T. Boyle - The Tortilla Curtain

It was during one of those forgetful periods, when she was lying on her back in the sand, staring up into the shifting patchwork of the leaves above her, so still and so empty she might have been comatose, that she became aware of the faintest stirring behind her. The day was high and hot, the birds silent, the distant traffic a drowsy hum. There was another sentient creature there with her in the hollow place at the base of the intermittent falls, another breathing, seeing, sensing thing. She wasn't alarmed. Though she couldn't see it, she could hear it, feel it, and it was no man, no snake, no thing that would do her harm. Very gradually, millimeter by millimeter, like a plant turning to the sun, she shifted her head in the sand until she could see behind her.

At first, she was disappointed, but she was patient, infinitely patient, rooted to the ground by the boredom of the days, and then she saw movement and the thing materialized all at once, as in one of those trick-of-the-eye drawings where you can look and look forever and see nothing until you turn your head the magic way. It was a coyote. Bristle fur, tanned the precise shade of the dried hill grasses, one paw lifted, ears high. It held there, sensing something amiss, and looked right through her with eyes of yellow glass, and she saw that it had dugs and whiskers and a black slotted nose and that it was small, small as the dog she'd had as a girl, and still it didn't move. She looked at that coyote so long and so hard that she began to hallucinate, to imagine herself inside those eyes looking out, to know that men were her enemies-men in uniform, men with their hats reversed, men with fat bloated hands and fat bloated necks, men with traps and guns and poisoned bait-and she saw the den full of pups and the hills shrunk to nothing under the hot quick quadrupedal gait. She never moved. Never blinked. But finally, no matter how hard she stared, she realized the animal was no longer there.

The fire snapped and fanned itself with a roar. Sparks and white flecks of ash shot straight up into the funnel of the ravine, trailing away into the night until the dark drank them up. The night was warm, the stars were cold. And Cándido, feeding the fire with one hand while skewering a sausage with the other and cradling a gallon jug of Cribari red between his thighs, was drunk. Not so drunk that he'd lost all cautioof át all caun-he'd observed the canyon from above, on the trail, with the fire going strong, and reassured himself that not even the faintest glimmer escaped the deep hidden nook where they'd made their camp. The smoke was visible, yes, but only in daylight, and in daylight he made sure the fire was out, or at least reduced to coals. But now it was dark and who could detect a few threads of smoke against the dark curtain of the sky?

Anyway, he was drunk. Drunk and feeding the fire, for the thin cheer of it, for the child's game of watching the flames crawl up a stick, and for the good and practical purpose of cooking sausages. A whole package, eight hot Italian sausages, not as good as _chorizo__ maybe, but good nonetheless. One after another, roasting them till they split, using a _tortilla__ like a glove to squeeze them off the stick and feed them into his mouth, bite by sizzling bite. And the wine, of course. Lifting the jug, heavy at first but getting lighter now, the wine hot in his gut and leaking from the corners of his mouth, and then setting the jug down again, between his legs, in the sand. That was the process, the plan, the sum of his efforts. Stick, sausage, wine.

America, grown modest in proportion to the way the baby was changing her shape, stood off in the shadows, by the hut, trying on the clothes he'd brought back for her from the Goodwill in Canoga Park. They'd been working up the street, repairing stucco on an apartment building that was changing hands, and Rigoberto-the Indian who worked for Al Lopez-told him about the store. It was cheap. And he found maternity c! othes-big flower-print shorts with an expanding waistline, dresses like sacks, corduroy pants that could have fit a clown. He'd selected one shapeless dress with an elastic waistband-pink, with green flowers all over it-and a pair of shorts. She'd asked for blue jeans, something durable to wear around the camp and save her two dresses, but there was no sense in buying her jeans that wouldn't fit for another three or four months, and so he'd settled on the shorts as a compromise. She could always take them in later.

All that was fine, but he was drunk. Drunk for a purpose, for a reason. Drunk because he was fed up with the whole yankee gringo dog-eat-dog world where a poor man had to fight like a conquering hero just to keep from starving to death, drunk because after three weeks of on-again, off-again work and the promise of something better, Al Lopez had let him go. Rigoberto's brother, the one who'd been ill, was back from his sickbed and ready to work. A hernia, that's what he had, and he'd gone to the gringo doctors to sew it up, and that was all right, because he had papers, _la tarjeta__ verde, and he was legal. Cándido was not. “Haven't I done good work?” he asked Al Lopez. “Haven't I run after everything you told me to do like a human _burro,__ haven't I busted my balls?”

“Yes, sure,” Al Lopez had said, “but that's not the problem. You don't have papers and Ignacio does. I could get in trouble. Big trouble.” And so Cándido had bought the sausages and the wine and come home drunk with the dress and the shorts in a paper bag, and he was drunk now and getting drunker.

In three weeks, he'd made nearly three hundred dollars, minus some for food and the first dress he'd bought America, the pretty one, from the gringo store. That left him just over two hundred and fifty dollars, which was half what he'd need for a car and a quarter what he'd need for a decent apartment, because they all-even the Mexican landlords-wanted first and last months' rent and a deposit too. The money was buried in a plastic peanut butter jar under a rock behind the wrecked car and he didn't know how he was going to be able to add to it. He'd only got work once when Al Lopez hadn't come for him, and that was just half a day at three dollars an hour, hauling rock for a wall some old lam sá some olddy was building around her property. It was the end of July. The dry weather would hold for four months more, and by then América would have had her baby-his son-and they would have to have a roof over their heads. The thought darkened his mood and when America stepped into the firelight to show off the big shorts with her jaguar's smile, he snapped at her.

“Those _vagos,”__ he said, and the tongue was so thick in his throat he might have swallowed a snake, “they took more than just your money, didn't they? Didn't they?”

Her face went numb. “You go to hell,” she said. _“Borracho.__ I told you, I told you a thousand times,” and she turned away and hid herself in the hut.

He didn't blame her. But he was drunk and angry and he wanted to hurt her, wanted to hurt himself, twisting the knowledge round and round his brain like a rotten tooth rotated in its socket. How could he pretend not to know what had happened? How could he allow himself to be fooled? She hadn't let him touch her in three weeks, and why was that? The baby, she claimed. She felt sick. She had a headache. Her digestion wasn't right, no, Cándido, no… well, maybe it was true. But if he ever found that son of a bitch with the raw eyes and that stupid _pinche__ baseball cap… and he looked for him too, everywhere, every time Al's truck took a turn and there was somebody there beside the road, a pair of shoulders, a cap, blue jeans and a stranger's face… Cándido knew what he would do when he found him, his fist pounding on the window till the truck stopped, the _vago__ loping up to the truck for a ride, his lucky day, and the first thing Cándido could lay his hands oh, the big sledge for driving stakes, the machete for clearing brush, and if he went to prison for a hundred years it would be sweet compared to this…