Diana Peterfreund - Secret Society Girl

What the fuck had I just done?

Poe looked up, tightening his hands into fists. “She’s right,” he said simply.

Kurt Gehry placed a reassuring hand on Poe’s arm. “Son…”

“No, she’s very right.” He looked at Malcolm. “I’m so sorry, Lance.” He looked near tears. “I lied to you. I can’t believe I did that. You’re my brother .”

“It’s okay,” Malcolm said.

But my diarrhea of the mouth was obviously contagious. “No, it’s not. Don’t you see? You don’t even have to be here.”

“Poe, shut up,” Gehry said, this time with steel behind his words.

“And I should have told you,” Poe blabbed on. “But I didn’t want to piss them off. And I agreed with them. I thought the girls were such a bad idea. I told you so, too. Girls—well…” He ducked his head. “It doesn’t matter.”

“It does,” said another patriarch. “It’s a date-rape case just waiting to happen.” He eyed Odile warily as if she were about to cry sexual assault there at the table. The other patriarchs were still in shock from Mr. Cuthbert’s outburst. Mr. Cuthbert himself looked like a deflated red balloon. Clarissa still hadn’t lifted her head from the table.

“But I kept you in the dark.” Poe’s voice trembled, but he pushed through. Every sentence fell like a gavel. To him it must have been more like the blade of a guillotine. “All this week, when you were planning, I’ve been telling them everything, and not telling you the one thing you needed to know—”

“Stop talking.” Gehry’s voice had gone high-pitched and desperate.

“Because the thing is, this board—”

“Stop. Now.”

“They’re just the board.”

“Stop talking, Poe.”

“If you’re looking for permission, you don’t need theirs. You need the trustees at large. And every single alumnus, every patriarch on the planet, is a trustee of Rose & Grave.”

Gehry’s face turned a lovely shade of magenta that almost matched Demetria’s hair. “Shut up this instant or I swear on Persephone that I’ll make you pay.”

But Poe’s resolve had reached terminal velocity. “And we can ask them directly. Do a mail-in vote. Hell, do a call-in. I have all the info back in my room at Eli. If they vote us in, if they vote in women, there’s not a damn thing the board can do about it.” Poe paused, looking around the room at the taps gathered there, as if seeing them for the first time. His eyes settled on mine for the briefest of instants before turning back to Malcolm. “And Lance, I think they will.”

The patriarch beside me slid his legal pad in my direction. I looked down at the message scrawled there.

Good job, Bugaboo. Well played.

From there, the meeting degenerated into chaos. Kurt Gehry went hysterical. He was shaking his fist in the air, swearing on everything that was holy that we “little girls” would rue the day we took him on. His face was the color of a ripe eggplant. I wish CNN had been there to capture it. It was hilarious. At last, three patriarchs had to haul him bodily from the room.

Mr. Cuthbert proceeded to get sick into a large potted ficus plant, and George and Odile decided that it was the perfect time to dance a tarantella on the top of the conference-room table. (I didn’t know it was a tarantella at the time. Odile had to explain it to me later. I have no idea how George knew the steps.) Jennifer grabbed a box of tissues from the corner and began comforting Clarissa, who appeared to be making a speedy recovery (especially after watching her dad lose his lunch). Malcolm and Poe hugged for a long time, long enough to make me start wondering what exactly it was that Poe had against girls, and the patriarch Little Demon, wringing his hands and looking quite out of sorts, finally kicked us all out.

We whooped and hollered all the way down to the ground floor of the Eli Club and exploded onto Manhattan en masse.

Malcolm and Poe excused themselves from the group almost immediately and caught a Metro North commuter back to Eli in order to get started on the patriarch vote. “We’ll do pro/con arguments,” Malcolm said to me, and I had no doubt who’d be providing the “con” perspective. “There are about 800 alums, though, so it might take a bit of time. I’m calling the guys who never did show up and telling them to get their asses back to school to help.”

I wondered idly if they’d get the tomb reopened before my Russian Novel final in two weeks.

Clarissa treated us all to a lavish dinner at an uptown steak house on her father’s AmEx gold card. “Use it before I lose it,” she said, signaling for another bottle of bubbly. It’s safe to say that no one felt the least bit guilty ordering the surf n’ turf.

“I have to make a phone call,” Jennifer blurted out before the sliced tomatoes arrived. She rushed off, and when she returned, ten minutes later, it looked as if she’d been crying. However, no one could get her to open up.

“Tender nerves all around,” Demetria said, patting her on the shoulder. Jennifer took a deep breath and actually directed a smile in Demetria’s direction.

“It’s been a long day,” she admitted. “And I feel like…everything’s changed.”

“I hope it has,” Kevin said.

Clarissa clinked her glass with mine. “Thanks so much, Amy.” Her smile didn’t quite reach her eyes. “I can’t tell you how much that meant to me. But, what was that bit about not liking you before you were tapped? I didn’t even know you.”

I bit my lip. “You knew me well enough to—never mind. It’s in the past.”

“No, tell me.”

“Galen Twilo. Freshman year.”

She narrowed her eyes. “That loser? I don’t think I’ve spoken to him in years. Do you know he stole my BlackBerry to buy pot?”

“Do you know he slept with me and never spoke to me again?”

She grinned broadly. “Then you had a lucky escape, my friend. That guy is such a little prick.”

“Having seen it, I’m inclined to agree. But at the time, I overheard you say he was ‘slumming’ with me.”

Her mouth turned into a little pink O. “I didn’t. Did I? My God, what a bitch move!” She put her drink down, and enveloped me in a hug scented with Chanel and tears. “Now I’m really grateful that you stood up for me. Lord knows I hadn’t done anything to deserve it.”

“You had.” I hugged her back. “You’re my sister now. We shouldn’t be held responsible for stuff we did as teenagers. We’ll just stick that bit in the vault along with all—”

“The other crap my dad was talking about?” She smiled mirthlessly. “I hate the girl I used to be, Amy.”

I met her eyes. “Good thing she’s not around anymore.”

“I don’t know about that.”

“I do,” I replied. “Because I’ve been looking for her since initiation, and I haven’t seen her once.” And I had. I’d been so ready to judge Clarissa by everything I knew about her, rather than who she actually was. Maybe, if Clarissa could change, then a centuries-old society could as well.

After dinner, Clarissa paid the check and all the girls, true to form, took to the bathroom as a group. “I can’t believe they wanted us to give back the pins,” Demetria said, admiring the way hers flashed in the mirror.

“Yeah, but you weren’t about to let go,” I said. “I think we’d have swallowed them or pinned them straight to our bodies before handing them over to those assholes.”

“It’s too bad they aren’t permanent,” Odile said. Four pairs of eyes met in the mirror.

Jennifer exited the stall. “Hey, guys,” she said, heading toward the nearest sink. “What’s the plan now?”

“Absolutely not.” Jennifer folded her arms across her chest.