Ludmilla Petrushevskaya - There Once Lived a Girl Who Seduced Her Sister's Husband, and He Hanged Himself

How did it happen? Upon arriving home, with the uneasy Dima in tow, Genya saw her grandmother’s cane in the corner of the hall. Her grandmother had practically raised Genya. Later on, she sold her country house to buy Genya a studio apartment in Moscow. The grandmother, of course, now visited without warning—she had her own set of keys. And if Genya wasn’t home, then her grandmother would stay all night waiting for her.

The cane in the corner suggested this might be one of those nights. Very quietly Genya made up a kind of bed for Dima on the narrow kitchen sofa, using a towel and a tablecloth for sheets. She gave him another towel for the shower, then showered herself. When she came out she found Dima curled up on the short sofa like a dollar sign. He was clearly suspecting something—young boys are scared of older women, just like girls are scared of grown men. Poor Genya lowered her head onto the kitchen table and quietly began to cry. She couldn’t tell him about the cane—he wouldn’t understand. As everyone in the office knew, he lived in the same house as his two beloved grandmothers, not to mention his mother and aunt. All those women must have doted on him ever since he was a baby, and now he began to stroke Genya’s hair, gently pulling her toward him. They managed to fit on the tiny sofa. Dima didn’t dare undress Genya; he simply hiked up her skirt. The first time was chaotic, the second a little better paced—during army service Dima had acquired theoretical knowledge, which he now applied. The grandmother never left the room.

Early in the morning Dima jumped off the sofa, kissed Genya on the forehead, and ran off to his remedial courses. They never slept together again, but eight and a half months later Genya gave birth to a son.

Why did she keep the baby? When later that morning she finally peered into the room, she didn’t find anyone there, just the cane and her grandmother’s purse in their usual places. Genya’s next-door neighbor told her that, coming home late from the theater, she found the grandmother in the doorway, unconscious. The ambulance didn’t come for an hour, but when they finally took her, the grandmother was still alive. The neighbor’s voice was full of reproach. Two weeks later, having buried her grandmother, Genya vowed to keep the child who was now her only family—a touching but impractical decision.

Dima soon transferred to another department as a junior editor; he was preparing to enter college, was overworked, and always greeted Genya with a luminous smile, the way people greet their old teachers whom they’d love to chat with if only they had time. By spring, however, his sunny expression became a mask of stunned politeness, for Genya had grown very big and shuffled around heavily; she still looked relatively well groomed, despite the ungodly heat, only her lips had puffed up like an African woman’s, and she constantly wiped them with a big crumpled handkerchief. Dima continued to smile politely at her, appearing not to notice her transformed body. An innocent country boy, he didn’t seem to understand what causes what and how long it takes.

But Genya’s department could tally the months, even though they knew nothing of what had happened to Genya, who never made a secret of anything, and who was much loved and trusted by her colleagues. Toward the end, one of her colleagues, Artem Mikhailovich, Genya’s devoted admirer, took Dima aside and informed him that soon he was going to become a father. A child was going to have a child. Dima beamed his usual smile. For the last time Genya passed through the cafeteria like a yacht, white with blue shadows under her eyes, but Dima still noticed nothing. All May he was gone, studying for the final exams at his extension school. He came back for a month and then disappeared again, to stand his university entrance exams.

In the middle of August he appeared again. Artem stopped him in the corridor and informed Dima he was a father to a son. Here’s the address.

Three of Genya’s colleagues went to the hospital to greet her at the gate, in accordance with tradition. The department’s head, Svetlana, carried flowers, vodka, and cake for the nurses. Artem carried a passel of baby clothes. Dasha carried Genya’s personal items. All three were pleased: their mom was no worse than others. They gave everything to the attending nurse and sat down on the porch beside a small crowd of someone’s country relatives. Among grandmas in kerchiefs and uncles in cloth caps they spotted the shining Dima with a bouquet of gladioli—it was his family, it turned out. Finally Genya herself appeared with a nurse.

Dima received the baby from the nurse’s arms and presented it to his family. Grandmas took a long look and proclaimed, “Dima’s!” The uncle produced a bottle and plastic cups from his sack, and everyone drank to the baby’s health. Then Genya took the child, waved everyone good-bye, and departed in a cab with a girlfriend. Genya’s colleagues and Dima’s confused relatives began to walk to the subway. Dima was beaming; he told Svetlana his college exams had gone well.

A year passed. Genya returned to work. Times were hard. The nanny consumed Genya’s entire salary, while Genya subsisted on bread and potatoes and dressed in hand-me-downs. Like many impoverished women she gained a lot of weight. At work she no longer smiled and always tried to leave early. Dima, skinny as a stick, was still on the floor below, working full-time and studying at night. Despite being overworked, he visited little Egor every Saturday, sitting by his crib and watching over him. He slept in the kitchen. His family was dirt-poor, it turned out, and both brother and uncle drank heavily. The uncle soon died. Before Dima finished his six-year college marathon, his brother died, too, also from moonshine poisoning. Only a single aunt was left, and Dima stayed with her in her two-room apartment in Moscow. He was a full editor now, with a college degree. Genya, who had long given up the unaffordable nanny, sent the boy to a boarding preschool, where he stayed Monday through Friday. Every Friday night Dima picked him up and brought him home to Genya. He stayed with them on weekends. On Mondays he took the boy back to his school.

Little Egor called Dima Papa. He had both papa and mama, like other children. When the boy was to go to first grade, Dima moved his family to the apartment bequeathed to him by his aunt, whose crutches were still standing in a corner. In spite of the smell of frugal poverty, the apartment was clean, with freshly washed floors, homespun runners, and a white cloth on the kitchen table. Little Egor fell in love with his new home, where he had his own little room and a real desk, which papa had found and fixed for him. Genya quit her old job and began selling potted plants at an outdoor market. Dima was admitted to graduate school and picked up some teaching there; in addition, he tutored high school students. They had a small house in the country, Dima’s old family nest, where they spent summer weekends and where Genya grew her plants. She rented out her studio apartment.

They never fought. Occasionally Dima drank himself unconscious—the legacy of generations of alcoholics—but Genya knew how to end his binges. In a brilliant move she saved some money and bought him a secondhand car. Dima spent all his free time under that car, fixing and tuning. Now they could travel to the country in comfort, in their own vehicle, instead of a packed commuter train with a sweaty crowd and their luggage.

Is that it? Not quite. First: Genya never married Dima. Second: Although life had hardened Dima and Genya to the strength of steel, little Egor grew into a softhearted boy without will or ambition. One could see in him the ghosts of Dima’s male ancestors—useless, sweet-natured drunks—while on his mother’s side the story of his conception foretold frivolity and random liaisons.