind and she decided to keep her mouth shut. If Shekiba was going into a frenzy, she didn’t want to invite her wrath.

Azizullah was standing at the door to the courtyard, putting a green and blue vest on over his tunic. His face and voice were stern.

“If this girl has any sense in her at all, she will give me no trouble tonight. And if she dares to walk with even the slightest limp, I’ll take both her legs off.”

The warning was issued. Marjan bit her lip and handed Shekiba her burqa . Shekiba slipped it over her head and followed behind her master with a resigned step.

Every footstep jolted her bruises and welts. Shekiba kept pace, though, too hurt to risk more punishment. Within twenty minutes, they approached a home with horses and armed soldiers outside. The horses were tall and muscular; their tails flicked side to side casually. But what caught Shekiba’s eye was what stood behind them. For the first time in her life, Shekiba saw a carriage. Four large wheels, a cushioned seat and handsome carvings on the sides.

The king, she realized.

They entered the front gate and walked into a courtyard nearly twice the size of Azizullah’s. Shekiba could not help but look around. There were benches and several bushes with striking purple flowers. From the living room came the sound of men laughing loudly.

She walked around to the back of the house to enter into the kitchen area.

“Stay outside, in the back. Behave yourself or I’ll let the soldiers straighten you out.”

Azizullah went in through the living room door and rejoined the gathering. Shekiba closed her eyes and tried to eavesdrop on their conversation. The sky grew dim before she heard something that actually pertained to her.

“We will be leaving in the morning to head back to Kabul. The road ahead of us is long but we hope to reach home by nightfall.”

“Amir- sahib, you and your esteemed generals have honored us with your visit to our humble village. We wish for many more visits in the future.”

“With the roads project, travel will become easier. We anticipate that your village will be more involved in the agriculture projects that have begun. Amir- sahib has a new team of engineers that are looking at our current situation.”

“Anything that we can do here to assist you, we are at your service. I was born and raised in this village, as was my dear brother, Azizullah. Our roots here are respected by the village and we can serve as your delegates for anything you may need.”

“You have made that clear, Hafizullah- sahib . Your sentiments are appreciated.” The voice was gruff and Shekiba detected a slight exasperation in it.

“I hope so, General- sahib . And I hope that you will accept my brother’s gift to the amir-sahib . It is a small token.”

“Yes, he mentioned this earlier. The servant will ride with our entourage in the morning to be taken to the palace.”

“Wonderful. Please, General- sahib, your journey tomorrow is long and you will need your strength. Have some more sweets…”

Hafizullah’s wife came to the courtyard and found Shekiba slumped across a bench. She was a petite woman, her face lined with worry and fatigue. By the looks of her, she had done most of the preparation for the king’s visit. She clucked her tongue in dismay.

“Merciful Allah. Follow me, girl. I will show you where you can sleep until you leave in the morning.”

Shekiba slid to the floor in the corner of a dark room. She could see two small figures curled up and breathing softly. These were Hafizullah’s daughters, but Shekiba never did meet them. In the early hours of morning, the mistress of the house came to wake her. Shekiba bolted upright when she felt a hand on her shoulder.

“Wake up. The men are leaving.”

Shekiba focused. She heard the sounds of horses, men chattering outside the house.

She rose, made sure her Qur’an was tucked into her dress and walked outside to be taken to her new home.

There was barely enough room in our small home for Abdul Khaliq’s family. They wanted to hold all three nikkahs at the same time and brought with them Abdul Khaliq’s mother, a gray-haired woman with downturned lips and narrowed eyes. She needed a walking stick but refused to use one, preferring to lean on her daughter-in-law’s forearm instead. They also brought Haji- sahib, a mullah . Khala Shaima scoffed at the mention of his name.

“Haji- sahib ? If he’s Haji, then I’m a pari !” said Khala Shaima, whom no one would describe as an angel from heaven. The title haji was given to anyone who had made the religious pilgrimage to Mecca, God’s house. Haji- sahib, Khala Shaima reported, had dubbed himself with the title after paying a visit to a shrine north of our town. But as a dear friend of Abdul Khaliq, no one contested his credentials. The two men chatted amicably outside.

Shahla kept her head down and pleaded with my crying mother not to give her away. Madar- jan ’s body shook, her voice trapped in her clenched throat. Shahla was more than a daughter to her. She was Madar- jan ’s best friend. They shared the housework, the child care and their every thought.

Parwin was her special girl. Part of Madar- jan had held on to Khala Shaima’s prediction that no one would want Parwin as a wife. Sometimes it comforted her that she would have her singing, drawing daughter with her always.

And me. I was Madar- jan ’s helper. Her spunky, troublemaking bacha posh . I know she wondered if she had made the right decision. If I were a little wiser, I would have told her it had been the best thing for me. I would have told her that I wished I could have stayed a bacha posh forever.

The family was here to claim their three sister brides. We listened to hear what Khala Shaima would say.

Haji- sahib started with a prayer. Even Madar- jan cupped her hands and bowed her head to join in. I was pretty sure everyone was praying for different things. I wondered how Allah would sort it all out.

“Let us begin with a dua, a prayer. Bismillah al-rahman al-raheem …”

The room echoed behind him. Haji- sahib, the mullah, went on to recite a sura from the Qur’an.

“ Yaa Musabbibal Asaabi. ”