Manuel Rivas - Books Burn Badly

Girl’s. A queen’s. It really hurt. Each root was a girl or queen.

Like counting hairs on a dog.

He’d always been told there was a good guy and a bad guy. Where was the good guy then? He finally arrived. An inspector who only talked. Talked to him about outings. Outings on a motorbike. A blonde girl. A blonde girl’s father.

‘Don’t you go pissing outside your pot any more. Listen to me. You ride that girl again, they’ll slap a clamp on your balls you’ll regret for the rest of your life. Do you know what it is to be accused of fucking a minor?’

‘I’m a minor as well. We used a condom. Next to the lighthouse.’

‘A condom? Tell the magistrate that and he’ll make it an aggravating factor. You used a condom next to the city’s main monument. Have you any idea what country you’re living in? Whose daughter she is? You can’t go in there. They think you’re a goat. A bum. A zero.’

A zero?

He liked the way this cop talked. He sounded like he was self-taught.

‘She’s the one who’s in love with me. I don’t give a damn.’

‘Said the cat walking over the coals. Remember this. Water doesn’t mix with oil, Spain doesn’t mix with France. Stay away from that convent school. The further, the better. Or they’ll separate your body from your soul. What’s the name of that other gang?’

‘What other gang?’

‘Don’t act dumb with me. The ones you fight to see who can make it to Charon’s boat first.’

Whose boat? Charon’s? He was definitely self-taught.

‘Those pricks are the Mau Mau.’

‘Then watch out. Think you’re clever and you’ll find the worst Mau Mau is an angel next to a senior official whose daughter is being fucked by a red devil.’

He didn’t wait to be asked.

‘Take a good look,’ he said to the crane operator. ‘You can see everything inside my head. Now is it or is it not empty?’

A shiver. He didn’t like the locks, but right now he missed the boy with long hair. He was tempted to cover it so that Curtis wouldn’t see. Curtis was very sensitive about blows to the head.

‘It looks like a sphere. The terrestrial globe.’

‘And you’re the one who says I’m not self-taught. That champion you keep talking about, no one’s heard of him. There’s no memory of him. At the snooker club or gym. Arturo da Silva? No fucking idea!’

He liked to visit the crane operator’s cabin. You climbed a ladder and were in another country. The crane was on the jetty, but in a floating world. Over there, the crowns of trees with starlings fluttering about like winter leaves. In front, the decks of ships, their masts, the piles or mountains of material waiting to be loaded, stripped of their old reality, as was the case with goods that had been unloaded. There were the red, double-decker buses, which had been pensioned off in London. Korea had also witnessed the landing of studs from Canada whose purpose it was to improve the Galician race. One of the bulls had got hurt on the journey and had to be lowered on the crane, tied in with leather straps. It hung in the air for a time, calm as a totem, with the starlings flying around. Another crane operator, a friend of Ponte’s, had lifted an American plane rescued with its pilot by a Galician fishing boat in the Great Sole, on the Irish Sea. What most amazed him, an operation he watched in silence for hours, was when Ponte loaded a ship with three hundred coffins for export, ‘Made in Galicia’.

‘They’re for a rich country. Chestnut wood. Immortal.’

Korea thought there was a link between things hanging in the air, a kind of sustained vulnerability. The Canadian stud with the broken horns, the plane with the detached wings, the old London buses, the empty coffins.

Inside the cabin, Miguel or Korea could handle a historic jewel. The first football to reach the city. The genuine article. Made of English leather. It had fallen off a ship, the Diligent , and not made it back on board. The crew scoured the port, but of course they didn’t find it. When someone’s looking lost, it’s said they’re searching for the Diligent ’s ball. And somehow or other, Ramón Ponte had inherited the ball from his father.

He also had a pair of boxing gloves.

Hercules’ gloves. From his first and only official fight.

‘Look. This is where the tooth was. Back then, they never wore a gumshield. Not on that day. And here’s where the tooth got embedded. Not any old tooth. Manlle’s tooth.’

‘Manlle’s?’

‘You think I’m lying? Do you think he could lie?’

The ‘he’ in question was Vicente Curtis, Hercules. Down below, at the foot of the crane’s ladder, his horse was waiting. Carirí.

‘Because he was a champ. Those who lost against him in the ring added their own bullet, their own bit of torment. One of the shots went through the palm of his left hand. A mark left by the murderers. Lots of corpses turned up with a shot in the left hand. But the thing is he was also left-handed. Apparently they made him box. Crippled, lame and blind. His face smashed in. Who knows what they said to him. “Go on, hit, dance! Let’s see you dance, champ!” Like cowards. It was over there, on the other side of the bay. A few farmers went down to the beach to collect seaweed with which to fertilise the land. They took pity on the dead man and loaded him on to the ox-cart, in amongst the seaweed, so that they could give him a decent burial.’

‘I still don’t understand,’ insisted Korea.

‘How could you understand?’ replied the crane operator angrily. ‘Your brain’s in a mess. You spend your whole day getting into fights, like someone who’s playing, and you’re incapable of seeing what real violence is. A dictatorship is permanent war. The whole country has been conquered.’

‘Conquered? Who conquered it?’

‘Cain and the god who made him! You are dumb. You’ve no sense of history. You’ve no. . no visual angle.’

‘I can see very well, thank you,’ said Korea. And he span around like a crane. ‘History was the only subject I passed. History and Religion. So you see. I know all about conquest, reconquest and Cain.’

‘You spend your whole day in the snooker club and you’ve a brain the size of a snooker ball. Imagine Al Capone was appointed governor to keep order.’

‘I can imagine that, see?’

‘We all have to start somewhere.’

The one called Korea became thoughtful. He wanted to say something about snooker, but couldn’t put his finger on the idea. He knew the other was taking the mickey, as if he’d hung him on the crane’s hook by a nappy. He jumped in and said to the crane operator, ‘I don’t like what you’re insinuating.’ He was subtle in his own way and the bit about the snooker ball sounded humiliating. He wouldn’t have allowed anyone else to treat him like that, but the operator was special. An Autodidact. There were two guys in the world Korea respected, the actor Robert Mitchum and the crane operator. If he was self-taught, then surely the actor was as well. They looked almost identical. Yes. Being an Autodidact was something different from, and more important than, a profession.

It affects your whole being, from top to bottom, head to toe. You can’t be an Autodidact only in part.

‘Aren’t I an Autodidact? Everything I know is self-taught,’ alleged Korea. He glanced at his hands. A tribute to Mitchum, in The Night of the Hunter , who had LOVE tattooed on one hand and HATE on the other.

Stringer, to a certain extent, was also self-taught. Curtis was an Autodidact. So was Mr Gantes. But he wasn’t.

‘Why not?’

‘You could be, but you’ve a branch of madness.’

He said it as if he really did have a vegetal appendix, a climber sprouting out of his head. There were things only a genuine Autodidact could know. And he gave him an example.