Annika Thor - A Faraway Island

The door opens.

“What can I do for you, ma’am?” the shopkeeper says, turning to the woman who comes in.

“… meal,” Stephie continues. Then she falls silent.

The woman has a long shopping list. She samples several cheeses before deciding, then pinches and pokes at least twenty oranges before choosing four. Stephie shifts from one foot to the other impatiently. She knows Aunt Märta is waiting for the vinegar.

Sylvia comes strolling down the stairs. She leans for-ward, arms on the counter, chin in her hands.

“My Christmas dress is blue,” she says. “What color is yours?”

Stephie doesn’t answer.

“Aren’t you getting a new dress to wear on Christmas?”

“Sure,” Stephie lies. “But it’s going to be a surprise.”

Sylvia smiles her superior smile. “I don’t believe you.”

Finally the lady’s got everything on her list and is paying. Sylvia settles in on a stool in the corner behind the counter, leafing through a magazine.

“Thank you,” the shopkeeper says. “Thanks very much. All the best to you and yours.”

When the woman has left he turns back to Stephie.

“What else?”

Stephie starts reading again: “Two pounds of oatmeal…”

“Let me see,” the shopkeeper says, taking the list out of her hands. “Oats, yeast, peas…”

He takes things down from the shelves and weighs them for her order. There are no more canned peas on the shelf.

“Sylvia, get me some peas from the storeroom.”

Sylvia looks up over the edge of the magazine. “They’re on the top shelf. I can’t reach.”

The shopkeeper sighs. “Well, keep an eye on the candy, then, while I go.”

“Sure.” Sylvia smiles.

Stephie feels a blush rise. As if she might try to steal their candy!

The shopkeeper returns with the peas. Stephie pays and receives her change.

“May I please see the bookmarks?” she asks.

“Are you buying?”

“Yes.”

“They’re not on your list. Are you allowed?”

Stephie would really like to take her canvas bag and walk out. But this is the only shop on the island, and she needs presents for Nellie and Uncle Evert.

“I’ve got money of my own,” she answers brusquely.

“Let me see.”

Stephie takes her two coins out of her left-hand coat pocket. Sylvia stares in curiosity from behind her magazine.

“And where’s the change I just gave you?”

Not until Stephie holds out the coin purse with Aunt Märta’s small change does the shopkeeper agree to take down the box of bookmarks. Stephie chooses two sheets: one with angels resting on puffy clouds, the other with girls carrying baskets of flowers. She buys a pack of razor blades for Uncle Evert.

She still has a little money. She’s tempted to spend it on candy, but decides to save it instead.

When she leaves the shop she notices it has started to snow. It’s getting dark out, too. Aunt Märta’s probably annoyed with her for taking so long.

The heavy bag bangs against her leg with every step, and the handle cuts into her palm. She moves the bag from hand to hand and back again on the way home. She even has to stop and rest.

“Is that you, Stephie?” she hears a man’s voice shout.

It’s Uncle Evert, coming up behind her on the road. He’s soon alongside her, and she realizes he’s on his way home from the fishing boat.

“That’s a big bag for a little girl like you,” he says. “I’ll take it from here.”

Uncle Evert carries the bag as if it were light as a feather.

“Look,” he says. “The snow’s sticking. I think we’re going to have a white Christmas.” He extends a large, warm hand, taking hers. “Don’t worry,” he tells her. “Everything’s going to be all right.”

On Christmas Eve Stephie eyes Aunt Märta uneasily as she opens the package with the pot holder in it. Will she find it ugly and uneven? No, Aunt Märta seems pleased. She thanks Stephie and hangs it right up on a hook by the stove.

Uncle Evert gives Stephie a paint box and brushes and a pad of watercolor paper. Aunt Märta gives her a cap and mittens she’s knitted in a matching pattern. Stephie can’t figure out how Aunt Märta managed to knit them without her noticing. The wool smells of mothballs.

Lying in bed later, she hears the voices of Uncle Evert and Aunt Märta from their bedroom.

“You ought to have bought her a few more things,” says Uncle Evert. “The kind of trinkets girls like.”

“Trinkets,” Aunt Märta snorts. “What she needs are warm clothes.”

“True enough,” says Uncle Evert. “But children need different things for different reasons.”

“Are you telling me I don’t know what’s best for the girl?”

“Not at all.”

“So what are we arguing about?”

The conversation ends. A little while later, Stephie hears Uncle Evert’s voice again.

“She’s a fine girl. I’m glad we took her in.”

The wind begins to whine outside Stephie’s window and she doesn’t hear Aunt Märta’s reply.

They’ve been invited to spend Christmas Day at Auntie Alma and Uncle Sigurd’s. There are lots of others there, too. Everyone’s related, and for the first time Stephie realizes that Aunt Märta and Auntie Alma are related, too-they’re cousins.

Nellie gives Stephie a Christmas present, a tin of candies, hard on the outside but with soft chocolate centers. The tin is pretty, with a blue-and-gold pattern.

“You can keep things in it afterward,” Nellie points out.

Nellie isn’t wearing her coral necklace, as she usually does when she’s dressed up. Her soft, pale neck looks very bare without it.

“What was in Sonja’s package?” Stephie asks her, trying to sound nonchalant.

“A rubber frog,” Nellie says. “It hops when you squeeze a ball.”

“Did you give her a present?”

Nellie nods.

“What was it?”

Nellie doesn’t answer, just looks away, her bottom lip quivering slightly.

“You didn’t give her your coral necklace, did you?”

Nellie nods again.

“Idiot,” Stephie says. “What do you think Mamma will say when she finds out?”

“You were the one who told me to!”

“Well, you should have known I didn’t mean it.”

“What did you say it for, then?”

“I was kidding,” Stephie says. “I never thought you’d be dumb enough to give away Mamma’s coral necklace.”

“I’m going to write and tell her,” Nellie says. “I’ll tell her you tricked me into it.” She looks as if she might burst into tears.

“Oh, it’s done now,” Stephie hurries to say. “Come on, let’s go see what Elsa and John are up to.”

After Christmas the weather turns colder. The air is raw and damp, full of salty humidity from the ocean. It prickles their cheeks and stings their nostrils. The steep islets Stephie can see from the bay window are capped with snow. They remind her of mountaintops. It’s as if the mountains had sunk under the water and left only their tops protruding.

Along the shore and in the inlets, the ocean is frozen over. The ice is a dull gray-green, ribboned with white snow. Farther out, the open water gleams, steel blue. Stephie walks on the beach and feels the thin ice shatter, crunching under her feet. Sometimes she goes right through the layer of ice and snow and down into the stiff, frozen seaweed.

Stephie likes the snow; it transforms the island from gray to white. She makes snowballs and finds targets to aim at, like the rocks out in the water. She slides down the slope behind the house over and over, until Aunt Märta scolds her, saying she’ll wear out her boot soles.