Nora Roberts - Sacred Sins

He watched her tuck the ends of the blanket neatly under the cushion. “We had a pretty fair argument going. Most of the women I-most women I know want to hear the old ‘I’m sorry I was a jerk.’ ”

“Were you?”

“Was I what?”

“A jerk.”

He had to admit she’d maneuvered him very nicely. “No.”

“Then it would be foolish for you to say you were, just to hold up tradition. There, that should do,” she added as she gave the pillow a final fluff.

“All right, dammit, I feel like an idiot about the way I acted the last time.”

“You were an idiot.” Tess turned from the sofa to smile at him. “But it’s all right.”

“I meant a lot that I said.”

“I know you did. So did I.”

Opposite sides, Ben thought. Opposite ends. “So where does that leave us?”

If she’d known, she wasn’t sure she could have told him. Instead she kept her voice friendly. “Why don’t we just leave it that I’m glad you’re here, with all this…” Her gaze drifted to the phone.

“Don’t dwell on that now. Let me take it from here.”

“You’re right.” She linked her hands together, then pulled them apart. “If you think about something like this too much, you go-”

“Crazy?” he suggested.

“To use a loose, inaccurate term.” She moved away then, tidying the desk to keep her hands busy. “I was surprised to see you tonight, at the gallery. I know it’s a small town, but-” It struck her then; the confusion and panic had obscured it before. “What are you doing here tonight? I thought you had a date.”

“I did. I told her I had an emergency. I wasn’t far off. What about yours?”

“My what?”

“Your date.”

“Oh, Dean. I, ah, told him I had a headache. I almost did. But you didn’t tell me why you came by.”

He shrugged that off and picked up her paperweight, a crystal pyramid that ran with colors as he turned it. “Looked like a real upstanding citizen. College professor, huh?”

“Yes.” Something began to settle inside of her. It took Tess a moment to recognize it as pleasure. “Your Trixie. Her name was Trixie, wasn’t it?”

“That’s right.”

“She looked charming. Loved her tattoo.”

“Which one?”

Tess only lifted a brow. “Did you enjoy the show?”

“I’m fond of pretentious bullshit. Apparently, so’s your professor. Great suit. And that natty little tie bar with the little gold chain was so distinguished.” He set the paperweight down hard enough to make her pencils jump. “I wanted to push his nose into his forehead.”

She beamed at him. “Thanks.”

“Don’t mention it.” After a gulp of coffee, he set the cup on the desk. It would leave a ring, but she said nothing. “I haven’t been able to think of anything but you for days. Got a name for that?”

She met his angry look with a smile. “I like obsession . Such a nice ring.” She walked closer. There was no need for nerves any longer, or for pretenses. When his hands came up and took her shoulders, she continued to smile.

“I guess you think this is pretty damn funny.”

“I guess I do. And I guess I could take a calculated risk and tell you I’ve missed you. I’ve missed you a great deal. Would you like to tell me why you’re angry?”

“No.” He pulled her against him, felt her lips curve then soften, then yield against his. The silk of her kimono rustled as his arms went around her. If he could have walked away, then he would have, without a backward glance. But he’d known when he found himself at her door that it was already too late.

“I don’t want to sleep on that frigging couch. And I’m not leaving you alone.”

She made the effort to open her eyes, but for the first time in memory she would have been willing to be swept away. “I’ll share the bed with you on one condition.”

“Which is?”

“That you make love with me.”

He drew her against him so that he could smell her hair, feel the way it brushed over his skin. “You drive a hard bargain, Doc.”

The scent of coffee woke her. Tess turned from her side to her back and lay dozing with the homey, comforting smell. How many years had it been since she’d woken to the scent of coffee already brewing? When she’d lived in her grandfather’s house with its high ceilings and tiled foyer, she would come down the arching staircase in the mornings to find her grandfather already behind a huge plate of eggs or hotcakes, the newpaper open, and the coffee already poured.

Miss Bette, the housekeeper, would have set the table with the everyday dishes, the ones with the little violets around the edges. Flowers would have depended on the season, but they would always be there, jonquils or roses or mums in the blue porcelain vase that had been her great-grandmother’s.

There would have been the quiet whoosh of Trooper’s tail, her grandfather’s old golden retriever, as he sat beneath the table hoping for a windfall.

Those had been the mornings of her youth-steady, secure, and familiar-of her young womanhood, just as her grandfather had been the strong central figure in her life.

Then she had grown up, moved into her own apartment, into her own practice. She brewed her own coffee.

With a sigh, she turned lazily, hoping for another dream. Then she remembered, and sat up straight in bed. It was empty, but for her. Pushing her hair out of her eyes, she touched the sheet beside her.

He’d stayed with her and kept the bargain. They had rolled and tossed and loved each other into the night until exhausted sleep had been the only alternative. No questions, no words, and the only answer had been what they had both needed. Each other and oblivion. He’d needed that too. She’d understood that he’d needed a few hours without tension, without puzzles, without responsibilities.

Now it was morning, and each had a job to face.

Tess rose, then slipped into the kimono that had been discarded onto the floor. She wanted a shower, a long, hot one, but she wanted the coffee more.

She found Ben in the little el of her dining room, with a map of the city, a tangle of notes, and her own yellow tablet spread over the table. “Good morning.”

“Hi.” He said it absently, then glanced up and focused. Though he smiled, she saw that his eyes were shadowed and intense as they studied her face. “Hi,” he repeated. “I was hoping you’d sleep longer.”

“It’s after seven.”

“It’s Sunday,” he reminded her, then rose as if to separate her from what he was doing at the table. “Hungry?”

“Are you cooking?”

“Are you squeamish?”

“Not particularly.”

“Then you can probably stomach one of my omelettes. Game?”

“Yeah, I’m game.” She went with him into the kitchen and poured a cup of coffee. From the look of the pot, he’d already had several. “Have you been up long?”

“Little while. How often do you shop for food?”,

She glanced behind him, into the now open refrigerator. “When my back’s to the wall.”

“Consider it there.” He pulled out a carton of eggs that was less than half full and a miserly chunk of cheddar. “We can still manage the omelettes. Just.”

“I’ve got an omelette pan. Second shelf in the cabinet to your right.”

He sent her a mild, pitying glance. “All you need’s a hot skillet and a light hand.”

“I stand corrected.”

She sipped coffee while he cooked. Impressive, she thought, and certainly better than she could do with gourmet utensils and a detailed recipe in front of her. Interested, she leaned over his shoulder and earned a silent stare. Tess split an English muffin, popped it in the toaster, and left the rest up to him.