Rafael Yglesias - Fearless

The plane is on fire. He smelled the acrid fumes of plastic and synthetic fabric burning. It’s poisonous. We’re both upside down and strapped into our seats. He released his belt and dropped right onto his knees. He knew that the fall must have hurt them, but he felt nothing. He wasn’t numb, yet he felt no pain. You’re in shock, he told himself. Out of the corner of his eye he saw a woman compressed between what must have been two or three rows jumbled together. She was dead, of course, but what sickened him was the irrational look of her body, squashed into a shape that he couldn’t comprehend.

He reached up and unbuckled Byron, catching the boy’s legs as he dropped. Lowering himself to cushion the fall he saw another incredible sight—

A newborn baby nested in an infant seat. The upper edge of its cradle had been caught and was suspended in a mass of wires and twisted metal. The baby was no more than a few weeks old. It was untouched and untroubled; its little fingers played in the air.

Byron was talking; he seemed to be hitting Max in the side. Max ignored him and reached for the infant. Smoke covered him. He inhaled some of it and felt a sharp pain in his stomach. He got dizzy…The death tide pulled at him, wanting him to linger…

Go Max, hurry!

He sprang out of the morass. He had the infant seat and a part of Byron, hand or arm or foot, he didn’t know what.

There was light off to the side where it shouldn’t be. But he pushed Byron that way.

They passed unforgettable nightmares: bodies smashed or impaled. He shouted at Byron—“Don’t look!”—and it was then that Max saw the worst of all:

Jeff’s greyhound face, eyes filled with blood, lying on its side without a body.

Max looked no more and pushed Byron at the light. Everything, inside and out, screamed at him: Hurry! The yellow cloud filled their vision. They ran right into it and fell out of the plane…

As he dropped, Max let go of Byron in order to hang on to the baby. He twisted while they went down, his back to the ground. He expected to be broken by it…

He landed on straw. No. A sharp green leaf stuck him in the cheek. It was a cornfield. He faced where they had come from, a severed portion of the plane, gaping with torn wires, insulation and destroyed seats. A body was splattered against one edge, merged into the metal.

They were out! They were alive!

The joy of this knowledge coursed through him, electrifying his body with power.

The jet could blow up, he realized, smelling its kerosene fuel and feeling heat from the ruins.

“Come on!” he shouted at Byron, who seemed paralyzed, lying motionless, suspended above the ground by a hammock of cornstalks. On his feet, carrying the baby in the infant seat, Max was surprised that his own body worked so well. He glanced down at his jeans and white sneakers and saw no blood, no soot, nothing: he had escaped pure and untouched.

A man in a white T-shirt and jeans caught Carla as she jumped down from a part of the plane she didn’t recognize. Nothing made sense. The airport was gone. Behind the man and the other people running at her was a farm field, nothing else.

“My baby,” she told him and couldn’t talk, ashamed.

Sirens and people answered her. She couldn’t stand up. Carla slid down onto the T-shirt, resting her head against the belly massed above the belt.

He said something about her leg. But not to her.

“My baby!” she screamed hard, because of all the noise and because she couldn’t be sure of how much volume she was producing.

“Where’s your baby?” This question was asked by a different face, a young one, with shining brown eyes. He seemed to know the truth of what she had done.

“I don’t know!” she begged him to believe her.

“Move it. They’re going to douse her,” a different person answered.

Why? Why do that to me?

“My baby!” With this pronunciation she confessed her cowardice and also told him where to look. His brown eyes didn’t seem to get her meaning, but they grew lighter and forgiving.

“I’ll find him,” he said and was gone.

“From there,” said the belly carrying her, not talking to her. “Here, put your arm around—”

She was lifted above the green trash which had swallowed her feet. Now she could see more. There was the airport and everywhere there were people and cars and fire trucks and openness. She could see the sky and the buildings and soon the ground turned hard underneath and the fact came running at her…Racing alongside all the people was the fact—

Bubble is dead.

“No!” she doubled over. She pushed at the T-shirt and looked back at the horror.

The plane was smashed on the ground, broken in huge pieces like a great animal felled and dismembered and feasted on by insects. They crawled everywhere, spraying water and insinuating into its wounds.

“My baby!” she showed where he must be. In her head she could see Bubble trapped, perfectly fine and happy, but scared, caught inside the smoking tube surrounded by mangled corpses. The T-shirt and a woman in white didn’t pay attention. She pushed at them and ran back.

Only she couldn’t. There was a sharp tug in her left calf, a clean slicing stab, and she fell.

It’s broken, she knew. And she knew that her injury wouldn’t be enough, wouldn’t satisfy God at all. A broken leg was not enough and she sobbed at the woman in white and the T-shirt because nothing would ever make up for this.

Max carried the baby and urged Byron through the high rows of corn until they were past the smoking filet of plane and could see a mob of rescuers running at the wreck from their trucks and cars. The fire fighters raced at the mechanical corpse without hesitation, charging both on foot and in their vehicles.

How brave, Max thought. Passengers stumbled out of white and black snakes of smoke. A man whose pants were torn off and whose shirt was bloodied fell onto the runway as an ambulance reached him. Fire fighters scurried into the jet’s various wounds. It was all so sad and hopeless: they were pygmies unable to save their toppled idol.

Max had to restore the baby to its mother. He believed she was alive although he had no fact to support his faith or any idea who she was. The infant might belong to a number of couples he had noticed while boarding: there were at least a half dozen babies on the plane. Max also felt Byron needed to be restored to normal authority and life. The boy had been dangled over a limitless chasm; he ought to be yanked back to a flat safe world as quickly as possible.

Max carried the infant seat in the crook of his left arm and held Byron’s hand with his free one, guiding him out of the cornfield and onto the runway. There were dozens of tiny cracks in its gray surface that Max had never observed through an airport’s tinted glass or a plane’s plastic windows.

The baby made no sounds. It stared calmly at Max. Byron winced at the hot concrete. His shoes had been collected by the flight attendants. Max was protected by his sneakers. The sun inflicted its glare and heat everywhere, soaking into the pavement and flashing off windows and trucks.

“Ow,” Byron complained. He skipped on the balls of his feet.

Their progress toward the rescuers seemed to be in slow motion. Nobody noticed them. All eyes were on the three sections of the wreck. A long jet of foam peed from the top of a fire truck onto a smoking engine. Passengers continued to appear from the wounds of the DC-10. There were shouts and sirens and an ominous hiss from the plane.

“Look!” an ambulance man pointed at Max.

And then lots of people noticed him, only it couldn’t just be him and he turned to glance back. Behind him, like ghosts, walking at a slow stunned pace were maybe fifteen or twenty people, emerging out of the cornfields.