Мариам Петросян - The Gray House

“Horror and shame, isn't it?” he whispered in my ear.

“Wake up,” I pleaded. “Fight, or he’ll break you.”

“I guess you're right,” he said. “I seem to be a bit out of practice lately.”

While we were thus conversing Black decided to finish the job. He took a step toward Blind and aimed a swing at him so hard that, had it landed, we'd have had to haul Blind down to the first and put him next to Crab. Blind ducked and appeared to lightly touch Black in return. Black gasped and fought for breath for at least a minute, and after that it was all over. I didn't even have to look to know how it would end.

I see ...

Blind tiptoeing away from Black, hunched, eyes half-closed, lips fixed in a grin. He's not circling, he's not stepping. It's more of a dance. A soft, silent dance of Death. There is an exceedingly beautiful and fascinating quality about it, which I've observed dozens of times and never could figure out where it came from. It's that leap into a different world, a world without pain, without blindness, where he stretches time, making each second last an eternity, where everything is just a game, even though it's the kind of game where he could flay someone alive or turn him inside out with a flick of a finger. I know that for a fact even though I've never seen him actually do it. I feel the scent of madness on him in those moments, too pronounced not to scare me half to death. In that strange world of his he turns into something that is not human, something that creeps closer, slinks away, flies on rustling wings, spits poison, seeps through the floor. And it laughs. It's the only game Blind knows how to play with someone else. Black has no hope of catching him. Black has been left on this side. His time is too slow.

I see ...

Black crumpling. Falling down on his back, like a big doll on a string. Pale One materializes next to him and yanks the string, jerking him upright, then dropping him, again and again. He's playing. Having fun. Except it's too creepy to be funny. He doesn't even seem to touch Black, and at the same time smears him across the floor, from the door to the window. Everything is covered in Black. In his teeth, in his skin. Laughter glints from under Blind's hair. Humpback and I jump into action simultaneously, he off the bed, I off my perch above it. The rest of our guys were seemingly waiting for the signal and now join us. While we're busy scraping Black and Blind off each other, Tabaqui notices the opened cabinets and the beer puddles on the floor.

“What the? I count to three, then I start shooting!” he screams, frantically searching for something in the pillow mound. The guests bolt for the door, tripping over each other, and I almost expect Tabaqui to snatch a machine gun from under the covers and make mincemeat out of a couple of straggler Logs, but by the time he emerges from there, with only a harmonica in his hands, there is no one left in the room but us. He grumbles and stuffs the harmonica back, postponing the dark revenge until a more convenient time.

I sit down on the floor. Someone pushes Blind in my direction. He crawls over, shaking and coughing, buries his face in my shoulder, and freezes. His sweater stinks of a garbage dump, with whiffs of a sewer. I am immovable, like a statue. Alexander and Ginger artfully decorate Black's body with surgical tape. Lary shuffles around the room, scraping a broom across the floor. It's quiet. Dead quiet, if you don't count Jackal's fevered muttering. Mona decides for some reason that Sphinx is the only safe place left in the room and jumps on my knees. Saunters back and forth, twice, brushing my shirt with her tail, kneads me gently with her paws, and lies down. I still haven't moved. Smoker, his hands shaking, puffs on a cigarette over my ear. My shoulder is propping up Blind, my knees are a cat's bedroom. Now I only need Nanette to land on my head, and it's a perfect shot for Blume : “Sphinx at rest.”

Alexander and Ginger finish tending to Black and look at Blind uncertainly. Tabaqui crawls closer and also gawks.

“Horrible,” he whispers. “Look at him. Vampire, pure and simple.”

I look out of the corner of my eye. Blind is asleep, his face calm and peaceful. He never has a face like that when he's awake.

Lary drops the broom and stares at Blind in shock.

“He's right, you know. Why would he be so blissful all of a sudden? He shouldn't be blissful. And he shouldn't be sleeping. I don't like this.”

Tabaqui revels in it.

“That's exactly how they are, Lary my friend. Lying in their caskets, happy and rose cheeked, grinning from ear to ear. That's how you tell their ilk. A stake through the heart!”

From the corner of the room where Black is located suddenly comes a sound, half moan and half roar. Noble is fussing over the swollen, eyeless head with alcohol pads, while Nanette peeks at his hands from behind the pillow.

“A stake,” Tabaqui keeps muttering. “This, you know, sharpened thing ...”

Black groans again and pushes away Noble's hand.

“We should drive one through your tongue,” Noble snaps. “Can't you give it a rest, Tabaqui? Aren't you tired at all?”

“Right. Where was I? I seem to have lost the thrust of the narrative ...”

“Look,” Ginger cries all of a sudden, pointing at the window. “There, look!”

Humpback and Alexander run to the window. We turn around and look there too. Into the blue-black sky where a feeble sliver of the morning is trying to part the darkness.

“Morning!” Lary exclaims majestically, waving the broom. “The sun!”

There is, of course, no sign of the sun. Lary straightens up and salutes with the broom in the direction of the window. Smoker and I receive a shower of slowly falling gray clumps of dust mixed with cigarette butts.

And that was how that disgusting night ended. Not at the exact moment when we noticed the first glimpse of the coming morning, of course. And not even when the morning finally came. I mean, we realized that what surrounded us wasn't the night anymore, but it was hardly possible to call that gray substance “morning.” A transition between one night and the next, that would be more accurate. Especially considering that none of us managed to either go to sleep or wake up properly. I don't even remember if we had any breakfast that day. I don't remember much at all, really.

Myself, at certain moments. Blind with the guitar next to me, and it's dusk in the room again, must have been evening. Rows of empty bottles on the nightstand, even though I can't recall anyone drinking. Lary's angry yelp, as he lifts a bottle: “So that's what they've been doing here, while we worry about them and stock up on provisions there.” By “there” he most likely meant the canteen, but was that lunch or breakfast? And “they” must have included me as well, because I don't remember leaving the room or eating anything, which means I was among the drinkers.

Noble, pulling the blanket over sleeping Ginger. Black, in a cloud of smoke on his bed. Not much of him visible, just one eye and the cigarette, everything else covered by the crisscrossing white stripes of tape. Blind nodding to his own song. He's grayish blue, the color of faded jeans. This must be how Lazarus looked right after having been told to rise up and walk. Still in the remains of the white sweater, reeking of wine and alcohol pads. Hunched over the guitar, twanging the strings, mumbling indistinctly. Something about a forest, empty paths, and the streams made bitter by the grass growing along them.

Ginger, sleeping with her hands tucked between her knees, curled up in the pillows. Hair like the scarlet feathers of a woodpecker shot through the heart, and everything else mundane and commonplace in comparison. Her lying there also feels routine, like something that's always been thus, no one gives her a second look except for one person, who's wrapping her in the blanket, like a miser hiding his treasure from prying eyes.