William Boyd: Waiting for Sunrise

“What’re you looking at?” she said abruptly, meeting his gaze in the reflection of the etching’s glass.

“I was admiring your bootees,” Lysander improvised quickly and smoothly. “Did you buy them here in Vienna? —”

She never answered, as the door to Dr Bensimon’s consulting room opened at that moment and two men stepped out, talking and chuckling to each other. Lysander knew at once which one was Dr Bensimon, an older man in his forties, quite bald with a brown trimmed beard flecked with grey. Everything about the other man — to Lysander’s eyes — shouted ‘soldier’. A navy double-breasted suit, a banded tie below a stiff collar, narrow cuffed trousers above shoes so polished they might have been patent. Tall, ascetically lean with a small neat dark moustache.

But the young woman was immediately in a kind of frenzy, interrupting them, calling Dr Bensimon’s name, apologizing and at the same time insisting on seeing him, absolutely essential, an emergency. The military man stepped back, leaned back, as Dr Bensimon — glancing at Lysander — swept the yammering woman into his room, Lysander hearing him say in a stern low voice as he did so, “This must never happen again, Miss Bull,” before the door to his consulting room shut behind them.

“Good god,” said the military type, dryly. He was English as well. “What’s going on there?”

“She seemed very agitated, I have to say,” Lysander said. “Cadged two cigarettes off me.”

“What’s the world coming to?” the man said, lifting his bowler off its wooden hook. He held it in his hands and looked candidly at Lysander.

“Have we met before?” he said.

“No. I don’t think so.”

“You seem oddly familiar, somehow.”

“I must look like someone you know.”

“Must be that.” He held out his hand. “I’m Alwyn Munro.”

“Lysander Rief.”

“Now that does ring a bell.” He shrugged, cocked his head, narrowed his eyes as if searching his memory and then smiled as he gave up and moved to the door. “Don’t feed her any more cigarettes, if I were you. She looks a bit dangerous to me.”

He left and Lysander resumed his scrutiny of the small drab courtyard outside. He extracted every possible detail from the view — the basket-weave pattern of the paving stones, the dog-toothed moulding on the arch above the stable door, a damp streak on the brickwork under a dripping tap. He kept his mind occupied. A few minutes later the young woman appeared from Dr Bensimon’s room, evidently much calmer, more composed. She picked up her handbag.

“Thank you for letting me barge ahead,” she said breezily. “And for the ciggies. You’re very kind.”

“Not at all.”

She said goodbye and sauntered out, her long skirt swinging. She glanced back at him as she closed the door behind her and Lysander caught a final glimpse of those strange, light brown, hazel eyes. Like a lion’s eyes, he thought. But she was called Miss Bull.

Lysander sat in Dr Bensimon’s consulting room, looking around him as the doctor wrote down his personal details in a ledger. The room was spacious, with three windows along one wall, simply furnished and almost entirely done in shades of white. White painted walls, white woollen curtains, a white rug on the blond parquet and a beaten silver-metalled primitive-looking bas-relief hung above the fireplace. In one corner was Dr Bensimon’s mahogany desk, backed by floor-to-ceiling glass-fronted bookshelves. On one side of the fireplace was a soft high-backed armchair, loose-covered in coarse cream linen and on the other a divan under a thick, woollen fringed blanket and two embroidered pillows. Both were facing away from the desk and Lysander, who had chosen the armchair, found he had to crane his neck round uncomfortably if he wanted to see the doctor. The room was very quiet — double windows — and Lysander could hear no sound of the city streets beyond — no clatter of electric trams, no carriages or wagons clopping by, no automobiles — it was ideally calm.

Lysander looked at the silver bas-relief. Fantastic African figures, half-man, half-animal, with extravagant headdresses, pricked out with traceries of small holes punched through the soft metal. It was strange and very beautiful — and doubtless freighted with all manner of pertinent symbolism, Lysander thought.

“Mr L.U. Rief,” Bensimon said. In the quiet room Lysander could hear the scratch of his fountain pen. His voice was lightly accented, somewhere from the north of England, Lysander guessed, Yorkshire or Lancashire, but honed down so that placing the location was impossible. He was good at accents, Lysander flattered himself — he’d unlock it in a minute or so.

“What do the initials stand for?”

“Lysander Ulrich Rief.”

“Marvellous name.”

Manchester, Lysander thought — that flat ‘A’.

“Rief — is that Scottish?”

“Old English. It means ‘thorough’, some say. And I’ve also been told it’s Anglo-Saxon dialect for ‘wolf’. All very confusing.”

“A thorough wolf. Wolfishly thorough. What about the ‘Ulrich?’ Are you part German?”

“My mother is Austrian.”

“From Vienna?”

“Linz, actually. Originally.”

“Date of birth?”

“Mine?”

“Your mother’s age is hardly relevant, I would venture.”

“Sorry. Seventh of March 1886.”

Lysander turned again in the chair. Bensimon was leaning back in his seat, at ease, smiling, fingers laced behind his shining paté.

“Best not to bother turning round all the time. Just think of me as a disembodied voice.”

Lysander walked downstairs from Bensimon’s apartment, slowly, his mind full of thoughts, some pleasurable, some dissatisfying, some troubling. The meeting had been brief, lasting only some fifteen minutes. Bensimon had written down his personal details, had discussed payment methods (bi-monthly invoicing and cash settlement) and then finally had asked him if he would like to discuss the nature of his ‘problem’.

Lysander paused in the street outside and lit a cigarette, wondering if this process he had embarked on would really help or if he would have been better going to Lourdes, say? Or to have taken up some quack’s remedy? Or become a vegetarian and wear Jaeger underwear like George Bernard Shaw? He frowned, uncertain suddenly — not a good mood to be in, not encouraging. It was his closest friend Greville Varley who had suggested psychoanalysis to him — Greville being the only other person aware of his problem (and only vaguely so, at that) — and Lysander had followed up the idea like a zealot, he now realized, cancelling all his future plans, withdrawing his savings, moving to Vienna, seeking out the right doctor. Had he been foolishly impetuous or was it merely a sign of his desperation?…

Turn left at Berggasse, Bensimon had said, then walk all the way down to the little square, to the junction of all the roads at the bottom. The shop is right in front of you — WKM — can’t miss it. Lysander set off, his mind still full of the crucial moment.

Bensimon:

So, what seems to be the nature of the problem?

Lysander:

It’s…It’s a sexual problem.

Bensimon:

Yes. It usually is. At root.

Lysander:

When I engage in lustful activity…That’s to say, during amatory congress –

Bensimon:

Please don’t search for euphemisms, Mr Rief. Plain speaking — it’s the only way. Be as blunt and as coarse as you like. Use the language of the street — nothing can offend me.

Lysander: