Дмитрий Бавильский - Несовременные записки. Том 3

'Let's go there.'

Now they had to surmount an almost vertical ascent. Having clasped the boy's hand tight the man began to scramble up the slope, with his free hand clinging to stones and stems of trees and tall grass. Soon they stood on a path which stretched along between the brink of the ravine and a dense wall of young pine trees. The boy went to the right; having covered about thirty yards he stopped and looked back at the man who was after him.

The place where the boy lingered occurred to be a tiny glade of regular octangular form. Pines surrounding it restrained gusts of cold wind and filled the space with calming murmur, and their spreading crowns formed a kind of an almost impenetrable vault.

'Daddy, look what I've found!' the boy shouted not taking his eyes off the man who was approaching him.

'"Well, what have you found?' the man asked with a smile on his face.

"Daddy, that'll be our castle and we shall live here,' the boy declared standing in the middle of the glade. 'You know, Daddy, I've been looking for a place like this for such a long time. I say, that'll ekzactly be our castle.'

'But why castle?' asked the man keeping a smile, 'Can't it be just a log cabin?'

'No, this is a castle,' his son answered. 'There's a forest all around, don't you see?'

'D'you mean that log cabins don't occur in forests?'

'Yes, they do, but castles do too And this one — look, it stands just by the edge of a precipice, like a real castle.

…But it's shaky,' he added after a pause. 'Let's strengthen it, Dad. Go and bring a lot of stones, please.'

His face was radiant with a happy smile. Making two steps the man squatted down and took the boy's hands into his — they were ice-cold.

'You're all frozen, sonny,' he said.

'Certainly, I am,' the boy agreed. 'But if we build firm walls of hard stones, it'll be warm indoors, yes?'

'And where have you seen stones?'

'Why — this one, for instance,' said the boy and picked up a dead pine branch from the ground. 'Look, Daddy. There's a lot of them, don't you see? Help me gather them.'

They went in opposite directions and soon returned each with an armful of dry wood. After that they began to arrange them lying on the ground in some intricate way which was to imply a precise and fastidious masonry.

'That's O.K.' the boy said to his father when they finished to fix up this two-dimensional structure on the ground. 'We shall always live here in our castle together with you, Daddy.'

The man felt his heart wrought at these words — partly because of the sheer impossibility of his son's fantasy coming true, and partly because of the very tone of this phrase. There wasn't any note of superiority in the boy's voice when he was praising the man — being entirely carried away by his game, he was rejoicing at the results of their work and just wanted his father to know about it.

'Kittie,' the man said very softly, 'Do you want to fly?'

The boy tossed his head to his father's voice and began to skip with joy stretching his arms forth to meet the father's.

'Yes, Daddy! Of course, Daddy! Fly me, fly me!'

The father took his son under his arms and threw him up. The boy screamed with delight. Seven times he soared up to the height of good ten feet touching pine boughs with his head, and seven times fell down into his father's hands.

'Are you tired, Daddy?' he asked when the man put him down on the ground breathing heavily.

'Yes, a little bit. You're a big fellow. But never mind. Now I'll take a rest and then'll toss you again.'

'You are very good, Daddy,' the boy said and sighed suddenly. 'Let's go home now. I'm cold already,' he responded his father's inquiring glance. We shall come here tomorrow, right? I don't want to go away from here, but I am so cold.'

'Never mind, sonny,' the father said. 'At home we've got a castle too.'

'I didn't see any,' the boy answered.

'It's just in an album, kittie. And we shall assemble it of cardboard.'

They went home, hand in hand again, warming each other and somehow equalizing their so different ages: clasping his father's palm the boy felt as if he was almost an adult man, "a traveller", whereas the man, with the child's hand in his, recalled that remote time when he too was five or so and was walking here together with his father who had died three months before the boy's birth. You were very good Dad, he said in his mind to the man who was lying now in the grave two miles away from here, and sighed — just like his son did some minutes ago after having said, You are very good, Daddy. What a bitch the fate is, the man thought, to deprive both of us of our fathers — me at the age of twenty-six, and him at only five. And no quarter at all.

The cardboard castle was in the album indeed where its coloured components were precisely contoured — and one had only to cut out its parts with scissors and rig them up. They began to do it at once. The boy worked diligently, just like out-of-doors recently, but, unlike in the forest, it was the man who supervised the process now. They cut bright-red serrated walls and towers with arrow-loops, a black drawbridge on paper chains, a dark-blue building of the castle itself and, at last, figures of armoured horsemen and multicoloured unmounted spear-carriers, sword-carriers and archers. After that the boy produced a box with tin soldiers in it from under a closet and undertook their attack on the castle which continued for good thirty minutes. It goes without saying that the defenders of the castle were fighting valiantly and at the end of battle smote the foe hip and thigh.

'It's a good castle,' the boy said wiping his brow, 'but it's not real.'

'Where's real, then?' his father asked. 'In the forest?'

'Yes, there… there it's real,' answered the boy gravely.

You are right, kiddy, the man said in his mind again: of course, this paper fort could never have become a citadel for us; but the glade on the ravine brink could have been the very place for our stronghold or for just a dwelling — could have been but for… too many buts, though, and the most essential but is your mummy who had given birth to you, similarly with the way another mummy had given the same good old thing to your favourite John Bonham. And still you are right, kiddy — the place you've chosen is real, indeed.

'Do you want to hear a story about one knight?' he asked his son.

'What night?'

'Not night, but knight — an armoured horseman, clear?'

'Oh, yes!' laughed the boy happily as he had understood the verbal trick. 'Such a funny thing, Daddy! A night and a knight, I mean.'

They sat on a sofa side by side, the proud valorous defenders of the cardboard castle and the slain tin soldiers all around them on the floor, and the man began his story about the knight, his deeds, his dearly beloved woman, and her death and resurrection. He stopped his narration soon, for his little one, fatigued by the walk in cold weather and the exerted battle for the paper citadel, fell asleep leaning on his father's side.

Next time they appeared on the left bank in a month. It was a hot July afternoon, and the old burg in the hollow was hazed with the bluish mass of immobile scorched air. They were walking along the same path, apparently going to their temporarily forsaken but not forgotten castle. Again, like a month ago, they plunged down to the bottom of the ravine, skipped over the almost dried brook and climbed the opposite brink of the gully. The boy remembered the way perfectly well, and even luxuriant growth of green grass didn't prevent him to define the place without any doubt.

'It's O.K., Daddy,' he said having examined the glade and found their masonry intact. 'Now let's play king, knight and enemies.'

The man was a king, the boy was a knight, and the pines around were their enemies. There were a lot of them — but the knight chopped off their heads with his magic sword and released the king who had been captured by the adversaries and had been waiting for death in prison. And they stood together after the fight which had been hard and victorious, hand in hand again — the tiny rescuer and the burly grateful rescuee: the knight and his king, without a queen. She was not remembered then, anyhow.