As he stepped close enough to shake my hand, I caught the scents of lavender and amber spice. "Miss Varner. Welcome to our worship facility. I hope your appointment with Pastor Gottler went well?" Pausing, he sent a quizzical smile to Gottler. "Varner… didn't we have a secretary…?"
"Yes, her sister, Tara, helped us out from time to time."
"I hope she's well," Cardiff told me. "Please give her my regards."
I nodded uncertainly.
Cardiff held my gaze for a moment, seeming to read my thoughts. "We'll pray for her," he murmured. With a graceful hand, he gestured to the plaque over his doors. "My favorite verse, from my favorite of the disciples. It's true, you know. Nothing is impossible in the Lord."
"Why is Luke your favorite?" I asked.
"Among other reasons, Luke is the only disciple who relates the parables of the Good Samaritan and the prodigal son." Cardiff smiled at me. "And he's a strong supporter of women's roles in the life of Christ. Why don't you come to one of our services, Miss Varner? And bring your friend Jack with you."
As Jack and I went outside, I went over the meeting in my mind, I rubbed my temples, feeling as if rubber bands had been wrapped tight around my skull.
Jack opened the SUV door for me and went to the other side. We both stood with the doors open, letting the heat pour out before we got into the vehicle.
"I can't stand Mark Gottler," I said.
"Really? I couldn't tell."
"While he was talking, I was overwhelmed by the realization that here is this hypocritical asshole who took advantage of my sister, and I'd like to… well, I don't know, shoot him or something… but instead there we were, negotiating."
"I know. But he's stepping up to the plate. Let's give him points for that."
"He's only doing it because we're forcing him to." I frowned. "You're not on his side, are you?"
"Ella, I just spent the last hour and fifteen minutes with my boot up his ass. No, I'm not on his side. All I'm saying is, the situation isn't all his fault. Okay, we can get in now." Jack turned on the car. The air-conditioning huffed ineffectually in the scorching heat.
I buckled my seat belt. "My sister is in a clinic with a nervous breakdown after being seduced by a married church pastor-are you somehow claiming that this is her fault?"
"I'm saying there's enough blame to go around. And Tara wasn't seduced. She's a full-grown woman who uses her body to get what she wants."
"Coming from you, that's a little hypocritical, don't you think?" I asked, smarting.
"Here's the facts, Ella: your sister's about to get a house, a new car, and an allowance of fifteen thousand dollars a month, all for the simple reason that she managed to get knocked up by a guy with money. But no matter how good a deal the lawyers work out, she'll have to find another sugar daddy someday. Problem is, it won't be as easy next time. She'll be older."
"Why don't you think she'll get married?" I asked, increasingly irritated.
"She won't settle for a regular guy. She wants a rich one. And she's not the kind they marry."
"Yes, she is. She's beautiful."
"Beauty is a depreciating asset. And that's the only thing Tara brings to the table. In trading terms, that makes her a short sale, not a buy-and-hold."
The blunt assessment took my breath away. "Is that how rich guys really think? "
"Most of us."
"My God." I was fuming. "You must assume every woman you meet is after your wallet."
"No. But let's just say it's easy to spot the ones who would drop me in a red-hot minute if something happened to the money."
"I don't give a shit about your money-"
"I know that. It's one of the reasons I-"
"-and if you hate my sister so much, why are you bothering to help her?"
"I don't hate her. Not at all. I just see her for what she is. I'm doing all this for Luke's sake. And yours."
"For my sake?" Startled out of my rising anger, I gave him a round-eyed glance.
"There's not much I wouldn't do for you, Ella," he said quietly. "Haven't you figured that out yet?"
While I sat there in stunned silence, he pulled the SUV out of the parking space.
Disgruntled and riled and roasting-it would be a while before the air-conditioning would make any headway against the braised interior of the car-I was quiet for a while. I saw my sister differently than Jack did. I loved her. But did that prevent me from seeing the truth? Did Jack have a better grasp of the situation than I did?
I heard my cell phone ring. Reaching for my handbag, I dug around until I found the phone. "It's Dane," I said tersely. He rarely called during the day. "Do you mind if I take this?"
"Go right ahead." Jack continued to drive, his gaze on the midday traffic. Vehicles lurched and clotted like cells pushing through a hardened artery.
"Dane. Is everything okay?"
"Hi, sweetie, everything's great. How did the meeting go?" I gave Dane the in-a-nutshell version, and he listened with reassuring sympathy, making none of the judgments that Jack had. It was a relief to talk to someone who didn't push my buttons. I found myself relaxing, the air-conditioning blowing over me like the breath of a glacier.
"Hey, I was wondering," Dane said, "are you up for some company tomorrow night? I'm driving over to pick up a flowmeter from Katy for a system we're building. I'll take you out to dinner and spend the night. Meet this guy you've been spending so much time with."
I froze until Dane added with a laugh, "But I won't change his diaper."
My answering laugh was a shade too high-pitched. "No diaper-changing required. Yes, we'd love to see you. I can't wait."
"Good, I'll be there around four or five tomorrow. Bye, sweetie."
"Bye, Dane."
Closing the phone, I saw that we were back at 1800 Main, pulling into the underground garage.
Jack found a place near the elevator bank, and he stopped the SUV. He turned off the car and stared at me in the shadowy interior.
"Dane's coming to visit tomorrow," I said, aiming for a matter-of-fact tone but only managing to sound tense.
Jack's expression was unreadable. "Why?"
"He's picking up some monitoring equipment in Katy. And since he's going to be in the area, he wants to see me."
"Where's he going to stay?"
"With me, of course."
Jack was quiet for a long moment. It might have been my imagination, but I thought his breathing had acquired a rough edge. "I can get him a hotel room," he finally said. "I'll pay for it."
"Why would you… what?…"
"I don't want him staying overnight with you."
"But he's my-" I stopped and stared at him in disbelief. "What is this? Jack, I live with him."
"Not anymore. You live here. And-" A short, gouging pause. "I don't want you to have sex with him."
At first I was more bewildered than angry. Jack seemed to have reverted to knuckle-dragging mode, which I had never seen before, certainly not with Dane. That Jack felt possessive, that he wanted a say in when I had sex or whom I had it with, was no less than astonishing. "You don't get to be part of that decision," I said.
"I'm not going to stand by while he takes what's mine."
"Yours?"I shook my head, letting out a helpless sound, something between a laugh and a protest. My fingers crept to my mouth and lay over it lightly, like a lace curtain on an open window. It was a painstaking process to collect enough words to reply. "Jack, my boyfriend is coming to visit me. I may or may not have sex with him. But it's not your business. And I don't like games like this." I took an extra breath, and found myself repeating, "I don't like games."
Jack's voice was soft, but it contained a savage note that caused all the hairs on my body to rise. "I'm not playing games. I'm trying to tell you how I feel."
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