Adam Levin - The Instructions

I said to Benji, Walk me to the Office.

“Office shmoffice!” Benji said. “You’re killing the momentum. What’s in the Office, anyway? We’ve only got fifteen minutes before detention — twelve minutes, just — don’t you wanna go outside by the buses?”

I said, I got called.

He said, “That note the new kid brought? That was so long ago — say you forgot.”

I said, You know I did the scoreboard, right?

He said, “I know I didn’t do it, and Vincie and Leevon were in the Cage all day, so…”

I said, Brodsky’s expecting me to come to the Office and get my record. I made this really big deal out of getting my record this morning, and if I don’t go and get it now, then he’ll think I’m avoiding him. It should only take a minute, anyway — then I’ll come out by the buses.

Benji said, “I’ll walk you.”

Eliyahu came up beside us, raving, “…and this Cage should fall — that boy who wet…”

I said to him, This is Benji Nakamook. I said, Don’t fear him.

“And why should I fear him?” said Eliyahu.

I said, You shouldn’t.

He said, “But I don’t. Still, this wet boy, I think it was the second-worst thing I’ve ever seen — with his hand in the air. Did you see his hand in the air?”

It was too hard to think about Ben-Wa right then. Right then, I was thinking about gliders and June and getting my record.

I said, Eliyahu, did your mood just change?

He said, “Why should my mood change?”

I said, Look at Main Hall.

He said, “It’s filled with people who are desperate to get out of it. This I should celebrate? They will get out shortly and I will go to detention. This I should celebrate?”

Benji said, “You drain my buzz, new kid.”

The three of us headed through the Main Hall rush together, Benji in the middle and two steps in front of us, squinting his eyes, cutting a tunnel from the crowd with his elbows.

Halfway to the Office, I saw June putting books in her locker, talking to some shaved-headed girl I didn’t know, and my throat went dry and chokey. I had the poem to give her, and the Coke and the pass-pad I’d risked getting steps for, but I couldn’t give them to her in front of some girl I didn’t know, and even if I could, there was no table there to throw the pass-pad onto while I made the “I thought you might need a coaster” joke. If I threw the pad on the Main Hall floor, the joke would lose conceptual integrity and the pad would get stomped on by the traffic.

What I did then was chomsky. If, after Hashem replaced Isaac with the goat, Avraham, instead of slaying the goat, had thought to himself, “But I was prepared to kill my own son!” and then turned from the goat and slain Isaac, it would have been just a little bit more chomsky than me, once I saw June in my path, thinking, “It’s not time yet,” and then ducking between Nakamook and Eliyahu before she could spot me. But that’s what I did. I mistook a blessing for an inconvenience.

Nakamook said, “She’s right there, klebold. The girl of your dreams.”

I said, Keep walking.

We kept walking.

“Which girl is this?” said Eliyahu.

Nakamook said, “The redhead.”

Eliyahu looked over his shoulder. He said to me, “You love a Gentile?”

I said, She’s not a Gentile.

“She looks a Gentile,” said Eliyahu.

“Who cares?” said Nakamook.

I said, Hashem wouldn’t fall me in love with a Gentile.

Nakamook asked Eliyahu: “You think I look pretty Gentile?”

I didn’t hear what Eliyahu said, though. I’d already turned into the Office by the time he’d responded — either that, or he spoke too softly.

Jelly Rothstein’s sister Ruth was leaning against Pinge’s desk, tapping a mint against her teeth so it clicked. Across from her, crowding the waiting chairs, were four Main Hall Shovers who seemed short of breath. June’s ex, Josh Berman, was one of the four, but I wasn’t yet aware of that; Blake Acer’s face was the only one I knew. (What’s more is despite the fact that Berman’s existence loomed sudden and huge over all of my thoughts, I didn’t even consider the possibility that he, himself, might be standing before me. In the few hours since Lunch, when I’d banished the thought of him, Berman had become, by way of said banishment, a mythic figure of such towering stature that to just bump into him would’ve seemed about as likely to me as just bumping into an American President, or Natalie Portman. Philip Roth, even.) In Acer’s right hand was a bright orange boxcutter, on the far chair a cardboard carton. He knelt on the chair that I fell in love with June in, sliced through the tape, reached into the carton, and came out with a handful of 2006 scarves. The scarves were, as Ruth had reported they’d be in “Nada y Pues Nada”—the last installment of “State of School Spirit,” her three-part series for the Aptakisic News— entirely absent of disputed embroidery. I stepped a little closer to get a better look, partly because June had dated a Shover — but only partly. I’d been following the controversy surrounding the scarves ever since I’d started attending Aptakisic. For the Main Hall Shovers, this moment was colossal.

******Ten weeks earlier, in the first week of school, Blake Acer got elected Shover president. The margin was narrow, 31 to 30, and the platform he ran on was scarf redesign, though by Rothstein’s analysis, his win was dynastic.

Acer’s brother Wayne had founded the Shovers. This had happened back in 2002. Rothstein couldn’t get an interview with Wayne, but according to a sidebar titled “Dawn of the Shovers” (also by Rothstein), Shoverlore had it that, after seeing Scorsese’s Gangs of New York , Wayne read fifty pages of the book in one day. Pausing only for dinner in front of the TV, he saw footage of a riot in England on a newsbreak: soccer fans storming the field of a stadium, stomping on rivals, trampling each other, uprooting seating, full story at ten. Wayne glugged down some milk and went back upstairs, googled the search terms “soccer” and “violence,” and came across an excerpt from a book about hooligans — no one remembers the title. He biked to the bookstore and purchased the book, took it back home and read fifteen pages, then broke for the news and an ice cream. The hooligans profiled protected each other. The clubs they belonged to had tough-sounding names, and they were always together, sharing a cause, making up cheers, and probably — even the fat ones, Wayne bet, even the pimpled — getting girls. They wore matching scarves sewn with intricate crests that despite being scarves were totally masculine, and all because of soccer, the girliest sport you could play without a shuttlecock.

The next day at Recess, Wayne told his story. No one wrote the speech down, but its opening was famous: “I’ve read sixty-five pages and we need to get scarves because basketball is better than soccer.”

By the end of the week, the paperwork was finished. Wayne filed a petition with twenty-five names and Miss Kimble signed on as the faculty sponsor. Like the Sci-Fi and Fantasy and Pastry-Lovers clubs — unlike Squaw Squad, Debate Team, or Band — the Shovers got semi-private status. They could meet twice a month after school in the gym, under Miss Kimble’s supervision, but the school would provide no bus-space for away-games, no section in the bleachers, no official uniforms. Shovers ordered and paid for their scarves themselves.

Twenty-one guys formed the club that first year, about 7 percent of Aptakisic’s male students. Anyone who wasn’t a bandkid could join. Bandkids were the enemies of the Main Hall Shovers: partly because their purpose rivaled the Shovers’ (though they did give an annual concert in Spring, the primary function of the Braves Brass Band was to “support” the Indians during pregames and rallies and homegame halftimes); partly because they got the best seats on the bleachers; mostly because the Shovers needed kids to harrass to buttress their identity and keep up morale, and whereas the few counterparts they had in the conference (i.e., the Knifelike Fangs at Heinrich Junior High, the Uberdunk Slammies at Twin Groves Middle, and the Kinderpop Pep Squad at Sandburg Middle) were encountered but twice per season at most, the bandkids were everywhere, always.