Nan Rossiter - The Gin and Chowder Club

Noelle tentatively pulled open the heavy door. The librarian and the young woman at the table both looked up. Noelle smiled and walked over to the desk.

“Good morning,” the librarian said, taking in Noelle’s full form.

“Good morning,” Noelle replied quietly. “I am looking for Asa Coleman.”

The woman at the table watched her curiously, wondering who this lady was and what connection she had to the young man who worked here.

The librarian was having the same thought as she answered, “He’s not here right now, but he said he would be back this afternoon.”

Noelle paused and looked at the ancient Seth Thomas clock hanging above the desk. It was already 12:10. She would only be able to stay until 2:30. “Would it be all right if I waited? I’m a friend from out of town, and I was hoping to surprise him.”

“Yes, of course. Please make yourself comfortable,” she replied, nodding to Noelle.

Asa lifted the last bale onto the rickety metal conveyor and watched it rattle up to the hayloft. He turned around and saw a woman come into the barn and set down a jug of iced tea, glasses, and a plate of sandwiches. Asa had learned the boys’ names earlier; Seth was the older son, named after his father, and Ethan was the younger boy. Now Asa introduced himself to Mrs. Asher, and she smiled warmly as she poured a large glass of sweet tea for each of them.

The only sound in the library was the steady, quiet clicking of the hands on the old clock. Noelle had taken a book from the book cart and settled into the worn Queen Anne’s chair by the window, but she could not keep her mind on the words. Instead, her eyes were drawn to the relentlessly swinging pendulum that was stealing away anxious minutes. Silently, she prayed that Asa would come through the door. Finally, after almost two hours, she got up and asked the librarian for a piece of paper. The librarian opened her drawer, slipped out an ivory sheet with the library’s letterhead at the top, and handed it, along with an envelope, to Noelle. Noelle thanked her and sat back down.

“You must be thirsty,” Mrs. Asher said. “It’s not easy work.”

Asa rubbed his palms together and felt the new blisters stinging.

“No, it isn’t. But it’s good exercise.”

Mr. Asher came up behind him. “Well, anytime you need some exercise, you’re welcome here!”

“Please, have a sandwich.” Mrs. Asher held the plate out. Asa glanced at his watch and couldn’t believe the time.

“I really have to go,” he said.

“Well, take it with you, then.”

“Okay.” Asa took a sandwich from the plate and put it on a napkin. “Thank you.”

“Thank you . Lunch is the least we can do,” Mr. Asher said, reaching for his wallet. “We can’t give you much money…”

Asa put up his hand. “I don’t want to be paid-it was fun.”

Tears welled up in Noelle’s eyes as she wrote. She had not wanted Asa to find out this way. She had wanted to be able to tell him in person, to see his face-then she would know what to do. She chose her words carefully, just as she had rehearsed them so many times in her head. She folded the letter and slipped it into the envelope. On the outside, she wrote his name and then she glanced at the clock-it was 2:35. Noelle shook her head, took the letter out, and read it again. She looked at the door. Why didn’t he come? Slowly, she stood up and walked toward the desk. She winced in pain and clutched the letter more tightly.

Asa shook hands with everyone before walking toward the barn door. He looked back. “When’s second cutting?”

Mr. Asher smiled. “ ’Bout a month- if your hands have recovered…”

“Sounds good-see you then!”

“Thanks again, son.”

The boys looked down from the loft. “See you, Asa.”

Asa waved and walked out into the rain.

The librarian looked up and saw the envelope in Noelle’s hand. “I thought he would be back by now,” she began. “Would you like me to give that to him?”

Noelle looked down at the name on the envelope. Oh, Asa, where are you?

Her hands were shaking as she put the book she had tried to read back on the cart. She glanced at the envelope again. “No. Thank you, though. You needn’t even say I was here. I’ll see him soon.”

The librarian looked surprised as she studied Noelle’s pale face. “Are you sure?”

“Yes.” Noelle paused. “I’m sure.”

Her trembling hands slipped the envelope into the book she had brought from home to give to Asa. She slipped the book back into her bag, and then she pushed open the door and stepped outside. Rain had started to fall again, and the drops blended with the tears on her cheeks.

“Is your name Asa?”

Asa turned to look at the young woman who had just passed him. He studied her face and tried to place her. Her eyes were a pretty hazel, and she had a smattering of freckles across the bridge of her nose. She had the hood of her jacket up, and at first he didn’t recognize her without her glasses.

“Yes,” he answered.

“I thought so,” she began, “because I was at the library earlier, and there was someone looking for you.”

Asa looked puzzled. “Looking for me ?”

“Yes, I’m quite sure. I don’t know if she’s still there, but she waited a long time. She is…” the girl paused. “What I mean is, I think she is expecting.”

Asa ran the rest of the way to the library. Mrs. Draper was locking the door as he came up the walk. “The library closes at three on Wednesdays,” she said, putting up her umbrella and walking away. On the sidewalk in front of the library, Asa stood with his hands hanging at his sides and looked up at the falling rain…

I f I can just make it to the car… Please let me make it to the car, Noelle pleaded silently after finally arriving back in Boston. The pain deep in her belly was excruciating, and the concerned faces of passersby began to blend together. She saw her car in the parking lot where she had left it, and cradling her belly, she tried desperately to walk with some measure of normalcy. A sudden, shocking pain exploded inside of her abdomen, and she cried out as she fell forward. Nearby, a gentleman saw what was happening and rushed to catch her. Noelle collapsed onto the sidewalk and lay still, trying to focus. She looked up at the clouds and listened to the worried voices all around her. She noticed a patch of blue, the voices fading in and out. The summer sky was there all the time… the sweet summer sky. She closed her eyes and listened. The voices were quiet now, but there was another sound, faint at first… more clearly now… Yes, she was certain-a cardinal was calling…

Nate heard the screaming siren pierce the normal sounds of evening traffic. It seemed to draw closer, and as he walked across Dewey Square, he paused to watch the commotion. A crowd had gathered, and the siren stopped abruptly as an ambulance pulled up in front of the bus station. Nate wondered what had happened and silently said a prayer, as he always did, for whoever it was who needed help. After several minutes, the crowd parted again and the ambulance pulled away, its lights flashing across the sky, the unsettling sound of its siren fading into the night.