Rafik Schami - The Dark Side of Love

George Mushtak handed Elias over to Father Philippus with those very words. But the boy gave no one much of an opportunity to punish him. He was industrious and obedient, clean and courteous. After less than six months he was teacher’s pet, which annoyed his fellow pupils. They took him behind a bush at break and beat him up. The boy trembled at the prospect every morning. He saw the peasants mercilessly beating their little donkeys, and often thought he might be related to those animals. Indeed, the schoolboys who saw his prick shouted, “You’re not a boy, you’re a donkey!” Elias felt immense love for the donkeys.

In the summer of 1924 Father Julian Baston turned up in Mala, looking for talented boys to join the Jesuit order. Baston was tall and athletically built. A Frenchman by birth, he had thick grey hair and clever little eyes. He was around forty, but looked much older.

Father Julian spotted the ten-year-old on a visit to St. Giorgios elementary school, which all the Catholic village children attended. Elias’s bright face in itself was a pleasure to see, among the other scarred and dirty countenances. After talking to the delicate boy, the Jesuit visited Mushtak’s house. George received him with great dignity, and was delighted to find that Father Julian spoke perfect Arabic.

Julian Baston was frank. He confided his secret to Elias’s father: the country needed more trained priests than the wretched handful left behind by the now defunct Ottoman Empire. “They’re not priests, they’re Antichrists,” said the Jesuit, “they’ve let our Christian faith degenerate into an Oriental orgy of eating and drinking shrouded by incense fumes. They don’t understand a word of the sacred texts they parrot, so anyone who hears the word of Islam won’t hold out against it for long.”

Father Julian explained his thinking at length. The region was awash with mineral oil, and one day it would be a major centre of the international economy. But Islam was not in any position to manage such wealth. To that end, it was time to begin setting up elite Christian schools. And such schools called for intelligent, well-educated priests.

“We have renovated and reopened several tumbledown monasteries. There’s a beautiful Dominican institution that we’ve refurbished in Damascus. If you agree, that’s where Elias would live,” the Jesuit went on, in friendly tones.

“But don’t the Muslims give you any problems?” asked George Mushtak, sceptically.

“No, we have good relations with several Sunni families who help us get access to the important decision-makers. Our only problems are with the Orthodox Christians, because they realize that Catholicism is gaining ground.”

“Ah, they’re worse than the Muslims. Here in Mala we have those crafty devils the Shahins to deal with. The man Shahin is a Judas who ruled the whole village before I arrived, and was in league with the local Muslims to enslave good Catholics. Now he can’t live with the fact that I, a Catholic, have taken over as leader here. Have you seen our church?”

“Yes, yes, indeed, and I know that your donations and your determination alone made all those repairs possible, all those wonderful frescos. But we in Damascus need your help too, we need your generosity so that our students can get the teaching they need to become good priests. For with all due respect to Islam …”

George Mushtak hated Islam. He was glad to hear that educated Europeans shared his views. So he interrupted his guest. “I can feel no respect for a gang who murdered my mother and my sister! For cowardly reasons of revenge! Just because a Muslim woman threw in her lot with a Christian man.”

“I’m sorry, I don’t understand,” said the Jesuit quietly.

“No one can understand it,” replied Mushtak, and his eyes grew damp.

The visitor, a clever man, sensed that his host was struggling with a bitter memory and trying to keep his composure. All was suddenly still in the large drawing room where cool twilight reigned behind the drawn curtains. George rose to his feet, opened the door, and called to his housekeeper to make some good coffee flavoured with cardamom for his distinguished visitor. Then he closed the door again and returned to the guest, forcing himself to smile.

“Forgive the strength of my reaction, but some memories keep coming up again, like undigested food repeating.”

“We must learn to forgive, however,” said the priest.

“I can forgive anything but the murder of my mother and my sister.”

During his training, the Jesuit had read a great deal about guilt and atonement, revenge and clan feeling among the Arabs, and he knew there were subjects better not discussed with an Arab if you were or wanted to be his friend.

“I understand you,” replied the experienced priest. Mushtak felt that he had triumphed. One of the greatest miracles on earth, as he saw it, was to make a European who was also a scholar and a churchman understand well-justified hatred.

Soon after this the fragrant coffee was brought in. The housekeeper had added a plate of butter cookies.

“Elias is a rose who cannot flower among the thistles of Mala,” said the priest, returning to his request.

“A rose maybe,” replied Mushtak, “but with a huge thorn of a prick. I’ll give you the boy and a hundred gold lira.”

The priest’s wish was like manna from heaven to George. For more than seven years to come he would sleep more easily than ever before, since he wasn’t at all interested in what his son did behind the high monastery walls.

Elias didn’t mind parting from his family either. He was sorry only for his sister Malake, who shed tears whenever she mentioned his imminent departure. When it was time to say goodbye, his father reluctantly gave the boy his hand. Elias kissed it and pressed it to his forehead, as custom ordained, but George did not return the kiss. The proffered hand was not a bridge, but acted like a barrier keeping his son at a distance. The boy’s father went no further than the front gate.

That made Elias feel deeply humiliated. Accompanied by his big brother he reached the bus, gave his case to the conductor, and found a window seat.

“Don’t let it bother you. He’s not in a good mood today,” Salman consoled him. But Elias felt angry with his father, who had given such threadbare reasons to explain why he couldn’t take him to the monastery in Damascus himself.

“That’s all right,” he said, close to tears. He looked over his brother’s head, and at that moment he saw his sister, who was four years older than him. She was trying to reach him to say goodbye. But their father slapped her face, pushed her back into the courtyard and quickly closed the door so that she couldn’t get out again.

“Look after Malake. Our father will kill her yet,” Elias said quietly to his brother. Salman glanced at their father, standing stiffly in front of the gate of his property, and smiled.

“Father wouldn’t kill anyone, but Malake is a stubborn goat,” he replied.

Their father had never liked Malake either. There had been frequent beatings, but only for the two of them. Just two days ago he had hit Malake during a meal for secretly taking a bite of his own piece of bread. Mushtak had strictly forbidden that kind of thing. Everyone’s share of bread was handed out. Not that there was any shortage of food, but Malake’s father believed you took years off another person’s life if you bit into his bread. Elias thought this superstition was ridiculous, but Malake didn’t. “It’s not superstition. I’m always eating his bread in secret. Sometimes he catches me at it, that’s all.”

The bus driver, who had hooted five minutes ago and was now roaring his engine, switched it off and went to have another cup of tea with the barber.