Adam Levin - The Instructions

You’d ring the doorbell on the outer wall of the doorway.

The monitor would unlock the door of the Cage and step into the doorway, where he’d look at you through the diamond-shaped spaces of the gate.

You’d hand your pass to the monitor, and if the pass was acceptable, the monitor would open the gate and let you in.

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If you didn’t have a pass or if your pass was unacceptable, then the monitor would write you a pass to go to the Office and get a new pass, and when you’d done that, you’d come back to the Cage and start over at 1.

There were only a few situations in which the entrance protocol didn’t apply. One was if you were coming back from Gym on time: there’d be a group of you, and after one of you rang the bell, the monitor would stand behind the gate and let the group in, single-file, checking each kid off on his clipboard as they passed him. Another situation was if you were coming back from Lunch-Recess. If you came back from Lunch-Recess at the end of Lunch-Recess, it worked just like coming back from Gym on time, except the group of you would be much larger since Lunch-Recess period was the same for everyone at Aptakisic (between periods 4 and 5). If you came back from Lunch-Recess within the first ten minutes of Lunch-Recess — in which case you’d be taking advantage of what the Cage Manual called “The Hot Lunch Caveat” ***—you’d usually be alone, and your tray of hot lunch would, itself, be your pass. The only other situation where the entrance protocol didn’t apply was when you were coming back from your therapist’s — you didn’t need a pass then, either. You’d knock on the door that connected Call-Me-Sandy’s and Bonnie Wilkes PsyD’s office to the Cage, and Botha would unlock it, let you in, and that would be that.

Even though all but a very senior few teachers were regularly rotated into the Cage for two periods per week each, none of them had keys to get in, and, like the students, every one of them had to ring the bell and wait at the gate for the monitor to open it. There were, in all of Aptakisic, only five people who had keys to the Cage: Brodsky, Floyd, Jerry, Hector the janitor, and Victor Botha.

Victor Botha was the monitor. His righthand was just an opposable thumb, which is something certain monkeys don’t have. The hand had been chopped by a crop-grinder on the island of Australia when Botha was small. It was probably a tragedy when it happened, but it was hard to tell so many years later because he became an adult who deserved a chopped hand. Botha always went beyond the entrance protocol.

That morning proved no exception. As I’d approached the gate, Mr. Frazier in tow, I’d done 1: I rang the bell and waited.

And Botha’d done 2: He came out and looked at me through the chain-link gate.

Seeing Botha, Mr. Frazier took off, and that’s when I’d executed my part of 3: I pushed my pass through a diamond-shaped space of the gate.

But then instead of doing his part of 3—checking to see if the pass was acceptable — Botha caulked a trickle. He didn’t even take the pass out of my fingers. He said, “Show me your pass.” He said the same thing every time. I had been at the gate at least a hundred times, and he knew I knew the protocol. Him saying “Show me your pass” was like a mugger holding a gun in your mouth and saying, “You better do what I say because I have a gun in your mouth.” Or if a man behind the counter of a hot-dog stand who just passed you a hot dog said, “Now pay me the money you owe me for that hot dog.” It makes it seem like if you do what the man says, you’ll be doing it because he says to, when that’s not true. When you do what the mugger says, you do it because he has a gun. When you pay the hot-dog guy, it’s because you owe money for the hot dog. If the mugger didn’t have a gun, you would not do what he said. If you didn’t owe money for the hot dog, you wouldn’t pay the hot-dog guy. If Botha wasn’t the monitor, or if we weren’t at school, I wouldn’t give him my pass.

When Adonai told Moses to bring water from the rock in the Sinai by speaking to the rock, Moses not only struck the rock instead of talking to it, but he said to the Israelites who were gathered for the miracle, “Listen now, O rebels, shall we bring forth water for you from this rock?” like it was him, Moses, who would bring forth the water, when it was God who would bring it forth. Even though these were the only wrong actions Moses took in all his life, and even though Moses was understandably upset — he had just come down the mountain only to discover his brothers engaged in acts of idolatry — it was for his having taken these two wrong actions that God never let him inside of Israel.

I wanted to remind Botha of his limitations, but I was not Hashem and Botha was no Moses. There was no promised land for me to lock him in a cave outside of. So I did what is called a Harpo Progression of Defiance. The first step in the progression was that I pulled the pass back out of the diamond-shaped space and dropped it on the floor.

“Pack it up,” Botha said.

Botha was the monitor and I had to do what the monitor said, so I picked the pass up.

Then I dropped it.

“Pack it up and do not drop it,” he said.

I picked it up and I folded it in four. I pushed it through the gate.

“Unfold it,” he said.

I unfolded it. Then I balled it up and threw it at the lockers behind me, then held up my pointer-finger = I’ll be right back, and I ran toward the lockers and picked the pass up and came back to the gate and folded the pass and unfolded it and tore a notch into each corner of it.

He could not ask me to untear a notch.

So I pushed the pass through the gate. That was the end of the progression.

Harpo Progressions make me laugh because they make both the Harpo and the mark look silly. When the mark doesn’t laugh at the progression, it is a sign of internal robotics, and I think that is even funnier.

Botha didn’t laugh because all he could think about was how stupid he would sound if he sent me to the Office. If he sent me to the Office for doing a progression, I would get a detention, but I always had one anyway, and Botha would look like he was failing at his job as the monitor. The monitor was supposed to know how to run the Cage and the kids inside it. The monitor was not supposed to get played like a straightman.

So he didn’t send me to the Office. He said, “You’re late for Group.”

I’d forgotten about Group. It was Tuesday. I had Group every Tuesday for half an hour before Lunch.

Let me in, then, I said.

He said, “Go around.” He pushed the pass back through the gate.

It would have been faster to go through the Cage; there was a door connecting it directly to Call-Me-Sandy’s office, and if I’d been allowed to enter the Cage, I could have walked a straight line to Group. Since he wouldn’t let me in, I had to walk C-Hall down to 2-Hall, then walk across 2-Hall to B-Hall, and walk up B-Hall for the same amount of steps that I walked down C-Hall to get to 2-Hall. It would take at least an extra minute to get to Sandy’s B-hall entrance. Botha knew it would, and he made me go around to punish me. He thought that because it was important to him that everyone got everywhere on time, it was important to me to be on time. But it was only important to him. I liked walking in the hallways. Especially by myself. And why would anyone rather go in the Cage?

But what was the most dumont about what Botha did was how he said “You’re late for Group” to me, like it mattered, like it was something to be concerned about, and how then he did the only small robot thing he could to make me even later to Group. My mom would call this passive-aggressive behavior. PAB. She’d also call certain forms of laughter PAB. She’d say that Harpo Progressions of Defiance were PAB, too, but then she’d laugh when I’d tell her about the progressions I performed at school. So would my dad. They always laughed at the same things. Except Woody Allen. On one of their first dates, they rented Broadway Danny Rose and nearly broke up. Even over a decade later, my dad still shivered when he recalled it. He described the experience as being “a little bit less fun, perhaps, than chain-smoking for ninety minutes while handcuffed to a dowager with asthma who used to teach Health and smells incontinent.”