Rafael Yglesias - Fearless

“Where were you?” Jonah asked fearlessly.

“I stayed in the Plaza Hotel last night. I got a room way up on a high floor and saw all of Central Park at night. It looked great. Spooky and grand.”

“Mom was scared,” Jonah said. “I overheard her calling everybody. She almost called the police!” Jonah’s face flushed at the effort of saying so many sentences.

“I’m here now. I’m not going anyplace. How’s your buddy Sam?” Max asked. Carla’s instructions about Jeff’s children had stuck with him.

Jonah shrugged. “He’s okay, I guess. He’s been kind of a pain, actually,” he said softly. He groaned and turned toward his pillow. “I’m tired,” he mumbled.

Max stroked his head. “When you’re better I’m going to show you and Sam a house his father and I did. The Zuckerman house. It was a pretty good design and Jeff had a nice idea about the patio. Anyway, I’m going to teach the two of you about architecture.”

Jonah rolled away to gain some distance on his father. He propped his pale head on a hand and blinked sleepily. “I don’t wanna learn about architecture,” he said.

“I’m teaching you anyway. I’m your father and I’m your teacher. It’s the only thing I know how to teach. You don’t have to be good at it. You don’t have to like it. You don’t have to do it when you grow up. But I have to teach it to you.”

Jonah watched his father for a moment or two. He pursed his lips thoughtfully. “Okay,” he said at last with a sigh. “You’re the boss.”

“That’s right,” Max said. He pulled the bed-sheet up to his son’s chin. He heard the front door opening.

“I’m back!” Debby called in. She entered Jonah’s room. She had no makeup on and she was still in her black cloak. She carried a narrow white bag from the pharmacy. She looked like a sickly child herself, pale and sad-eyed.

“I’m home, honey,” Max said to her. She had come to a halt just inside the door. She stared at him. “Peace?” he said with a smile.

Debby frowned. She threw the bag at him. “He needs this.”

Max gave Jonah a dose of Tylenol. Debby fussed around his bed, gathering used tissues, smoothing the sheets, drawing the shades. Jonah protested each action, moaning, “Just leave me alone. I’m fine.”

Max went to the kitchen and made himself coffee. Debby joined him eventually. She came in and poured herself a cup. She didn’t meet his eyes. Her mouth was tight, furious.

“I told Jonah,” Max said, “that when he’s better I want to show him and Sam the Zuckerman house.”

Debby looked at him sharply. Her eyes stared, shifting from rage to wariness. “Why?”

“I think Sam — I guess I should take Jake too, he’s old enough — they should see something their father made. I have to start spending more time with those boys. I have to spend more time with Jonah too. Teach him what I know. It’s not much, but that’s what fathers do, right?”

“Fathers stay home,” Debby said in a scolding voice. “Fathers are home to take care of their sons.”

“Not always,” Max said. “Not all fathers. You can’t expect that of every man. Jeff’s not going to be home with his children and he was a good father.”

Debby’s rigid annoyed face abruptly loosened. Her mouth buckled, her eyes softened. “What are you saying?” she pleaded, her elegant hands gesturing at him to take her, to dance with her.

He took her hands and reined them in, pulling her toward him. “Do you want me?”

“Of course,” she said in a whisper.

“I mean me ! The real me, not just a security blanket.”

“You haven’t been much of a security blanket lately.”

“That’s right and you don’t like that.”

“This is not my fault. Everything that’s happened isn’t my fault.”

Max looked at her. Her anger was gone. She stared into his eyes as if he had an answer for her, as if he were her best hope.

“You’re right,” Max said. “It isn’t your fault.” It was the structure of their world, its rotting design. He had no choice but to accept its danger and fear its risks. He hugged her. She stayed in his arms, huddled in his chest as if he were a strong shelter. He wasn’t. He was a partner of her fear.

They made sandwiches and ate them together in almost complete silence. They checked on Jonah. He was sleeping heavily but peacefully. They had more coffee and then chatted in a friendly way — in the way they used to before the crash — about Debby’s current crop of students. She had one nine-year-old ballerina she thought very promising. Max proposed they rent a house with Nan and her boys for the summer. Debby agreed, but said with a sly smile, “You can be their father, but you’re not her husband.”

“That’s right,” Max said.

David the doorman buzzed them at two-thirty. Debby answered the intercom. She turned from it with a puzzled expression. “Brillstein’s on his way up,” she said.

Max opened the front door and waited for the elevator to deliver his lawyer. He thought about his options: if Nan needed money he could give it to her. Lying wasn’t necessary, was it? Well, if it was he would lie. Who was Max Klein to think he could be better than the rest of humanity?

Brillstein hopped out of the elevator in yet another new suit. This one was blue. “You’re here!” he cried at the sight of Max. The blue wasn’t a shade Max recognized. It wasn’t deep enough for true navy and yet it seemed to want to be that dark. Max didn’t care for the color. At least the suit seemed to fit Brillstein better, although it was double-breasted and the short man seemed shorter in the wide cut.

Brillstein carried a bottle of champagne under one arm and a white baker’s box balanced on his attaché case. He bustled in. “I’m here to celebrate. I hope you like champagne. And in here—” Brillstein had put the bottle on their dining room table. He fumbled at the delicate red-and-white-striped string on the box. “—are my favorite indulgence…chocolate-covered strawberries!”

“Mmmm,” Debby said. And then she looked at Max regretfully.

“What are we celebrating?” Max asked.

“You’re not going to believe what happened. We’re settled. I can’t believe it myself. It’s an incredible story. I spoke to Gil Parker this morning—” Brillstein had the box open. “Take,” he said, offering the contents to Debby. “He’s the outside counsel for TransCon. We hondeled and we hondeled and we agreed on a figure. One million seven hundred fifty thousand. You have to understand—”

Debby said, “Wow.” She took a strawberry and said to Max with regret, “You can’t.”

“No, no, that’s not what the final figure was.” Brillstein popped a chocolate strawberry in his mouth. He chewed it furiously and spoke through its thick pleasures. “That’s not the whole story.”

“I’m going to get glasses for the champagne,” Debby said. “Speak up.”

“Sure,” Brillstein said. “I’ll talk loud.” He offered Max a chocolate strawberry. Then he quickly withdrew the box. “Oh, she said you can’t.”

Max took it. “Of course I can. Go on with your story.”

“Well, I had scheduled a lunch today with Jameson, the in-house counsel, the man Parker reports to. He’s given Parker the broad range of figures to offer us and left it to Parker to get the best deal he can. By the time Parker and I have agreed to figures, it’s time for me to meet Jameson at Gloucester House if you please. Parker doesn’t know I’m seeing Jameson for lunch but I figure he’s going to talk to him soon because our deal is contingent on Jameson approving the final figures, although it’s understood that’s just a formality. So, with a four-million-dollar deal almost finished, off I go to Gloucester House.” Brillstein angled himself to one side and then the other; with one turn he buttoned his jacket closed, and with the other he straightened his dashing yellow tie. Evidently he meant to imitate a fashionable man arriving at an elegant eatery.