Fannie Flagg - Standing in the Rainbow

Elner got up from the table, sighing and wondering what in the world life would be like without The Neighbor Dorothy Show. She was not the only one. In a kitchen twenty miles outside of town, a farm woman went into the left drawer by the sink and pulled out a writing tablet and, after testing about six, finally found a ballpoint pen that still had ink in it. She sat down and started a letter.

Dear Neighbor Dorothy,

Just thought I'd drop you a line and tell you how much I'll miss hearing you on the radio every day. Listening to you was always such a comfort to me and I did not feel so alone way out here, so far from town. It would have been a lonely old life if it had not been for you and your family. At times I almost felt like Bobby and Anna Lee were mine as well. Lord, we have been through it all, haven't we? You have truly been a good neighbor.

Your friend,

Mrs. Vernon Boshell

Route 3

Doc had been at the drugstore, training the young pharmacist who was taking his place, when the prescription was called in. The minute he saw who the heart medicine was for he went home. They never did travel. It was a warm autumn that year, so they spent some of the days sitting in the Sweetheart Swing out back and watching the sun go down.

On October 22, a tall, thin radio announcer walked into the booth, looked up at the clock, and waited. At exactly 9:30, instead of the Tops in Pops show, which usually aired after the news, a surprised listening audience heard: "Ladies and gentlemen, station WDOT is sad to report that a friend is dead. Last evening, Neighbor Dorothy passed away quietly in her home in Elmwood Springs. She is survived by her daughter, Anna Lee, and a son, Robert. We wish to extend our deepest sympathies to them and to the hundreds of radio listeners who came to know and love her over the years.

"The family requests that if you wish to remember her, in lieu of flowers, please send a donation to the Princess Mary Margaret Fund, in care of the Elmwood Springs Humane Society. In remembrance, we here at station WDOT will be off the air for one hour in silent tribute to a woman who will be missed by all.

"We would like to close with this thought. What is a life? The best and most noble life is one lived in such a way that it can be said of a per son, as they pass on to the next life, that while she was here she brought love and joy and comfort to all she touched. Such was the life lived by the woman known to all simply as Neighbor Dorothy. Although her voice here on earth has been silenced, we would like to think that somewhere, in another place, people are just now turning on their radios and hearing her for the very first time. Good-bye, dear friend."

For all the years and hours that Norma had spent worrying over every little thing, the moment that something really terrible did happen she was the one who was calm and was able to keep a clear head. She had not said a word to Macky or Aunt Elner. All they knew is that she had gone in for her yearly checkup. She did not tell them anything until two weeks later. That night after dinner, after she put the dishes in the dishwasher and turned off the kitchen light, she sat down by Macky in the family room.

"Macky, I'm sure it's nothing but they saw a little something on my mammogram that they didn't like and Dr. Hailing wants to do a biopsy."

Macky felt the blood drain from his body. She went on.

"So, I'm going to go in on Wednesday. I should only be there for a day or so, but anyhow, I'm going to fix a few things and put them in the freezer for you so you can have them to eat while I'm gone."

Macky finally got his voice. "Jesus Christ, when did this happen?"

"A few days ago."

"A few days ago why didn't you tell me?"

"Because there was no point for you to worry. The only reason I'm telling you now is because they might keep me overnight, depending on what they find, and I didn't want you to come home and wonder where I was."

"Have you told Aunt Elner or Linda? Is she coming home?"

"No. Like I said, there is no point to telling anybody anything until we know what it is and it's probably not anything at all."

"Why would you keep something like this from me? What is the matter with you?"

"Nothing is the matter, honey, I just didn't think you needed to worry, that's all."

"I'm your husband, for God's sake, you don't just say, Oh by the way, I think I might have cancer."

The minute he said it he was sorry. But Norma got up and came over, pushed his hair back off his forehead, and patted his shoulder.

"Oh, honey, I don't have cancer."

"But you could have."

"The chances are rare, but even if I do, it's not the end of the world. He said we caught it early."

"Does he think it is?"

"No, he meant if, on the off chance that there is something, we caught it in time."

After they went to bed he could not sleep and got up at about three in the morning and walked out in the backyard and tears ran down his cheeks. Not so much because he was scared to death but because it was her bravery that had always touched him more than he could tell her.

The next few days were pure hell. He realized that if he lost her he would never forgive himself. He wanted more years with her, so he could wake up every day and look at her and appreciate who she was, what she was. She was his wife, his lover, the mother of his child, but most of all she was his best friend. Without her he would be more lost than he already was.

He sat in the waiting room of the hospital and while they were doing the biopsy on Norma he thought about time, the one thing that could not be stopped. As a child, time had seemed like a windup toy. It had seemed so long on those days he sat in school waiting for the bell to ring and so short when he was having fun. So long from Christmas Eve night to Christmas morning. Now, in just a few seconds, the doctor would tell them the results. In those few seconds his life would never again be the same or they would have another chance. Did the white-coated people in the lab know what they were looking at?

Would they go to lunch and not know that whatever they found under the microscope would change lives forever? He wanted to yell at the entire hospital, That's my wife, that's my entire life, our entire future you're looking at. Here was a man who could not stand to have anyone else drive, hated to fly because he was not comfortable unless he was at the controls, and now he was helpless. Totally dependent on the hospital staff, who looked to him to be no more than teenagers. What had happened to the older, gray-haired nurses and doctors he had remembered the last time she was in the hospital, having their daughter, thirty-one years ago, and what the hell are they so happy about? Didn't they know how serious life and death was, for God's sake? That poor sweetheart could wake up with her breast gone and be told that it had spread everywhere and that she was dying. Why in the hell hadn't they found a cure for this thing yet?

What are we doing sending money all over the world, spending billions on the military budget and on making stupid movies and television shows? People are dying every day and we're just throwing money away. Why aren't they giving it to the scientists to find a cure? Something is wrong cancer has been around too long; somebody must have a cure, they're just not letting anybody know. He had worked himself into a murderous rage when the doctor came down the hall.

"Mr. Warren, we just got the report from the lab and it's absolutely benign, so we're gonna close her on up. She should be out of recovery in a few hours." He spoke over his shoulder to another doctor that had just passed him in the hall. "Hey, Duke, can you get me two more tickets for the game tomorrow?"