Paul took the week of his spring break off from studying. "Stop cramming. That's probably what happened the first time. Go to the Caribbean," his adviser suggested. Instead, Paul stayed at home, but declared himself officially on vacation. He went to movies at the Brattle, spent two days making a cas-soulet. He drove to Wellfleet one day, forcing himself not to take a book. He decided to ride out to Concord on his bike, to see Emerson's house; on Saturday morning, he discovered that the chain needed to be fixed, and he brought the bike up to the deck. When he looked up, Sang was standing there, the phone in her hands, the cord stretched as far as it could go. "Something weird just happened, "she said.
"What?"
"It was that Deirdre woman. The one you took the message from when I was away."
Paul bent down, pretending to root around for something in his toolbox. "She was asking for Farouk," Sang continued. "She says she's a friend of his, visiting from out of town."
"Oh. So that must have been why she was calling," he said, relieved to hear that this was all Deirdre had said.
"He's never mentioned a Deirdre."
"Oh."
Sang sat down in a beach chair, the phone in her lap, her body leaning into it. She straightened, staring at the phone, pressing numbers at random without picking up the receiver. "Farouk doesn't have any friends," she said. "Ever since I've known him, he's never introduced me to a single friend. I'm his only friend, really." She looked intently at Paul, and for a second he feared she was about to draw some sort of parallel, point out that Paul didn't have friends, either. Instead, she said, "How did she get my number, anyway?"
She'd looked it up in Farouk's address book; Deirdre had confessed this to Paul. Farouk had made it easy for her, writing it under "S" for Sang, the name of the cousin he had mentioned in a way that made her suspicious. Paul shook his head, standing up, squeezing the hand brakes on the bicycle. "Don't know. I guess I'd ask Farouk."
"Right. Ask Farouk." She stood up and went back into the house.
That evening, when Paul returned from Concord, he found Sang at the kitchen table. She said nothing as he went to the refrigerator to pull out the remains of the cassoulet.
"Farouk isn't in," she said, as if responding to a question on Paul's part. "He hasn't been in all day."
He lifted the lid of the baking dish and sprinkled a few drops of water on top of the cassoulet. "You want some of this?"
"No, thanks." She was frowning.
Paul put the cassoulet in the oven and poured a Scotch. The muscles in his arms and his thighs ached pleasantly. He wanted to take a shower before eating.
"So, when exactly did this Deirdre person call?" Sang said, stopping him as he walked out of the kitchen.
He turned to face her, pivoting on his heels. "I don't remember. It was when you were away."
"And did she say anything to you?"
"What do you mean?"
"What did she say to you, exactly?"
"Nothing. I didn't talk to her," he said, his pulse racing; he was thankful that he was already coated with sweat. "She just wanted you to call her back."
"Well, I can't call her back. She didn't even leave her number. It was weird. Did she sound like a weird sort of person to you?"
He remembered Deirdre's tears. "I love him," she'd told Paul, a perfect stranger. He looked at Sang, manipulating his face into an uncomprehending expression. "I'm not sure what you mean."
She sighed impatiently. "Can you hand me that?" she said, pointing to the message pad.
Paul watched as Sang began flipping through the pages that had been turned over, running her finger down each line.
"What are you looking for?" he said after a moment.
"Her number."
"Why?"
"I want to call her back."
"Why?"
She looked up at him, exasperated. "Because I want to, Paul. Is that a problem with you?"
He went upstairs to take his shower. It wasn't his business, he told himself as the hot water washed over him, and, later, as he dried himself, then combed back his hair, enveloped in steam. When he came downstairs again, he found her on her hands and knees, going through the recycling bin, newspapers and magazines piled around her.
"Damn it," she said.
"Now what are you looking for?"
"The number. I remember ripping out that page for some reason. I think I threw it away." She began to put the newspapers and magazines back into the bin. "Damn it," she said again. She stood up, kicking the bin lightly with her foot. "I don't even remember her last name. Do you?"
He inhaled, as if to seal the information inside himself, but then he shook his head, relieved at the opportunity, at last, to be honest with her. He, too, had forgotten Deirdre's last name. It was a name of one syllable, but apart from that detail it had vanished from his brain.
"Hey, Paul," Sang said after a moment. "I'm sorry if I sounded harsh back then."
He walked across the kitchen, opened the oven. "Don't worry about it."
Her stomach growled, loudly enough for Paul to hear. "God, I just realized I haven't eaten a thing today. I think I'll have some of that cassoulet, after all. Should I make a salad?" This would be their first dinner together, alone, without Heather. He used to yearn for such an occasion. He used to feel clumsy and tongue-tied when Sang was in the room. Now he felt dread.
"I guess she was a little weird," he said slowly, gazing at the back of Sang's head, bent forward over the sink where she was ripping lettuce. She turned around.
"How? How did she seem weird to you?"
He was so nervous that for a terrible instant he worried that he might laugh out loud. Sang was regarding him steadily. The faucet was still running. She reached back to turn it off, and now the room was silent.
"She was crying," he said.
"Crying?"
"Um-yeah." "Crying how?"
"Just-crying. Like she was upset about something."
Sang opened her mouth, as if to speak, but for a while it simply hung open. "So let me get this straight. This woman Deirdre called and asked for me."
Paul nodded. "Right."
"And you said I wasn't there."
"Right."
"And then she asked you to have me call her back."
"Right."
"And then she started crying?"
"Yeah."
"And then what happened?" "That was it. Then she hung up."
For a moment, Sang seemed satisfied with the information, nodding slowly. Then she shook her head abruptly, as if to flick it away. "Why didn't you tell me this?"
He regretted having offered her the cassoulet. He regretted ever having picked up the phone that day. He regretted that Sang and not another person had moved into the room, into his house, into his life. "I did," he said calmly, drawing a line between them in his mind. "I told you she called."
"But you didn't tell me this."
"No."
She opened her eyes wide, incredulous. "Didn't it occur to you I might want to know?"
He curled his lips together, looking away.
"Well?" she demanded, shouting at him now. "Didn't it?"
When he still did not reply, she marched up to him, her hands clenched in fists, and he braced himself for a blow, twisting his face to one side. But she didn't strike him. Instead she gripped the sides of her own head, as if to steady herself. "My God, Paul." Her voice was so shrill it was nearly inaudible. "What the hell is wrong with you?"
Now it was she who began to avoid him. For a few nights, she was not at home. Paul saw her getting into Charles's truck with a weekend bag. Because Heather had by then all but officially moved in with Kevin, once again Paul found himself alone in the house. A week passed before he saw Sang again. Thinking himself alone, he hadn't bothered to shut his door. She came up to his room, wearing a pretty dress he'd never seen, a white cotton short-sleeved dress, fitted at the waist. The neck was square, showing off her collarbones.
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