Sherman Alexie - Indian Killer

“The Smithsonian Museum?”

“Yeah, can you believe it? They displayed Jack’s head like it was Judy Garland’s red shoes or something. Like it was Archie Bunker’s chair.”

“That’s a terrible story.”

“Yeah, isn’t it? And I’ll tell you what. Captain Jack should never have surrendered. He should’ve kept fighting. He should’ve kept running and hiding. He could’ve done that forever.”

“Is that why you’re running, son?”

“That’s right, old man, I’m not Captain Jack.”

“So, where you running to?”

Reggie pointed up the highway, pointed north or south, east or west, pointed toward a new city, though he knew every city was a city of white men.

“WHAT IS IT?” WILSON asked. “What do you want from me?”

“Please,” John whispered. “Let me, let us have our own pain.”

With a right hand made strong by years of construction work, with a blade that was much stronger than it looked, John slashed Wilson’s face, from just above his right eye, down through the eye and cheekbone, past the shelf of the chin, and a few inches down the neck. Blood, bread.

“No matter where you go,” John said to a screaming Wilson, “people will know you by that mark. They’ll know what you did.”

John touched Wilson’s face with his left hand and then looked at the blood on his fingertips.

“You’re not innocent,” whispered John.

John dropped the knife, turned away from Wilson, quickly walked to the edge of the building, and looked down at the streets far below. He was not afraid of falling. John stepped off the last skyscraper in Seattle.

John fell. Falling in the dark, John Smith thought, was different from falling in the sunlight. It took more time to fall forty floors in the dark. John’s fall was slow and precise, often stalled in midair, as if some wind had risen from the ground to counteract the force of gravity. He had time to count the floors of the office tower across the street, ten, fifteen, thirty, forty. Time enough to look up and find the one bright window in a tower of dark glass across the street. A figure backlit in the window. Time enough to raise his arms above his head, his feet pointing down toward the street, falling that way. The figure moved in the window above him. He had time to wonder if the figure was dancing. Or shaking with fear. Or laughter. Or tears. He had time enough to watch the figure grow smaller as he fell. Falling, fallen, will fall, has fallen, fell. Falling. Because he finally and completely understood the voices in his head. Because he knew the heat and music left his body when he marked Wilson. John was calm. He was falling.

He was still watching the shadow in the fortieth-floor window when he hit the pavement. It was quiet at first. His eyes were closed, must have closed on impact. He listened to the silence, felt a heavy pressure in his spine, and opened his eyes. He was facedown on the pavement. Pushing himself up, he felt a tearing inside. He stood above the body embedded in the pavement, small fissures snaking away from the arms and legs. The body in blue jeans, red plaid shirt, brown work boots, long, black hair. A fine dust floating. An anonymous siren in the distance, on its way somewhere else. He looked up at the building across the street. The window on the fortieth floor was dark. He knelt down and touched the body embedded in the pavement. Still warm. He pulled the wallet from the body’s blue jeans, found the photograph inside, and recognized the faces. He read the clipping about Father Duncan’s disappearance. He pulled the cash out of the wallet, let the wind take it from his fingers, watched it float away. The streetlights flashed red, flashed red. He tucked the photograph and clipping inside the wallet, slid it back into the pocket of the fallen man. John looked down at himself and saw he was naked. Brown skin. Muscles tensed in anticipation of the long walk ahead of him. He studied the other body as it sank deeper into the pavement. John stood, stepped over that body, and strode into the desert. Dark now, the desert was a different place. Colder and safer. An Indian father was out there beyond the horizon. And maybe an Indian mother with a scar on her belly from a Cesarean birth. She could know John’s real name. John wanted to find them both. He took one step, another, and then he was gone.

“MS. POLATKIN, MARIE, CAN you tell us something about John Smith?”

“He wasn’t the Indian Killer.”

“Why do you keep insisting on this? We have the murder weapon, we have Jack Wilson’s sworn testimony. John Smith was the Indian Killer. Case closed.”

“Jack Wilson is a liar.”

“Have you seen Wilson’s face? He looks like a car wreck. I hardly think he deserves to be called a liar. Have you even read his book about all of this?”

“No.”

“You should. It’s a very interesting portrait of John Smith. You’d like it. Wilson says that Indian children shouldn’t be adopted by white parents. He says that those kids commit suicide way too often. You ask me, John’s suicide was a good thing.”

“Wilson doesn’t know shit about Indians.”

“Have you read Dr. Mather’s book?”

“Absolutely not.”

“Really? You’re in it, you know? And it’s not too flattering, I must say.”

“So what.”

“Mather thinks your cousin Reggie is the Indian Killer. He thinks you might have been a part of it, too.”

“I hardly knew Reggie. And if I’d been a part of it, Mather wouldn’t have enough fingers left to write a book.”

“Are you threatening Dr. Mather?”

“No, I’m speaking metaphorically.”

“Did you have anything to do with the killings?”

“No.”

“Did you have anything to do with Reggie’s assault of Robert Harris?”

“No.”

“Do you know where Reggie is?”

“No.”

“Do you know Harley Tate or Ty Williams?”

“No.”

“Do you know where Harley Tate is?”

“No.”

“Besides Wilson, you were the last one to see John Smith alive.”

“Yeah. So?”

“What did you two talk about? Did you make plans for the future?”

“We didn’t talk much at all. We were busy fighting off those white assholes.”

“Barry Church and Aaron Rogers?”

“Yeah, why aren’t you hassling them?”

“Barry and Aaron have their own troubles.”

“Yeah, what did they get? Six months in county jail?”

“Weren’t you in a class with Aaron’s brother? The one who disappeared?”

“Yes.”

“Aaron Rogers has indicated that you and David had a romantic relationship.”

“That’s a lie.”

“My, my, Marie. Is every white man a liar?”

“Every one so far.”

“So, what was the nature of your relationship with David Rogers?”

“We were in a class together. I talked to him a couple of times. He asked me out. I turned him down. He disappeared. They found his body. That’s my relationship with David Rogers.”

“I see. And did you know about the camas field on the Rogers’s farm? Did you know about their land dispute with the Spokane Tribe?”

“The Spokanes have land disputes with most everybody. And no, I didn’t know about David and the camas field.”

“Did John Smith kill David Rogers?”

“No.”

“How would you know that?”

“John Smith didn’t kill anybody.”

“Did you kill David Rogers?”

“No way.”

“Did you and John Smith have a romantic relationship?”

“No. Listen to me. John Smith was screwed up. He was hurting. He didn’t know up from down. He got screwed at birth. He had no chance. I don’t care how nice his white parents were. John was dead from the start. And now you’re killing him all over again. Can’t you just leave him alone?”