Guy Vanderhaeghe - The Englishman’s Boy

Chance is happy. He shines with it, happiness suffuses him. Nodding and smiling, he shakes hands, accepts pats of congratulation on the shoulder. Men offer him cigars. I read his lips. Over and over he is saying, Yes, yes, yes.

Now Fitz is guiding him away, escorting him down the carpet. For an instant Fitz’s and my eyes lock, and he deftly steers Chance a little to the right to avoid us meeting. They go past. A determined well-wisher importunes them, expressing admiration for the picture. Chance begins nodding again.

It starts to rain lightly, just hard enough to flicker in the light of streetlamps and headlights, sparse and granular, like a shower of rice at a wedding. Across the street, the little covey of devotees, neglected, is breaking up. Someone opens a newspaper over her head. Someone is crossing the road. Someone else is following him.

The first jaywalker moves like a somnambulist, looks neither right nor left, steps into the path of an oncoming car. The pavement is slick with rain, a horn blares, the car brakes, slides to a stop inches from the man’s legs. Under the awning people break off conversations to stare curiously. In the glare of the headlights the man stares back, searching the faces.

Shorty in a black suit and white shirt, collar buttoned tightly. His face lit from beneath by the car headlights, the planes of his face like snow, his eyes black and sunken. He looks old, a walking corpse. He steps up on the bumper of the car and surveys the crowd under the green-and-white awning. “Chance!” he shouts. A woman laughs in surprise, as if this were a joke.

Shorty steps down from the bumper, advances. Wylie follows, eyes switching nervously back and forth. The light of the marquee falls full upon McAdoo, carrying himself like an old soldier, wearing his black suit like a uniform. He passes everybody as if they were nothing more than fur coats and evening dress hung on a clothesline for airing. People step aside, make way for him. He looks strange under the electric light; his tan is gone and his face burns with a hospital pallor. Sick, you would think, if the firm, steady tread, the young man’s stride which bears the old face onward, didn’t belie it.

Reaching Chance and Fitz he says loudly, “I’d like a word.”

Chance stands with a sceptical smile on his lips, his head turned ever so slightly to one side, his eyes fastened on the belly of the awning. “If this is business,” he says without looking at McAdoo, “you must make an appointment to see me. I do not conduct business on social occasions.”

Wylie shifts his feet on the carpet. McAdoo’s mouth tightens. “I come to ask you to write to the newspapers and tell them that feller in your picture ain’t me.”

Chance is still smiling, still refusing to look McAdoo in the face. He watches the awning flutter with gusts of wind and rain. “Of course it isn’t you,” he says. “Mr. McAdoo is dead.”

“Liar!” bursts out Wylie. He rounds on the gaping bystanders. “Don’t you believe him! This here’s Shorty McAdoo! I know him! Know him good as anything!”

“You’re mistaken,” Chance says. “Shorty McAdoo is dead and this man is an impostor.” For the first time he looks directly at Shorty. “Stand aside,” he says coolly, “let me pass.”

“Every day he waits at that gate for a word and you drive on by! He ain’t waiting no more!” Wylie screeches.

McAdoo grabs Wylie’s arm, pulling him up short. “You listen to me,” he says with urgency. “Take hold of yourself. I told you. This ain’t got nothing to do with you. I come for my say. That’s all – a say. I can do my own talking without help from you. Go home.”

“Once more,” says Chance. “Stand aside.”

McAdoo shakes his head. “You’ve had one walk over me. You ain’t going to get two. Not until I’m finished.”

Chance gives Fitz a sign and he slips between them. McAdoo runs his eyes up and down him. “So you’re the big dog.”

“That’s right.”

“Cock your leg and piss on somebody else,” says McAdoo and moves to step around him. As he does, Fitz grabs him by the lapels of the black suit, jerking him off his feet, shaking him, snapping the old white head back and forth in a blur. McAdoo kicks at him, battering the Irishman’s shins, boots thudding against fenceposts. That’s it. Flying head, flying feet, everything a blur.

Something cracks, hard and sharp like fracturing bone, and Fitz sways with the old man slumped unconscious in his fists. A woman screams, a long aria of terror. A thought lurches in my mind. He’s snapped the old man’s neck, like a dry brittle stick broken over a knee. But then Fitz’s eyes roll upward, trying to locate the source of his own death, the neat black hole drilled square in the middle of his forehead. He falls, a big tree axed, crashes to the carpet, dragging McAdoo down with him.

Wylie is walking forward jerkily, his arm held stiff and straight at shoulder height, my pistol on the end of it, pointed at Chance. I hear people running, feet pounding, there are more screams, shouts for the police, but they reach me from a far way off, a place divorced from this moment. A fine mist of smoke hovers under the awning; the thick oily smell of a discharged weapon startles my nostrils.

Chance stands, a prisoner in the dock awaiting judgement, his lips moving. What looks like prayer is really only Chance repeating, over and over, “Fitz, Fitz, Fitz, Fitz…”

“Wylie!” I scream, the name tearing my throat. Recognizing the voice, his face veers to me, the movement tortured. “Christ, Wylie, let him go,” I beg. “Don’t do it. Don’t.”

Pronouncing the last don’t , I understand Wylie is looking at me with cold hatred, that my own death is being debated in his slow, clumsy mind at this instant.

The wailing of a police siren saves me. Wylie swings his head to the sound, swings back to Chance, decision written on his face. “You-you-you ought to talked to him,” he says, stumbling over the words. “If you’d just only talked to him. We would been in Canada now. We would been in Canada… happy.”

Chance’s face wears the blank look it wore months ago at supper as he tore the bread, eating like an animal. When Wylie’s pistol rises up so do Chance’s arms, not in surrender, but in an extravagant gesture of welcome.

The bullet buckles him as if two strong hands from behind had ripped down hard on his shoulders. His legs give way, sinking him to his knees, a flower of blood spreading vivid petals on his starched shirt front. Wylie takes two steps forward, shoves the gun against his chest and fires, the flash scorching Chance’s linen.

By the time I reach Chance, Wylie has dropped the gun and is gazing at the rain as it drums down harder and harder, draping a silver blanket on either side of the awning, enclosing the four of us in a lonely tent. I hear its wild thrashing on the canvas roof and, underneath that, the keening of police sirens.

As I prop Chance’s head in my arms he snatches me by the nape of my neck, pulling my face within inches of his with a brutal, frantic strength.

“Harry?” he whispers.

I struggle to pull my face away from the dire mask confronting me, but the grip is unbreakable.

“Harry,” he gasps, “when we talked… you see… I could not bring myself to tell you everything.”

“What? What couldn’t you tell me?”

“The consequences of the truth.” His breath rasps short and quick in my face. “Artists… visionaries… they always find a way to kill us, Harry. Always.”

“Who?” I shout down at him. “Who are they?”

He is beyond speech. He makes a gesture to the wall of rain, to whomever, whatever, he imagines lurks behind it. The canvas rips, shreds in the wind with a wrenching, desolate sound as I watch his eyes darken, as he struggles for his last breath, as the open pit of his mouth slowly fills with blood, as the frothy pink liquid spills down my arm, marking me.